Pappammma!!!

happy new year 2012...

2012-01-02T11:25:00.000+08:00

hey everyone! wish all of u a very very happy new year 2012! :)) as i say every year...time really flies! it doesnt feel like one year passed at all and i dont remember anything significant i did in 2011! but yayyy lets welcome the new year and see wat is in store for us! :) hehe recently actually i have been meeting a lot of ppl who dont believe in new year or in birthdays or in any sort of celebrations! hehe like wat my friend posted on fb...saying that a single day is the start of a new year is like pointing to a point on a circle and saying it is the start! hehe true also! but i guess anything can be a reason to celebrate! after all celebrations r fun and nice! and with all the happy and positive vibes from everyone...everyone just feels happy for some reason! and i believe that each day is just as important and worth celebrating! :) so happy new year to u regardless of whether u believe in it or not! :)

hehe this year my new year resolution is to not make any resolution because i never follow them anyway...in fact i dont even remember my resolutions after the first day! hehe let me think...i think in the past it has been things like...oo must only eat brown rice...must exercise...must be nice to everyone...must help with house chores...but in the end...never do anything at all...hehe i guess resolutions should only be made when we r completely ready and determined to do something! and we can do that any time...doesnt have to be on new year hehe...so if i do make any resolution in the middle of the year i shall let u all noe! :)

anyway just wanted to list my top 10 songs that i really liked this year because i think after many years i had a confusion on which is my best song! on oli's countdown i usually can guess a few songs every year but this time i couldnt hehe...i guessed enamo etho and otha sollala but in the end it was mankatha which was nowhere near my top 10 hehe! oo wells! enamo etho is my song of the year no matter wat! :)

and my top 10 movies:

-Aadukalam
-Ko
-Engeyum Epothum
-Mouna Guru
-Theivathirumagal
-Kanchana
-7aam Arivu
-Mankatha (can watch once only!)
-Vaagai Soodava
-Siruthai (just for the comedy!)

i didnt like osthi...rajapattai...mayakkam enna...avan ivan...180 that much! :) all could have been so much better!

anyway it was a good year for good songs and great movies! so hope u all enjoy ur new year and have a great 2012 ahead! :)

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEARRR!:)

ok then...

Take care,
S.Purnima Janani

ethiroli...

2011-12-08T12:58:00.000+08:00

hey everyone! so yday i had my second ethiroli shooting nearly after 2 years! and it felt sooo great to meet the same team again! :) They r such jolly and nice ppl they make everyone feel so happy and good! :) And they all even remembered my name! =)) Really love the team! Rite from the cameraman to the host to the producers...everyone was so funny and niceee! Really like being part of their shows all the time mainly because they make me feel so much at home :) Of course before going for the shoots i feel super nervous and even when talking i feel super shy and weird...but still...the whole excitement before and after the shoot...and the funny things that happen during the shoot r so nice to experience! And since i came back from the shoot i have been having a serious hangover...it was just a few hours that we all spent together but somehow i miss the whole place and ppl and experience so much...i rmb how 2 years ago this was how we felt as well...after the shoot ended i was just standing there and talking to all of them as if i didnt want to go home...just makes me sad when everyone leaves and everything ends so abruptly! the joy...the fun...the good times...and yday...i felt the same way! it felt like...oo noo when r we all going to come again together after this! :( was sad...and as usual was talking and talking after the shoot ended until my friends had to drag me out! hehe...i guess i really love the environment there... :)

many many years ago...like 6 years ago when me and my friends interned at mediacorp...i felt this way too! each day was something to look forward to and everyday we learn new things from the ppl there! they all had such nice and valuable stories to share and made me feel so comfortable! I remember i really missed the place when i ended my internship there too...and when they asked so will u all come back to work here in the future? i think i was the only one who said YES I WILL! hehe but of course wat i am doing now is completely far far away from wat i should have done...in fact my passion for Tamil has been left alone for super long as well...yday when i had to suddenly speak in Tamil it just wasnt easy and natural anymore...i had to repeatedly keep thinking of words and forming sentences...and it felt so bad! I even used an English to Tamil online dictionary to search for simple simple words... :( In the past it used to be so natural...no planning no thinking...just talk! Practising for debates everyday really helped in the natural flow of Tamil! But now i have lost it...and i have no idea why i let myself lose my passion for Tamil...even though i may not be doing anything related to it...i should at least spend some time brushing up my Tamil and doing things related to Tamil in my own time! But sigh...why did i just let go? Of course i still do talk in Tamil with my friends and family members but that is just normal stuff...when it comes to talking fluently about a topic with the rite words and making a coherent and clear argument...i am unable to do it alr :( I rmb i badly wanted to study Tamil literature in JC and Tamil in Uni as well...but both didnt happen...but just because of that i should not have let go of my interests and ritings completely...not that i was good in Tamil or anything...just that I was really interested in it and it made me happy! Probably the whole Tamil class fun and Tamil friends i had and mokkai we speak in Tamil all made Tamil feel extremely close to me...it wasnt just a language for me...it was more than that :)

And maybe that is why i was so happy again yday...to be able to get back that drive to speak in Tamil and to be able to actually think about Tamil words and sentences...of course watever i spoke in the end was still omg -_-blabbering and such incoherent stuff (yes i start with something and talk abt something else and end with something else :S) hehe...but at least the process of thinking about wat to say in Tamil made me happy :) It felt like meeting a long lost friend/love... :) And i truly have not experienced this sort of joy in a long long time...and i should thank the team for allowing this to happen! :)

At least from now on i should make a conscious effort to pen down my thoughts in Tamil and to continue riting in Tamil...there r so many of my friends who have a Tamil blog...rite Tamil poems in their free time and all that! And even when they showed me their works it didnt strike me that I should be doing that too! :S How stupid of me! But definitely yday made me realise that I have gone far far faaaaaaar away from all my interests and have just been going with the flow...so it is time to get back to those good old times and think about where to go from here! :)

And i have always wanted to work as a Tamil teacher for primary school students...but am not sure how i am fit anymore since i myself cant speak continuously in Tamil...so that requires lots and lots of training like wat i was doing 6 or 7 years ago! :S wow time really flies man...hehe maybe i should just go work with the ethiroli team! :P they r such fun ppl i really really love all of them! :) It is an amazing work environment...and though there is so much of work to do like finding a topic finding ppl to talk finding a place to talk...gathering everyone planning wat to say...shooting the episode...going back to edit it...make the trailer make the episode and repeat the cycle again...it feels so nice to be doing something for everyone to benefit and learn from...it creates awareness among ppl and it leads to more and more discussion! :) That is one thing that would make me feel satisfied...and of couse the fact that the ppl there...even under so much of pressure...u can see that they all really really love their work! That is why they r so happy and fun and talk so sweetly with everyone! :)) Even in schools...like when i am doing projects with ppl...my project mates get sooo worked up and tensed and get frustrated and scream at ppl when they r really working on something...and over the past few years i have accepted that ok this is wat ppl will do when they r stressed/under pressure...and even i do it (not the screaming part but becoming all tension tension and easily agitated hehe) but this team...and the Tamil news team i was interning under many years ago...the ppl from both these teams have always been sooooo extremelyyy calm and cool and pleasant! Never have i seen any of them tensed or angry at all...even if someone makes a mistake they take it really lightly and just continue in a very jolly manner! They even make jokes out of it! Sooo cute! :)) And i think that is an amazing thing! Probably everyone needs to be cool so that they can make the ppl who r talking feel comfortable and happy as well but still...under so much of pressure i have no idea how they r all able to be so nice and calm! :) They even spend time talking to us before and after the show when they have other work to do...and made me feel so attached to them! :)which is why i am missing the whole thing rite now! Thinking abt it...Wow...it would really be a dream to be part of the teams because if someone can make u feel like this is wat u should be doing everyday...then that is where ur real interest lies! :) Imagine going for work everyday and missing ur workplace when u go back home! That is the best man! :)) But of course these things will never happen because I am like not fit at all to be part of their team...no knowledge and no talent aaa...so forget it! :S

Anyway! Just wanted to blog abt this because am still feeling so high from the shoot! And i really want to meet them all againnnnnn! But that will probably only happen after another two years...or never... :S oo wells...

ok sori i am so high hehe! :) have a good day ahead! And rmb to never let go of ur passion! :)

Take care,
S.Purnima Janani

lowe failure songs...

2011-10-07T17:09:00.039+08:00

hey everyone! everytime i am sad i listen to lowe failure songs...so just decided to share a few of them here! dont noe why some lowe failure songs r mostly directed at girls and talk abt how the girl cheated the guy or used him and how guys should never trust girls and how the guy was so sincere while the girl was playing around. hehe i mean it can apply both ways rite...come on female poets! start riting about how guys can cheat on girls as well! =P heehee anyway love failure songs r nice in their own way...very very sad and touching...and can make u cry just thinking about a lost love...

so here r my top 10! =)

dont cry too much...love is only for those who r fated to find it... =)

Take care,
S.Purnima Janani

looks dont matter!

2011-10-07T14:08:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone! Been sooo long since i last blogged! Hehe have always been havin the urge to blog whenever i see or hear of something bloggable but just never got down to riting it! Hopefully i still rmb some of the things i thought abt over the past few weeks! =)

So one of it was linked to wat i wanted to rite abt looong ago! The issue of how much looks and grooming urself matters to ppl these days. Seriously i have no clue why this is such a big deal to some ppl. I noe that looking good makes anyone happy and gives u the yayyy today i look good feeling...but i personally dont believe that this feeling should be ur main source of happiness and confidence. Like seriously! It is good to be happy when u look good but u shouldnt be sad when u dont! I noe of ppl who r soooo overly concerned about looks that their priority is always on that. And i mean ALWAYS. Even when they go to classes...or return from a flight all shagged...the first thing they do is to check themselves out on the mirror and start whining. And they will be like OO NOOO i am so fat...aaa i got pimple...sigh am so ugly...blablabla and they go on and on non-stop for the whole day. Damn pissing off. Like so wat if u dont look good? Not everyone has to grow up to be pretty and slim and model material. And that too look good everyday -_- so get a life. I dont even think ppl who r pretty and have a good body r superior. Because wat matters more is ur character and who u r in the inside. Ur looks can only mean 20% to me. If u r extremely pretty but not very nice, i wouldnt even think u r pretty. And vice versa. But i am not so sure about how much other ppl might value beauty. =S

So then another subtopic when it comes to beauty is grooming. A lot of ppl i meet these days believe that grooming is definitely something that is needed in many situations. Like when it comes to ppl's impression on u and in order to portray urself as someone who takes cares of himself, they believe that grooming is a must. And they also feel that it definitely gives them an advantage over non-groomers when it comes to being more confident in jobs and their social lives and love lives. Even on vijay tv there have been numerous debates in neeya naana regarding this topic and there r always two groups of ppl who argue for and against grooming. So once in the debate it was mentioned that there r two types of ppl- not sure of the terms but i think it is physical and intellectual. So the intellectual ppl do feel good when they look good but their focus isnt on that. They dont take extra efforts to thread their eyebrows and blowdry their hair and look good all the time. In fact they r happier when ppl praise them for things like them being able to lead a group well or teach someone something well. That is wat gives them real confidence that they can do something, whereas for the other group of ppl, they feel that when someone praises the way they look that gives them happiness. And they feel like that is their identity. So these were the two groups of ppl's overall thoughts. :)

I think that it is perfectly fine to get ur own happiness from grooming if u believe in it. But the problem comes in when u try to change other ppl to suit ur way of thinking. The moment someone tells u that their confidence or self-esteem is low...a lot of ppl's first advice is to go lose weight and start grooming urself. I think losing weight in order to be healthy and strong is good. Definitely helps u feel better when u feel healthy as well. But losing weight JUST to look good and to feel "more confident" is bad. That too when u urself dont believe in it. It is quite a weird situation because when ppl tell me to go groom myself i do feel that i might become more confident if i do it because of how much the world around me values it. I might be more accepted in some groups that dont even talk to me now and i might feel better from that. But i dont want to get my confidence by doing this because to me it is an extremely weird route. Like if i myself dont believe that looking good is such a big deal then why should i do it just to get good vibes from ppl i dont even noe? I am not sure if i can even be happy that more ppl r accepting me just because i have transformed myself to be someone else. In fact i think i might end up feeling worse. Yes a lot of ppl feel down and have low self-esteem because of so many different things- becuase they feel they arent good enuf in wat they r doing, because a lot of ppl dont accept them for no particular reason and because they dont see a purpose in life. But why is it that to make them confident u tell them to start looking good? Why dont u tell them to do something that will improve themselves in wat they feel is lacking in them? Or do things that will make them FEEL good? Like go for courses? Or do social service? Or start their own hobby? Of all things why do u tell them to look good? The only answer i have is again because of how much ppl value it. See if nobody thought it was a big deal and thought of everyone as equal without judging them on their first impression...then i am not sure if everyone will still spend so much effort and time and money to groom themselves. Yes i do noe of ppl who groom themselves to personally feel good from inside and that is fine. I think if u believe in it and u r doing it for urself then it is no problem at all. Just that when u do it ONLY to be accepted in some groups then it is slightly sad. It is like nobody has accepted u for the person u really r. And worse if u make other ppl do it as well just becuase of wat u believe in.

I think because we value beauty and grooming so much without us realising it, we have started judging ppl without us noeing. This is the extremely sad consequence of this whole situation. I dont noe why but ppl say it is very natural to like and be attracted to good looking ppl more. I used to think ppl only use that as a criteria when r looking for a bf or gf. And i do noe that a lot of ppl dont think it is a big deal when u r choosing ur love also (:)) But in recent times i noe of so many ppl who wont even talk to u or think of u as friends if u dress shabily or dont comb ur hair. I think this is like one of the worst ways of judging someone. These ppl who i have talked to state that if they see ppl who dont wear clothes properly or look like they dont care abt grooming then they r lazy and irresposible and have no drive or motivation in life. Then i will be like pls...u dont even noe him! How can u just look at someone and conclude so many things abt him! If u want u should become his friend without having any ideas abt him and then get to noe abt his character and then if u really really cannot accept it just leave him! Why must u create barriers around urself and not even befriend him just becuase u think he is someone he may not even be? I noe of a lot of ppl who dont groom themselves for many many reasons. They might have no time to do it or not think of it as that important or not even have enough money to buy that many clothes. And i noe of ppl who r sooo hardworking that they simply r not bothered abt these stuff. All they care about is doing well in their work and achieving something. So why must u stereotype ppl who dont groom themselves as lazy ppl? Also, u should realise that ppl have their own definitions of grooming. For me for example, i think if u bathe everyday and wear clean clothes and look decent it is good enuf. For some ppl it is wearing fashionable clothes and shoes. For some it is just bathing everyday. For some it is wearing makeup and wearing nice classy clothes. So if u think that someone hasnt achieved ur level of grooming why do u have to put him down? How would u feel if i told u that ur fashionable clothes arent enuf and u have to wear branded clothes and make up and then only i would talk to u? I dont understand how looks can even be a criteria for choosing friends. Isnt friendship supposed to have no barriers especially before u even get to noe someone? A lot of ppl say first impression is the best impression. Yes that might be true to a certain extent but havent u met ppl who u thought were like this but ended up to be completely different ppl? So why not take that chance? I have felt extremely sad in the past when ppl always thought i was weird or nerdy for so many years in my life and always wished somebody would just talk to me without just ignoring me. And i would never do that to anyone unless i realise ur character and principles r not nice. So looks and all r nothing to me if i am talking to u for the first time as friends =) yayyy be my friend!

And of course i have many many friends who always wear make up or groom themselves when we all go out. And as teenagers we always discussed about how we should wear this wear that look good and all. And i have actually shopped for those make up stuff and have them at home also. Just that i never felt like using them. Hehe! Like i like buying those but dont feel the need or the urge to use them before going out. Just not in me. And even when my friends genuinely tell me to try to wear it i wont because i dont believe in it. I do noe that my friends really really r saying it becasue of their concern for me but i dont want to be accepted this way. Even if it means losing some groups of friends it doest matter to me. All i want is ppl who will accept me for who i am and not be bothered about how i look or dress up. =)

Anyway why i wanted to blog about this is because of the recent london weight management advertisement issue. The ad was really quite disturbing and i was super angry when i saw it. Had the same feelings towards it as Anita Kapoor. To attribute any form of looks- like a slim body, to success and a happy marriage life was just sad. It was as if that was the only thing her husband and her boss cared about. Sad sad. I wonder if there r ppl like that actually. I always ask my guy friends if they would prefer a wife who was pretty and nice or not so pretty but very nice. And most of them usually say they need a combination of both. I dont noe why hehe. I always never thought it was as important because of two reasons- one is that looks r temporary and that is the first thing to change as u age. Secondly, looks arent a reflection of ur personality. So if i look at all my crushes/ppl i have liked...they all arent that dashing hot or handsome. Just very very nice and humble ppl and i think that is wat makes them handsome =)

Also...whenever i see extreme makeover shows or not so extreme makeover shows i get super pissed off. U dont just go surprise someone at home and tell them they r going for a makeover and then do things to them and then ask them at the end if they feel more confident and good. That is just sad. I will be super sad if my friends arrange that for me hehe. I think u have no rites to tell me how i should look like even if u r my husband and that u changing my looks is as if u r changing my entire identity. If i dont believe in it u shouldnt force me to do things in the hope of making me more confident. And to see how ppl in some of these shows cry a lot because of how they were always bullied or discriminated against makes me super sad. Like there was this woman who had crooked teeth and she never smiled or talked much because ppl always made fun of her. So she went for that show and cried so much and the panel decided to do an operation or something to make her get well alligned teeth and a beautfiul smile. So they printed out a picture of her with her how-her-teeth-will-look-like and showed it to her and she was so surprised and happy to see it. And then she cried again because she was happy that it was going to happen to her. After that i switched off the tv and dont noe wat happened but i felt like ppl r just making other ppl feel worse and worse about themselves. If someone comes to me crying because of the way she looks the only thing i will change in her is the way she thinks and not the part she feels sad about. The more we do these kind of things, the more we r encouraging and supporting ppl to think that yes looks r so important that u have to change things about urself in order to be happy. And then it will jsut become ingrained in us that it we MUST look good/normal/acceptable. That is just rong. I want to make a show that shows how ppl can be happy without looking good. It is all in the mind. And if ppl bully u because of how u look, tell them they suck and move on with life. Dont keep changing urself to be accepted because ppl will never be satisfied no matter wat u do. And no matter how "bad" other ppl think ur smile is...u have all the rights in the world to smile from ear to ear. :) I noe it is difficult to live with those vibes comin to u but we have to fight against it and not give in to these ppl. Prove to them that u can be happy without being one of them. And i would always remember this quote whenever i think of this issue- "They laugh at me because i am different. I laugh at them because they r all the same." :)

So yes. Be the change u want to see in this world.

Take care,
S.Purnima Janani

Sangae Muzhangu 2011...

2011-08-27T13:01:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl! Last week i attended Sangae Muzhangu 2011! =) Was really really excited to go for it because i had no clue wat the story was abt or wat to expect! And it was simply amazing! Good script that covered most of the recent social and political issues...nice dances at the start and really good comedy! I think it is hard to bring out comedy sometimes because we may not be sure hoe the audience will react to it! But this year comedy was damn good! We laughed and laughed at dinesh's tamil dialogues and usha's cute english! hehehe was really cute! And as always...awesome acting by nallu durga jayasutha and the hero of the show VEMALAN! i have no clue how he remembered soooo many dialogues because he was there in most of the scenes! Really matured acting! He looked really experienced! =) was very nice! And the props were really huge and beautiful to look at from far! props has always been the highlight of sangae! So this year it was as usual amazing! =) Loved the caves and the circus at the end! =) Always wondered how they made such huge and stable ones! Super nice! loved priya's rendition of kanaamoochi yenadaa also! the setup totally reminded me of my time sangae where priya sang and usha danced for kannalane! that was the highlight of sangae 09 so doing it again this year was nice! =) My favourite song in the show was eppadi iruntha en manasu though hehe! Very cute choreography! Between nallu and durga there was this professional loweee...and then at the background there were two jc students running around! WAS DAMN CUTEEE! =)) heheh will definitely remind everyone of their teenage love... =) niceeeee! i used to like the song for genelia! but now i like this choreography better! hehe there was a certain cuteness and innocence to it...especially when nallu durga and the jc boy each did the same step in the middle of the stage with the spotlight on them! =)) super nice!

Story wise i always wondered how it was possible to integrate social and political issues into a different story! Was very intelligent...but needed to think a lot! hehe it was like a kamalhaasan movie! And the last scene was damn manmathan ambu! HEHE! with confusions and ppl looking for each other...totally reminded me of the comedy in manmathan ambu...hehehe but overall the story was thought provoking and nice man! Really raised the bars! =) GOOD JOB NALLU AND TEAMMM! =)) could see the amount of hardwork and dedication that everyone had! =) very good effort! And was super proud of nallu and durga for supporting each other all the wayyy! =)) yayyy! Every scene just reminded me abt my time sangae...how much they would have rehearsed over the holidays...how much technical details they would have taken care of and stuff like that...totally brought back lots of good memories! no matter how difficult it is to go thru the entire process...i think at the end it is all worth it! =)) when u finally see the performance on stage...u will definitely wish u were part of the production! =) and that is how i felt at the end as well...i was like CHA! miss pannitomeyyy...sigh...hopefully next time i can come back and be part of this beautiful show as well! =))

enjoyyyy!

Take care,

S.Purnima Janani

10 ways to overcome sadness!

2011-08-10T17:34:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone! Recently i was thinking of wat all i do when i am sad hehe...so i just decided to share it!

Disclaimer: These will not help u solve ur problem...they r just (escapism) techniques to help u feel better when u r sad so that u can stop being sad and can get down to dealing with the problem hopefully! =)

1. Listen to songs!
Sometimes listening to dancey fast-beat songs can really help u change ur mood and make u say...screw the problem i am going to dance woo hoo! And sometimes, listening to soothing songs that r in line with ur mood can make u feel like u arent alone because the lyrics make u feel like somebody out there totally understands u! =) Songs that continuously remind u of ur problem/some person u r trying to forget can provoke ur feelings and bring back memories that make u cry and u actually might feel better after that as well! And finally! Inspirational songs r nice too- they prevent u from jumping off the cliff and show u that there might be some light at the end of the tunnel! =)

2. Talk to a friend! *thank u Shafali for always being there to listen to my problems =)*
Pouring out my feelings whenever i am sad has been the best solution for me hehe, especially when i get to pour it out to a good friend who noes exactly how i am feeling and noes wat exactly to say to make me get over it! =) Seriously, i have tried bottling up and keeping things to myself so as not to trouble others as well, but that just makes me feel worse because i feel like i am left there alone to die and i end up thinking abt it again and again without getting over it. =S Telling someone really reduces ur burden and when the other person gives u a new perspective/ tells u similar or worse problems that she herself is going thru, u will definitely see ur problem from a new angle. And when u start giving other ppl advice when u listen to their problems, u can apply those stuff u tell other ppl to ur own lives as well! So, it works both ways! A heart-to-heart convo is always refreshing! =) And even if there is nobody to pour out to, u could blog abt it or rite it down in ur private journal just to let it out! =)

3. Accept the pain!
Accept that wat had to happen, had to happen and though irrational, u could blame it on things like fate and bad luck for the time being! The point is to stop blaming urself or someone else for wat had happened and to stop thinking abt how things could have been different if only u had done blabla blabla! Simply accept that it was meant to happen or that it wasnt meant to be and move on with life! After all, u cant have control over every single thing in this world so understand that things just happen! Shit happens rite!

4. Understand that time is finite!
Stop depressing urself over something for sooooooooooooo long and dwelling over the same tiny issue as if there is nothing better to do in life! Do u noe how long u r going to live for? Another 10 years? 30 years? 50 years? Watever it is, realise that time is finite! And that time stops for no man! So, if u worrying/being sad abt something is not going to solve the problem or make u and the others around u feel better, why be sad! Get over it and start dealing with the problem if u can! If not, heck it and do things that will make urself useful to society! =)

5. Distract urself!
This is the most common advice ppl probably give to others when they r sad! Do things that help u forget the problem and make u concentrate on other stuff! Like stuff that r due soon or things that need ur attention! When u stop thinking abt ur problem and come back to it at a later time, u would proly have a different feeling towards it! =) So this is a good way to detach urself from ur sadness!

6. Cry it out!
If u feel like crying when u r sad, just cry! Dont stop urself from crying because that will just keep the sadness within u! So just cry it out and u might actually feel better! =)

7. Have a looong bath and a good nite of sleep!
Stand under a hot shower for damn long and just let the water wash down ur tears and sadness! Bathe until u feel better and then sleep without thinking abt anything. A long nite of sleep can really make ur mind feel clearer the next day. If u wake up crying the next day thinking abt the same problem, it is ok! Just let go of it slowly and a few days later u will feel better! =)

8. Play with babies!
Whenever u look at babies, u get this happiness automatically! They r such cute and happy ppl...always living in the present moment! Babies definitely make u happy just with the funny things they say and cute actions! =)

9. Worry big!
If u want to be sad, be sad abt something big! Not the teeny weeny thingies! Think abt ppl who r facing real problems, like poverty and crime and think abt how to solve those problems. Comparitvely, ur problems will be NOTHING compared to those! Although this is quite a sad way of making urself feel better, at least it will make u stop being sad over little things that dont actually matter at all!

10. Be thankful for wat u have!
Stop being sad over something u dont have and think abt all those things u do have! U should be thankful for things u actually have and be grateful for that itself! =) This will help u appreciate things better and make u develop a positive outlook in life because u wouldnt ask for more!

YAY! =) So these r my suggestions! Feel free to say wat u do when u r sad on my tagboard! Might help someone! =)

I love this song! JEEVA DAMN HANDSOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! =))

YAY HAVE FUN! STAY HAPPY! =))

Take care,
S.Purnima Janani

anju rooba...

2011-08-03T12:13:00.002+08:00

Hey ppl! Recently have been watching a lot of short films on youtube...like mittaai veedu, kaathalil sothappuvathu eppadi and mugaputhabagam! Some r really funny and some r really impactful! Hoping to watch even better short films soon! =) But one of the best short films i have watched so far is anju rooba. Really touching and sweet...i love the amma character! =)

Watch pannunga...Feel pannunga... =(

Take care,

sing along!

2011-08-03T12:02:00.000+08:00

I just watched Deivathirumagal again yday! =( Was so beautifulll...I wish i could meet a character like Krishna in real life also...he is soooooooo niceeeeeeeeee! =) And i have been listening to vizhigalil oru vaanavil repeatedly too! =) So sing along!

Vizhigalil Oru Vaanavil.. Imaigalai Thottu Paesuthey..

Ithu Enna Puthu Vaanilai.. Mazhai Veyil Tharum..

Unnidam Paarkiraen.. Naan Paarkiraen..

En Thaaimugam Anbae..

Unnidam Thoarkiraen.. Naan Thoarkiraen..

Ennagumo Ingae..

Muthan Muthalaai Mayangugiraen..

Kannaadi Pola Thoandrinaai..

En Muney Ennai Kaatinaai..

Kanaa Engum Vinaa..

Vizhigalil Oru Vaanavil.. Imaigalai Thottu Paesuthey..

Ithu Enna Puthu Vaanilai.. Mazhai Veyil Tharum..

Nee Vanthaai En Vaazhvilae..

Poo Pooththaai En Vaerilae..

Naalaiyae Nee Pogalaam..

En Nyabagam Nee Aagalaam..

Thaer Sendra Pinnaalae Veethi Ennaagumo..

Yaar Ivan.. Yaar Ivan..

Or Maayavan Meiyaanavan Anbil..

Yaar Ivan.. Yaar Ivan..

Naan Naesikkum Kanneer Ivan Nenjil..

Inam Puriyaa Uravithuvoo..

En Thaeril Pooththa Poovithu..

En Nenjil Vaasam Thoovuthu..

Manam Engum Manam..

Vizhigalil Oru Vaanavil.. Imaigalai Thottu Paesuthey..

Ithu Enna Puthu Vaanilai.. Mazhai Veyil Tharum..

Naan Unakkaaga Paesinaen..

Yaar Ennakkaaga Paesuvaar..

Mounamaai Naan Paesinaen..

Kaigalil Mai Poosinaen..

Nee Vantha Kanavengae Kaattril Kai Veesinaen..

Anbenum Thoondilai Nee Veesinaal..

Meen Aagiraen Anbae..

Un Mun Thaanadaa Ippothu Naan..

Pennaagiraen Ingae..

Thayakangalaal Thinarugiraen..

Nillendru Sonnapothilum..

Nillaamal Nenjam Oaduthey..

Itho Unthan Vazhi..

so soulful... =)

On a side note...am missing balaji's cross talk! =( Due to some technical problems, he hasnt been able to upload his shows the past few days...sad sad! So have been listening to his old shows before i sleep hehe his shows r my thaalaatuuuuu! Hopefully he uploads them soon man! =)

Take care,

nee korinaal...

2011-08-02T04:02:00.001+08:00

Song dedication to all of u before i sleep! =) This song is special because siddharth is in it yayyy! =)) My first love from 8 years agooooo! And i still have the zzz electric shock when i see him even now! Wattay romantic face! =)

Good nite ppl! Sweet dreams of siddharth! <3 <3 <3

BIG FM BALAJI!

2011-08-02T01:57:00.000+08:00

We have all heard of youtube videos and websites going viral but we have probably not heard of a show on radio going viral THIS FAST! SERIOUSLY! Last week i heard these sound clips that my friend sent me! They were from a show called Cross-Talk on 92.7 Chennai fm hosted by Balaji Patturaj! I must tell u i died laughinggggg THEY WERE ALL HILARIOUSSSSSSSSSS! =)) Balaji's Chennai Tamil, his sense of timing, his spontaneous jokes- they were all simply mindblowing! Expectey pannaathapo he will say something and it would be extremely funny! I dont even noe how he says those stuff without he himself laughing! =)) TOO GOOD! Ever since i heard those for the first time i have been listening to them everyday and everytime i listen to it it feels like i am listening to it for the first time! Really funny! =)) Especially when he gets scolded and u hear the beepbeepbeep! He so paavam but still so nice of him to not get angry at any of them! In fact he apologises sometimes after getting scolded so many times! And last week there was a person who sounded really serious because he really believed Balaji so Balaji quickly understood the other person's feelings and stopped kindal pannufying! So nice of him rite! =) I think these kind of things r very imp for a an RJ! Like sometimes when we r in the mood to make fun of someone or something and we think that everyone around us will be in a jaalyo jimkaanaa mood as well! But then when we realise they might actually get hurt we should quickly stop watever we planned to do! And that was really sweet of Balaji! =)

I admired him sooo much and became an instant fan of him and quickly emailed him within days telling him how funny he is and all! And guess wat! HE ACTUALLY REPLIED! =)) Was so happy! He made my day that day! =) He must really be busy with all his show preparations and fan mails but he actually bothered to reply! So nice! =) And today i even sent in my friend's number for him to call and kalaaichify and he called within a few hours! =) Was thinking he would only call next week or something but he was fast! Now i noe why his fan count is exponentially increasing! Hehe! When i added him he was still at around 2000 friends! But now his account is full with 5000 ppl alr and he just requested his fans to follow him on his fan page on fb! =) hehe! Really! His sound clips really deserve to go viral and he deserves all this fame and recognition because he is just HILARIOUS! =))

Here u go! ENJOYYY! =))

Latest tracks by 92.7 BIG FM BALAJI

Hope u continue making us all laugh Balaji! Keep up the awesome work! =)

deivathirumagal...

2011-08-02T01:25:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl! Have u all watched deivathirumagal? YESSSSSSSSSSS! It has been suuuuuuuper long since such i watched such a touching and sad movie! =( Deivathirumagal was just amazing in expressing such a beautiful form of love between an extremely sweet father and daughter! The little things that Krishna does, not just for his daughter, but for everyone around him, starting from the thief he helps to the lawyer's son, would all touch anybody's heart! It is extremely rare for us to have met that sort of a sweet character in real life who doesnt even think before helping someone. =) Was really moving! Though there were logical problems such as how Krishna could have possibly made his wife pregnant and all that, the entire feel of the movie was touching. Each scene was helpful in touching my heart so when the final scene came i just burst out crying! That was the review i mainly read everywhere as well- that the final scene would make most of us cry. =( Another reason why the entire movie was so touching was Nila! The little girl had expressions that were so cute, sincere and original. She really lived the role! I dont noe how the director even made such a small little girl understand her character and developed her chemistry and relationship with Krishna and all that but her acting was just brilliant! Truly a gift to the industry! =) I recently watched an interview of her with Vikram and she actually calls him Appa still and they both share such a beautiful relationship in real life as well! =) So nice! In conclusion, this movie is a must-watch! =)

My favourite song in the movie! =) Do catch the movie if u havent guys!

Take care,
PJ

time to blog again!

2011-08-01T21:00:00.001+08:00

HEY EVERYONEEEEE! HOPE U ALL R DOING GREAAAAAAAAAAT! =))

It is me purnima janani aka pooni aka pj! And I am baaaaaaaaaaaaaaack! =) Yayyyyy! I have returned to blog nearly after one year on this same blog woo hoo! =) Really missed blogging and penning down my thoughts though i have been continually thinking abt soooooo many issues over these months. Besides, i feel that blogging is really useful because it really helps u self reflect after an incident has happened and shows how much u and ur thoughts have changed over time when u read it after a few years. When i read some of my old posts now, that is how i feel. There r some posts that make me laugh thinking abt how stupid and immature i was and there r some posts that just bring back beautiful memories of the past. I used to blog so explicitly abt every word spoken, every action done and every emotion felt hehe! Really dont noe why i suddenly stopped though! Probably social networking sites such as Facebook and Twitter kept me occupied hehe! And not much time to blog about everything in detail also! And I guess I myself didnt want to rite abt everyone and everything anymore and kept things to myself. Is that a sign of growing up hehe? =S Oo wells...dont really noe! But hopefully i will continue blogging after this and make sure i get back my blog fans back *hee hee*

Anyway since i am back now i need an entry song! A re-entry song actually! Hehe! So here goes! =)

OK this is like nothing to do with me entering but still! MY DHANUSHHHHHHHHHHH! HEHE! =)) Been in lowe with this song ever since i heard it for the first time! Lowe the dance to bitsssss! =)

ENJOY PPL! I hope to meet u all with a longer post real soon! Till then have fun! =)

Take care,
PJ

it is u not me...

2010-02-09T22:04:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...u noe wat? seriously...there r some ppl u meet in life and feel like...shit why did i meet them so late? and there r some ppl who u meet and feel like u should never have met them...and then there r some who come into ur life and u feel like u r in heaven at one point and soon after that u feel like a piece of shit...sigh la...i cant believe i am still ranting on this issue...just hate myself...i dont noe wat i am thinking...i just feel that somehow i keep blaming myself and then at the end of the day i dont even noe where i went rong...but ppl behave like i am the only one at fault...why did it end up this way man? i dont noe how i am going to endure each day with this stupid pain and flashback...i just want to forget every single hurtful thing of the past and move on completely...but somehow i keep going in circles and never seem to get out of it...screw me la...my emotional attachment to ppl sucks big time...the more emotional i get the more i get hurt by that very same person...first it was u...then it was u...then it was u! sigh...cant even mention those ppls names here...i used to love history in sec sch...but now i dont like it anymore...because my history is just...plain crap...and i think there was so many other things i could have done in life instead of wasting my time on ppl who dont even rmb i exist...after all time is short...and i have spent too much time crying and brooding and feeling sad for some third person...who doesnt even give a damn abt me...thinking abt it...i just feel like shit la...i have been crying for one person for years...and then another person for months...and i just keep doing it...like wat is the point? u noe it is damn sad to cry at nite...just hiding ur face in the pillow and weeping silently...and nobody other than urself would noe u r crying...it just plain sucks...i cant believe i am not over u la...after all u said words u didnt mean...u did stuff for ur own pleasure...u were multi faced...and yet! why do i choose to believe that u meant all that? i am just an idiot la...this is wat happens when u trust guys...they gain ur trust...get into ur heart and just rip it apart...leaving ur heart shattered in a million pieces...and yet...the heart thinks abt them and feels sad when they r sad...wat the hell! like escuse me he hurt u...and u r not supposed to be feeling any sort of thing for him...wat the hell is rong with me? i am such a piece of shit la...my friends have told me that it isnt worth it...the time the tears the effort...but somehow...cant help it la...

i havent seen a bigger loser than myself la...

oo wells...ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

happy new year...

2010-01-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...hehehhe yes sori abt the looong delay...wanted to blog a lot over the holidays abt lots of stuff...but just didnt get into penning it down...actually thruout the sem i was like that but didnt actually do it...and now by the time i actually blog...hols have ended alr! hehee oo wells hope everyone had a good time! i was totally stoning in singapore...didnt go anywhere at all...let me see...i was like really waiting for sandhya and abhinay and nithya to all come back so that we can go out! and once they did...went to sandhyas house twice...went ecp to cycle with a big bunch of ppl who unexpectedly could all make it on that day! then went to nithyas house and watched movie...watched movies with sandhya and sai alsooo! and then they all came over once to my house to chumma play play! it was funnn! i mean...last dec it was like continous plans and this dec it is more like plan plan plan execute with a looooong gap...too funny man! sometimes on the phone we will be planning and we will be like...ok so tomorrows plan will be to plan for the day after ok...HEHEH! JOBLESSNESS! hols r always like that! first week is like damn fun! and we do all those stuff that we had planned to do before hols! we will be like yayy finally can do this can do that can watch this movie blabla...then 2 weeks later we wil be like...aiya boring alr...wat to do...then three weeks later u r waiting for sch to open alr...then when sch is going to open u will be like omg hols ended so fast? i want more hols! heheheh! damn confused la...dont noe wat i want also...but still! the entire idea of holidays...where we dont even have to look at the clock...or set the alarm...or think abt wat to do...or plan anything that is stressful...is all damn fun la! and it was fun whenever we all got to meet! SO YAY! =) i wish i could have been better at home and helped with the house work and all though...wat to do...didnt do any of those...and of course got lots of scoldings for slping late and waking up late everyday...hehehe i tell u...slping is heavenly...and i dont noe why i love it so much...considering that life is short and i shouldnt waste time slping...maybe i shouldnt love slping so much and enjoy the other things that i can do while i am awake! OK I SHALL TRY! =P but i am slpy now itself man hehe...

anyway...as i was saying i was thinking of doing a self evaluation of myself for last sem because there were many areas where i thought i sucked and was like wat the hell is happening to me...so firstly...at the start of the sem...i blogged a lot of stuff abt how guys always talk to me abt their love...and then i end up liking the guy...so some time ago i was reading those posts on my blog again and felt soooooooooooo cheap...it was soooooooooo pathetic...i mean the way i was thinking then...and the kind of crap i wanted to happen to me...was all just rong...when i read it now...i feel like a piece of shit...like wat shamelessness! how could i even think of it that way! these guys r my friends and they r telling me their stories...they and their love r one entity and i am one separate entity...why in the world was i linking myself up with the guy...or yearning for things to happen...or even observing this pattern in the first place! all of them were my friends and it stops there...there is nothing more that i should be allowing myself to think of...the more i complicate things...the more miserable i am goign to feel...so there is no way i should have been thinking of that sort of love from the guy friends i noe...that is number one...and for that i felt like deleting those posts and wondering wat the hell was rong with me...but oo wells...maybe it was a sudden outburst of like suppressed emotions...and it was true that that cycle of friend liking my friend kept happening and i had to blog abt it...hehhe so lets leave it at that...

second bad quality...i failed to make time for any of my friends the whole of last sem...lets see...i was called sooo many times by sandhya to her house for navarathiri...and i didnt go because mum was like stay at homeee...then there was diwali where i was supposed to meet all of them somewhere but i again didnt go becuase my parents were shifting me from one place to another and we kept travelling to dont noe wat houses all...and of course there were family problems to look at so it wasnt exactly a good time to fight with my parents also...then there was sandhyas birthday celebration at her house at midnite which i again couldnt go for sinceit was late at nite... =( so ended up i didnt celebrate manyyyyyy important events with my friends the entire sem! which was an entirely evil thing to do...i didnt even make up for it even though i missed stuff because the i was totally busy the whole sem with labs and projects and wat not...but then again! that is no excuse to not meet someone...because sandhya and abhinay have both been busy in previous sems but they always made time for me whenever i bugged them to meet me or meet sagar or wat not...they always came down! and look at me! one sem i had too many projects and i totally ditched so many ppl...and i only concentrated on very few ppl without allocating equal time periods for every friend! and i didnt even call shafali or nava the entire semmmmmmmm! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! and i only called sandhya during hard times like problems with friends or whenever i was stressed! WHICH WAS PLAIN EVILNESS FROM ME! i mean...firstly i didnt even meet anyone much the whole sem outside sch or outside lecss...secondly i disturb them and burden them with my crap problems and just cry to them and make them feel even worse...that was so bad...i shouldnt have done that...i sucked as a friend...and as a person overall last sem...and i feel super bad for it...

thirdly...i had no rosham the whole sem like i mentioned it before...though during the sem it felt REALLY good to lose my ego and rosham and to feel like wow i consider friendship greater than my rosham! =)) and i had sayings like 'it is better to lose ur ego for ur loved ones than to lose ur loved ones for ur ego' run thru my head a lot of times...all these made me feel like wow i am really becoming a better person because rosham was one thing i could not deal with for a very long time...if u say one hurtful thing...that is it...i am never talking to u for life...and it takes a lot of energy to even say one word to that person again...so in that way i was happy with myself for losing my rosham for such a long period...though it was useless...and i had a lot of ppl talking abt my egolessness during that period...and now i realise that it would have been better off being my roshamfied self from the start...but oo wells...anything is a learning experience...i still think too much rosham is bad...but u definitely need some...especially when u r not at fault... =)

yes...wat is next...yes! i have realised that during exams and tests period...i become someone entirely different from myself! losing my calmness humour entire personality! and i just become a blob of stressed tension case with lots of panic and negative energy! i just become an electron! and it would be ok if i kept that all to myself but NO! wat do i do? i call ppl and transmit it to them also! passing around the negative energy...making ppl even more stressed out when they themselves r panicking...and u noe...it is damn annoying...if i had a friend called pj i will hate her...i am just a piece of shit for passing around my tension tension...i should just shut up and keep it to myself...or find other ways to release it without hurting others...it is just not rite to be emotionally dependent on ppl and keep telling ppl my problems because it is going to make them sadder...SO! I SHOULD STOP IT!

overall...i think i sucked the entire sem...too many bad qualities...and i dont think i had even developed any good quality...or even thought abt devleoping anything...i was just...i dont noe...i dont even noe wat i was doing...but i was definitely a bad person...and bad friend to many ppl...so this sem! i better not repeat this...and i better think of ways to improve myself...for veryyyy long i think i have not gone out of the way to help anyone...or to make anyone happier for a long period of time...and for damn long i have not made efforts to meet my friends...and i dont even deserve to ask for their forgiveness...it is not as if i dont care abt any of them anymore...it is just that i have failed to express myself in the past sem...but hopefully this sem i will meet sandhya abhinay sai and all more often and maintain that bond! after all...time is short...and i cant afford to lose good friendships! =)) and i noe i am not an extremely nice person to EVERYBODY around me...omg la i dont even noe how ppl do that actually...and i actually noe a few of those kind of ppl! and they r like wowwwwwwww supperrrr niceee laaaa! heheh but meee! i shall begin by being a nice person to my friends for now! =) then later on can extend to everyone around me...hehehe! =)

nalla irupom nalla irupom...ellarum nalla irupom! =))

wow so late alr...shall go slp now! i think nobody reads this blog hehehe...

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

the last try...

2009-12-15T20:44:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...seriously...i have not gone after someone this much in my life...not nava...not shafali...not even my mum...but for the first time in my life...i actually put my ego my rosham my pride everything in one corner...and went after someone who i considered my friend...but it was all to no avail...i just had my last try...and it failed...so here is a post abt it...

u noe...the amount of rosham i...or for that matter anybody in my family has...is HUGE...and by the word HUGE... i mean ENORMOUS...not the normal level that everyone has...this is like...omg huge...my entire extended families and everyone has this huge amount of rosham that has prevented them from talking to even their own family members...and i have a similar amount of that as well...in the past...one word was all that was to be said to me...and i will not even turn back...i will severe any form of ties i have with that person for at least one week...and not talk...i would just think and think abt that person and cry...that was how i was in the past...and that resulted in me losing so much...good friends...well wishers...everyone...i did not give a damn abt who it was...i just wouldnt talk...which was a really irritating and stupid habit i had...and i totally wanted to get rid of it...ask shafali...everytime we fought...she was the one calling me back...and i tell her everytime...that i am blessed to have such a friend who always forgave and forgot the fights...without such ppl around...i proly would have no friends...over the years i think i have been letting go of this ego of mine...not a lot...but bit by bit...to at least talk to someone when we r fighting...or at least make an effort to patch up...and this sem...this person that i am...was definitely not me...i think i was crazy...there was no sign of ego or rosham in me...and everyone around me was shocked...including my mum...sai...sandhya...even me...i was like...wat the hell am i doing...u noe i was literally going after someone who i really did not want to let go...even if that meant that person insulted me or my friends...i did not care...i still kept talking to him like he was my friend and tried to patch things up the whole sem...why? because that friendship was important...not something i could just throw away...but to that person...i am still a nobody...i dont even exist...then wat is the point? even now...when i am being literally ignored on the face...i still decided to give it a try...but no...it is not happening...it is not going to happen...so i have decided to let go...completely...there is no turning back after today...

i have no idea where i went rong...but i have lost a friend...thank u to a stupid incident that took place outside lt 32 one fine afternoon after lecture...i dont noe how it started and why it happened but some stupid convo happened and it messed up my life...and many of my friends' lives...thinking abt it...things DO happen...conversations that r not supposed to take place DO take place...dont we all blabber? dont we all let out things we r not supposed to? dont we all have a part in this? dont we all make mistakes? but NO! this mistake was unforgivable...unforgettable...and it resulted in the breaking of an entire group of friends' friendships...all for one single person...let it be...u have decided to let go of us...and i will have to respect that decision...

i noe i have forced myself on u the entire sem...i have cried and pleaded with u to not leave my life...i have forced a friendship with u that i should have realised was a friendship that U would choose to break once the sem ended...and u did tell me u would do it...wat a fool to think that u were joking then...now that u have really done it...i noe wat u r thinking...i noe that u consider all of us as backstabbers...liars...traitors who have played with ur life and love...we r sori for doing it...even if u dont accept it...we r sori...it shouldnt have happened...i am saying it till now...we r at fault...and we r sori...but now watever has happened will never happen again...because u have decided to talk to none of us again...so now u can be happy...

u noe wat? there was literally no point in patching up...there is no point even typing all this...there is absolutely no value in this friendship that i thought we shared...this is why i say time and again...that love hurts...even the friendship kind of love...i was just hoping that this wouldnt happen...which was why i was fighting so much...but thank u...i cant explain how hurt i am...in fact...i have been so hurt the entire sem that i am immune alr...i have had enuf of thinking abt wat u must be thinking...trying to wonder wat i said that must have hurt u...trying to think abt ways to patch up with u...trying to think before talking so that i wouldnt hurt u again...trying to tell everyone who has messed things up to shut up...trying to get ur friends to talk to u...trying to make u happy...trying to make myself happy...trying to unite everyone...trying to be someone i wasnt...trying and trying and crying for months wondering how to get things back to normal...but no...u r not going to accept or forgive me...and the saddest thing in life would be a forced one-sided friendship...and i am not up for it anymore...

thank u for talking to me the whole sem so that i wouldnt cry so much...i noe it must have been difficult talking to ur enemy everyday...i am absolutely a fool...for forcing this on u...for my own happiness...i am sori...i am a hopeless friend...and a really bad one actually...in fact u dont even think of me as a friend rite? but u were nice enuf to even talk to me and be there the whole sem...even though u utterly hated me...thank u for all of that...and thank u for every single thing u have done for me and everyone around u...as i told u without u i wouldnt have survived many things...and i really appreciate it... =)

it was good that u chose to break the friendship during the holidays...now i have time to get over u...this friendship...watever has happened between all of us...thank u once again for being this fool's friend for the past two sems...like wat u said...there is no point talking to us anymore rite? so yes...it was nice meeting u earlier this year...and i noe we have to look at each other's faces for the next two years...but i will definitely noe wat to do whenever i meet u after today...

thank u to one and all who have been part of this incident and this mess in my life...and i am sori if i have hurt anyone else in the process...i noe this incident has caused in a lot of rough times with my other friends as well...but just noe...that we r not going to let this affect our friendship anymore...this incident is history...and will never be spoken of again... =) we r all back to normal ppl!

enuf said...it was a good lesson...a good slap on my face...and a great way to end the year...it isnt ur fault...it is mine...thank u to everyone once again...ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

finals r overrrrrrrrrrrr...

2009-12-08T19:45:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...aaaaaaaa the sem has ended...and finals r overrrrrrrrrrrr...yayyyyy! but wait a minute! how did this sem even fly past omg? it was super fast...feels like sem just started...and now it is over alr! seriously...i dont rmb doing anything significant the whole sem! was super busy going for lecs and tuts everyday! ppl had like 4 day 3 day work week while i had lessons everyday...and was just like omg so much work...in the end didnt do anything properly...i had 11 lab sessions and 4 projects the whole sem...which is like BOMB! NOW U NOE WHY I WAS BUSY! so was going for project meetings like nobodys business...go for one...finish go for another one...in between during breaks do another project...then go home at midnite...this was my schedule for like the last 2 weeks...and i felt bad in every project because i wasnt contributing much...my mind will be thinking abt the previous project...or the ppl in the group were too pro for me...that i was like omg i shall not say a word...let them do it because they totally noe wat they r doing! so was a piece of shit in many of the meetings...best project was critical thinking...that my group was totally engrossed in for the whole sem! it was nice working with ben and arlyn! they were both extremes! one a perfectionist! and another one was like deadlines and must follow schedule! i was the anything also can person in between! they were both super cute and nice la! i like them! so whole sem i rmb doing that project! and walking around...and of course! BREADBOARD! highlight of the sem! omg la...it was really really hard doing it...my qn was bomb hard...and nobody else was doing it...as in none of my close friends...so was really helpless...and dying totally...half the time i was thinking abt the design which i didnt get till the end...hehehee...but it is over now! GOOD! hehehe the whole sem was spent doing that...and projects...and going for lesson but not understanding anything...i think all my modules were extremely hard...like beyond my ability kind...and wat else did i do the whole sem...oo yes cry...lots of friendship problems...i think i fought with all 4 friends i had...sai siddharth sandhya...abhinay not sure...dont think so...but i basically fought with all...even sandhya! becuase i really didnt have time to meet anyone the whole sem...so it was damn sad...first sem i was meeting ppl everyday...second sem it was slightly lower but i still managed to meet and have fun whenever possible...this sem i think i met sandhya a total of 5 times...super sad...whenever i had the oppurtunity...family didnt let...and most of the time it was like...super busy...so really couldnt meet up...so sori ppllllllllllllll...the only person i was constantly in contact with was siddharth...but then...lots of problems thruout the entire sem with everyone...so very sad friendship life...but i guess things happen...so yes...anyway...this sem wouldnt have been possible without certain ppl at all...so here is a list!

siddharth! he was always there helping whenever he could...lab reports...breadboard...exams...midterms...even though he didnt have the same qn as me in breadboard...he was helping whenever...and in everything actually...trying to do watever he can...and without him i would really have no clue how to do certain things...and everything would have been impossible if not for him...even in the last part during exams...he used to call even though he knew i would be blabbering in my stress and tension...and he used to listen to all the crap...during tests i am such an electron la...full of negative charge and complaints and stress...REALLY ANNOYING...i hate myself during such periods...and when there is someone to say it is ok...it really feels much better...but i feel so bad and annoying...ppl around r all stressed also...and i stress them out even further...but they still listen to me and tell me stuff to make me feel better...sandhya is like that also! i shall come to her soon! siddharth was also like that...saying vidu pj adutha sem paathukalaam...and those kind of stuff... =) i noe this sem we have had lots of problems...in fact like every day every week there was a new problem...and u were the most hurt...even then...u talked to me even when u really didnt want to...just so that i wont be hurt...and i really appreciate it...i mean...it takes a lot to talk to someone u r angry with...so thank u sooooooooooo much siddharth for all the helppppp! =) this sem would have been really difficult without u...

sandhya! i only met u like a few times this sem...but we still managed to keep in touch sometimes whenever we could! firstly...really sori for not meeting u man...even on ur bday! i couldnt come at midnitee and i felt sooo bad that we were fighting during that time...aaaaaaaaaaaaa...that day will never come back and i can never undo wat i did...but i am sori babeeeeee...i was a bad friend this sem...in fact i wasnt even a friend this sem... =( and i am really sori abt it...it was hard staying without meeting u also man...and even with all those problems...u still gave me a surprise for my bday! something that i will never forget man...exam period apa u organised the whole thing! aaaaaaaaaa! =( i am so touched kannu...i really didnt deserve it for everything i had done to u the whole sem...but u do noe that i always love u no matter wat...and this sem was just an exception...i hope it doesnt happen again next sem...but then again...who noes how busy we will all get...sigh...but even then...i wont forget all our phone convos! and dressing up for diwali! and breadboardness! hehehe! and rasikraaning lecturers voices hehehe! it was niceeee! and u have alwyas been there whenever i called u to destress...or talk crap especially during test time...like one idiot...hehehe our nadanthathu enna! super funny la! i love talking to u on the phone mannn! we can go on for hours like some pepsi uma! heheheh! sooo thank u for everythingggg! all the advice...all the consolation when i was down...all the hugs kisses and sweet words of encouragement...no matter who leaves me...i noe u will be there forever babe... =) LOVE U!

sai! hehehe! my groupmate who rescued me! heheheh! thank u sai...for offering me a place in ur group when i had a problem with the other group...will never forget that...that was the best thing u could have done to help me! i dont noe whether i even contributed to this project...because u were like the bomb pro guy who knew wat exactly to type...and i was just stoning around...but even then u let me join ur group...will never forget the laughing time in r2 loungue! QUARK QUARK! WENT THE DUCK! WAT THE DUCK! HEHEHEHEHEHEHHEEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH! we laughed continuously for like half an hour! super funny! it was fun rite! and of course...we had our problems...but at the end of the day...i dont think i want to entirely give up on our friendship...because that would just be sad...and i noe u...u blabber...but u have no intentions...and ur heart is pure...that is why u blabbered in the first place...and i was like u last time...blabbering all the time...even now i do it...i guess we all learn...and we will become better ppl with experience...athukaka it is just bad to give up on friendships...time is short...and we shall not waste it by fighting... =) thank u for everything...again...for ur stand on issues i had...for the consolations and why not try this why not try that...for introducing me to a very addictive game before tests! HEHEHE! and for just being there =) thank u saiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! here is a toast to three sems of friendship!

abhinayyyyyyy! abhinayyyy! i as usual didnt get to meet u much this sem toooo! but aaaaaa! i have always managed to feel the love and warmth from u everytime we met or talked online! u have the knack mannn! =)) u r also one person who i noe will always be there to cheer me up...to say dont cry...and to lend a shoulder to cry on...thank u for all the little little things! giving me ur room...chatting...meeting to cheer me up...and bring back the smile...for patching things up with ppl whenever i was fighting with them...for showing me that there were ppl who care abt me... =) i noe u will always be there for me...and i really really was soooooooo touched by the bday website u did amidst all the exams! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! i noe u r super busy during sem...and athuvum during exams u r like super super super super super busy! even then u spent time to make an entire website! u and sandhya r crazy! to ask ppl for their letters and create a video and make a websiteeee! nobody has done such stuff for me man...thank u abhinay for all the effort and loveeeee! i am truly blessed to have u as a friendddd! =) and hope to meet u more often next sem at least! now u r partying in indonesia woo hooooooooo! PARTY PANNU! hehehehe!

atlee and ee chin! ok these two ppl...none of u would noe them! hehehe! but they were serious saviours of certain things this sem...without atlee i wouldnt have been able to even get a design for my breadboard...and i was so thankful i found him...because i was totally clueless and helpless without him...and then ee chin was one nice guy i met in lab itself...later on realised he was from rjc also! like a few days before the final lab only one evening i met him and asked him why my circuit wasnt working...and then he lent me his 9 V battery to try...and then it half worked! and i was like omg! then on the lab day itself...i tried making the circuit work with other 9 volt batteries and the power supplies in the lab and all but nothing worked! and then i started hyperventilating and panicking! and was like shaking the shoulders of random guys in the lab! HOW IDIOTIC! hehehehehe! and then came ee chin with this same battery and then it worked again...so i was like omgggg...if i had not met him...my circuit wouldnt have worked at allll! aaaaaa! so thank u ppl! =)

sama apurva kalyani kritika! these r my other group members in other projects! all of them were very understanding man...even when i didnt contribute much they were very accepting and sweet abt it...not like other group members...they were like wat would u like to eat...chocolate spread bread? and i was like...omg here i am stoning and not doing anything and they still offer me stuff to eat and all! sweet ppl mann! i really think if not for them...group projects would have been even tougher and bomb hard...so thank u to every one of uuuuuuuuuuuuu! =)

LOVE ALL OF UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! and that was abt the whole sem...in my next blog post i shall talk more abt exciting incidents that happened during the sem that have never happened to me before! and rite abt other thingies too!

as for now need to go for dinner! so thank u to every one of u who have helped me thru this sem...i cant explain how thankful i am...and i love all of u! =) hope u have a great holiday ahead!

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

signs...

2009-09-05T13:45:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...saw this video on facebook...thought it was really sweet...so decided to share it with u all! watch it! =) great acting! =))

sweet rite! hee hee...ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

en vaaniley orey vennila...

2009-09-04T23:39:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...today the moon was beautiful...it was just full...and bright...and round...and so shiny against the bluey blacky skyyyyyyyyyyyyy...and i was just staring into it...admiring it for like half an hr outside raffles hall while being lonely...maybe i found it beautiful because it was lonely like me...and i was just relating to it...it was seriously so beautiful but super lonely...even the stars around were at a distance...and the moon was just stoning in the middle...sad feelings again...as usual...why am i like this? why so affected by ONE PERSON? =S aaaaaaaaaaaa! i cant tell u how much i am affected...but i just am sad all the time nowadays...i even rmb his smell when i go home! WAT KIND OF A LOSER AM I! i dont understand! i dont even noe whyyyyyyyyy...i have been thinking soooooooo much abt it...for like 4 weeks alr...ennala mudiyala...wat the hell...i guess it is just a feeling of emptiness...like he used to be there all the time...and this sem he isnt there anymore...he isnt there with us all the time...the usual bunch of me sandhya nithya sai abhinay...or maybe i am feeling this way because he isnt in campus anymore...or maybe because he doesnt call anymore...or maybe because he goes offline before i do... =S aaaaaaaaaaaa...GET A LIFE PJ! aiya i think when there is suddenly a void there...u just miss the person...i dont noe...i have been asking myself if i even like him...but then...i think i just miss him because of the sudden change...but not like like...it is just one stupid lonely feeling...AND I WILL GET OVER IT...i hope...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...today i was just looking into the moon and feeling so miserable...i rarely notice how lonely the moon is...but today it was just so lonely...and i was like no wonder my name is purnima...and i rmb last fri this same situation happened...and at least then there was a random guy talking to me on the bus...today got nobody...damn sad la...why do i feel so lonely? the minute ppl go home...i feel sooooooo sad...like aaaaaa yarumey ila for that moment kind of feeling...extreme extrovert! and i noe this whole set of feelings is triggered by one person! which is ridiculous! because i never thought i would be so deeply attached to him...i mean he was a gd friend...athukunu? feel soooooo sad? =S wat is rong with meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! i think i was just secretly unknowingly emotionally dependent on him in one way or the other...like when he kept calling and offering his help i was like shit how can anyone even be sooo nice...like keep helping when i dont even ask or want him to help...and that was the reason why he was the nicest guy that i met last sem...but now...he is just gone...he came...he created an impact...and he just left like a stranger...wat have i doneeeeeee? am i not his friend anymoreeeeeee? shit man it is my fault...really my fault...for not picking up his 26 missed calls per day...for not replying his sms...for not giving him much importance or face last sem...i was really taking him for granted...which is BAD! PLAIN EVILNESS! and therefore i sooooo deserve this...really...now i can feel how he would have felt last sem...the feeling of being ignored...of not being loved...of being lonely...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...just kill me now...

but yes i deserve it...give me more...i am guilty for everything i have done to him...last sem...and even now! this whole week...i dont noe wat i was doing...i noe i am being extra nice to him...looking out for him everywhere...wondering why he doesnt stay with us after sch...feeling sad when he leaves...talking abt him to everyone...trying to give him all the attention i can...but why am i doing it? am i doing it just because he was drifting away? that is so fake! WAT A PHONEY! but nooo! i am not actinggggg! i really dont want him to walk out just like thattttttttttttttt! but it is just not rite to force a person to stay with us! i have no rite to do that! who he wants to be with...who he wants to love...who he feels comfortable with...who he chooses as friends...is all HIS CHOICE...who am i to interfere? how will being nice to him NOW change his feelings? it is just not rite...it is NOT the thing to do...i shouldnt be doing this...and i noe it...i am being weird...crappy...loserish...and just forcing him back into my life...HOW SELFISH! this is enuf...i have tried it for one week and i dont want to do it anymore...sometimes it is better to let go and watch where they go...if they really want to they will come back...and if they dont come back...then just accept it and move on! after all...as long as everyone is happy...i am happy...RITE?

shit la...i really should stop thinking abt this...i dont noe...i just get hurt when ppl walk out of my life suddenly...maybe i will take a while to get over that empty space...maybe i wont even get over it...maybe it will be filled in by someone new...but it really was my fault...i should have known better...i should have understood his feelings last sem...i should have talked properly and made sure he wasnt lonely...but i didnt...i DID NOTHING AS A FRIEND...and now that he is gone...why am i polambufying? i cant undo anything thaat has happened so far rite...if this is how the chain of events is meant to be...then so be it...who can change how ppl feel? if the feeling is over...then it is over...u cant do anything abt it...i am sad...and i will be...and i will get over it...one day...i will not chase after him like a desperate friend trying to bring him back to me like wat i have been doing this week...if it is meant to happen...it will...somehow...sometime...somewhere...till then...i will wait...

if LOVE HURTS...FRIENDSHIP KILLS...

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

enakum unakumai idaiveli...

2009-08-31T17:28:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...since this has been happening for like every other new guy i meet...i decided to talk a bit abt this...hehehe so as u all noeevery new guy i meet ends up liking my friend...and there is this obvious trend i noticed! everytime a guy likes my friend...i either initially liked the guy before he told me he likes my friend...or i start liking him after he says he likes my friend...and recently after analysing my feelings i observed that...when ppl like my friend...they tell me how much they like her...how they want to look at her all day...how they want to walk on lonely roads with her and then suddenly tell her how much he loves her...and just the way they keep talking abt the girl non stop...it is sooooooooo sweeet mannnnnnnnnn...i mean...it is just so nice to see the twinkle in their eyes whenever they talk abt the girl...and the more they talk abt her...the more sweet they seem...and the more i tend to think that the guy is SOOOOOOOOOO NICEEEEEEEEE...that i will be liking him without even realising it a lot of times...which is damn sad...i mean...it feels like i dont like the guy for his personality or who he is or watever...but more because of the things he says that makes me think that he is sweet...very puzzling!

but of course i do noe that i like guys very easily...so this is nothing new...but then...it is quite sad to think abt it...i mean...it has happened to me so many times that i am actually numb to the effect...when ppl who noe i like the guy and the guy is attached to my friend...they always tell me...dont be sad...i noe u r sad...r u ok? then i will be like surprised they actually ask me the qn...because...i am sooo numb to it...really...it is like...just another heartbreak...that happens all the time anyway...nothing that unbearable...but of course...i am no robo...or heartless person...and the feeling i have when this whole process happens is just weird...like...deep inside i dont even noe wat i am feeling...i would have this liking for the guy...and do normal crap like wait for his smses...be happy when he comes online...think of him all the time...imagining things...smiling at the thought of him...feel happy just talking to him...reading his smses and msn convos over and over again...these kind of crap that i usually do when i like ppl...but even after noeing that he likes someone else...i do do all this...but of course...to A MUCH MUCH LESSER extent...this is because...on one side i noe i like him...but on the other side i noe i shouldnt be liking him...ESPECIALLY because the person he likes is my friend...but i do noe that i am not going to do anything against his love or watever...i just have this feeling...and i noe it is a passing feeling...so wat happens is that the much-awaited convos will be filled on convos abt my friend...or the girl he likes...and then we spend time sorting things out...whether the girl will like him back...whether it will work...when he can meet her...wat she feels towards him...and the list goes on...and why should i even be happy talking to him abt someone else? why should i listen to him admiring my friend and feel the love? why should i be sad when he is sad thinking abt my frined? but i dooo...and that is the weirdest thing of all...i really feel happy when he talks...even if it is abt my friend...i really try to help to do wat i can...even if it is some crap small thing...ultimately the point is i am happy to see him happy...that is all...which is damn silly...why should i be HAPPY...when rationally thinking abt it i should be SAD? =S like esusme miss purnima janani...firstly the guy u like likes ur friend...secondly u wait for him all day to come online so that u can talk to him but he comes online and wonders why ur friend isnt online...thirdly u shower all love possible on him but he tells u that ur friend who hasnt even spoken a word to him before is sweet...fourthly...u wait for his smses all day but all he talks abt is...ur friend...sometimes he tells u he is busy when u want to talk to him...but he comes to u when he needs to talk abt ur friend...and lastly...the only reason why he might even be talking to u in the first place is to use u to get closer to ur friend! THEN WHY IN THE WORLD DO U EVEN LIKE HIM MISS PURNIMA JANANI WHEN HE DOESNT EVEN NOTICE UR EXISTENCE! =S sighhh...welll...when i think abt it...i realise a normal person wouldnt be able to bear all this...repeated incidents of guy-i-like-liking-someone-else...repeated heartpains...repeated one-sided love failures...can be quite unbearable...so wat is rong with me then? am i actually that numb? or could it be because my liking was controlled? or was it becuase the liking was just a mild one that happened because i thought he was sweet? =S i dont noe...i dont even noe wat i am feeling...or why i am feeling that way...but it happens all the time...and i do actually get over it in a while...like after they get together...when that happens...the happiness that they r together actually overrides the other sad weird feelings that i am supposed to have...which is stupid...really stupid...shouldnt i actually be sad? shouldnt i be angry that it never happens to me? shouldnt i be jealous? shouldnt i be hurt that i wasnt even given a chance to tell him i like him? i should be! then why am i not? i mean...i do cry sometimes thinking abt the whole matter...but i cry not because THAT particular guy doesnt like me...but because love never happens to me...u noe like generally...it is just the feeling of...why isnt it the case? and then my thoughts go into this infinite loop of how i am not nice enuf...not pretty enuf...not sweet enuf...not loving enuf...not hot enuf...blablabla...and ends at...i am just not lucky enuf...simply not fated...i just never meet the RITE guy...either that...or i have too many pretty friends hehehee...but sad isnt it...that u actually like someone so much but they keep telling u how much they like someone else...that is the most painful thing...to hear them talk abt another girl...hehee...and normal girls usually get very hurt...but i think i am super used to it...seriously...it has happened too many times...my heart has become rock hard...so i can still smile while talking to these guys...and still make fun of them with the other girl...or help them when they r sad...quite sad rite! but maybe that is why i have been sent to earth! to help those in love...so everyone should just come tell me their problems! =) but i just wish i didnt fall for these guys so easily...or maybe if i was given such a sensitive heart that likes everyone...then i should have also been given all the strength and power to bear with all the pain...after all...love hurts...doesnt it? =(

which reminds me...this song is super sad...i watched it in nadodigal...one of the best movies for now...really nice movie...and this song is really really really sad...i cried hearing the lyrics...

matches very well with the situation in the movie...ellameyyyyyyyyy santharpam...

it is ok! i will manage my love problems! evvalavo thangiten...itha thaanga maatenaa? BRING IT ON MR CUPID! SHOOT ME WITH UR ARROWS!

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

hasili fisiliye...

2009-08-29T14:58:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...so in my lonely and sad times...something that has been making me feel slightly better...is this song...really awesome songgggggg... =) cant explain how much sometimes some ppls voice can make u feel so muchhhh better...karthik is one such person...his voice is like...soooooooooo soothingggg... =) really niceeeeeeeee...the power of music is just omg la...check out the song...cant wait for the movie to come out!

sooooooo nice riteeeeeeeeeeee? i just love the way he sings...it is just so beautiful...and i realised that wheneveer i am sad and i listen to songs...it would more often than not be karthiks voice...or hariharan...or naresh aiyer...all the soothing voices that make ur heart feel so much lighter...i swaaaaaaaaare... =)

movies remind me of kanthasamy! a much awaited movie for me...since the songs were really nice and the movie has been a hot topic for more than 2 years...but then when i was watching it...i was just falling asleep and feeling so wat the hell...the song picturisations spoilt the songs...the movie was too draggy...and the efforts were just not used well enuf...like the fight and vikrams get ups were all nice...but there wasnt much point of doing all that...it was just like for the sake of doing it...so kind of wasted...but then the fight sequences were nice...i really liked the rooster...it was cute! dont noe how he acted like one...heheh and his woman get up was good...but the fight was all too long...and the story was nothing new...normal story that has been repeated before in sivaji and anniyan...and shreya was super hot...though there was too much skin...and too many villains! was confused after a while as to who was the main villain...and couldnt even follow the story because of so many characters...hehehe but nice la...as in the first part was nice...second half could have been less draggy...need to commend vikran on his efforts...avlothan! i rmb the audiences comments more than the movie itself! they were all super funny la! like when shreya was tearing her shirt they were like SOME MORE SOME MORE...and another guy was like...she cant tear anymore enatha some more! heheh and everytime the fights came they were like antha remote eduthu forward pannunga paa! and they just loved shreya hehehe! whistling so much! without these ppl the movie would have seemed even longer i think...hehehe overall ok la...there r some parts i liked and some parts i didnt...so like that! waiting for aadhavan and aayirathil oruvan now! =)

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

wow...

2009-08-29T14:16:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...omg after saying tat i am goign to revive my blog...i let it die again! hehehe thank u to ydays incident i am back to blogging now...hehe actually i did rite a post during sangae abt my experience in sangae...but havent really posted it because...there were lots of bad experiences that i didnt really want to talk abt...but finally it is over and i am happy i was part of it! will post another post abt sangae soon! =) after this entry probablyyy...so wat has been happening...

basically three after weeks after school started...i have been realising that everyone has this change in them...either physically...or in terms of behaviour...or i the way they talk...and for some i have been happy with these changes...while for others i was unwilling to accept it at first...but now i am ok...funny to think that i will be even disturbed so much by this kind of small things...but as usual...i noe i can get emotionally attached to ppl...so when they seem to drift apart the difference seems to be very obvious...and i am not supposed to be that sad when this happens because i am supposed to understand that ppl need their space and time...but then sometimes u just wish they were the same as before...but i guess it happens for their better...so it is ok! =) as long as everyone is happy...i am happy! =) and i have grown to appreciate them more now that there is a distance between us...nilalin arumai veyalil theriyum rite? hehe...so like that...life goes on though...=) i mean...for three weeks...it has been quite sad that i havent met my usual bunch of ppl much...sai siddharth sandhya abhinay nithya...and it feels kidn of empty...like sch hasnt really started...i dont noe wat to say abt it...we do plan for things and meetings but it jsut doesnt happen...timetable clashes...meeting clashes...everything that prevents us from meeting each other has been happening...and even if we meet it is just during lec or something...and then finish...like there is no time when we all can jsut sit around and talk crap and play table tennis... =( oo wells...again...life goes on...though quite sadly...

which actually made me realised something...i realise i always do this all the time too! when i meet new ppl and new friends i tend to ignore the old friends...liek totally...dont talk dont sms and all...but i do noe that after the new friends leave...or that activity with them ends...i will defintiely return to my usual clique of friends...because they mean a lot to me and will always have that special place...but it is just that new friends excite me a lot and i tend to drift away with them...it really isnt intentional...but i have been realising that i keep doing this...and now that it pains me when my old friends go far far away from me...i have realised how painful it is for them when i keep ignoring them and enjoying with my new friends...and it is an awful feeling...like there will be so many qns running in the mind...does he not like me anymore? did i do something rong? do we not have the friendship bond anymore? why did this happen? blabla and the list goes on...so when i realised how it feels...i really wanted to thank my old friends for understanding me soooooooooo muchhh...everytime i drift away and come back...they always accept me and be normal to me...as if nothing had happened...though i had hurt them so much! ppl like nava shafali sai siddharth abhinay sandhya...they alwaysssssss accept me! no matter wat i do to them in my excitement when i meet new ppl...they still r normal to me and have the same love and i really dont noe how they do it! SUCH GREAT UNDERSTANDING AND ACCEPTANCE MANN! =)) LOVE U ALL PPLLLLLLLLL! =)) MUACKSSSS! HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! and i really dont noe if i am fit for all ur love and understanding becasue i have realised how much i keep hurting all of u... =( soriiiiiiiiiii ppllllllllll...

so yes...back to the topic...in addition to not meeting uni ppl...i also havent met nava or shafali or the whole sangae actors team in ages as well...because it somehow doesnt happen again...so that is another sad thing...and shafali will be leaving next week...hopefully can meet her before she leaves at least once...sighhhhhhhhh...

so all this put together has been making me sad and lonely...like u go sch but dont see ppl u want to see...and all that...has been very lonely so far...and yday on the way back home on the shuttle bus...i just felt sooo miserable thinking abt all this that i just wanted to cry...like just cry and let it out...but the bus was soo crowded with ppl goign for jam and hop and all so was jsut observing them and feeling sad...the lonely-in-a-crowd feeling...so wat happened was after that stop when everyone got down...suddenly there was a guy who smiled and sat beside me...and then he randomly started talking...like oo u r not going for jam and hop? wat year r u in? doing masters? hehehe and i was like thinking...do i look so old kind of thing...but i just answered his qns...and at first i was a bit like...oo noo dont want to talk to stranger...but then...i was like...so sad and lonely and aiya he was just a student so just talk a bit...then he introduced himself to be studying dentistry phd blabla...after which he asked wat i was doign so late in sch...and i was like...hehehe went for star gazing...and talking to him i actually missed one stop and got down the next stop...and then he said ok bye take care...then i crossed over and walked back to the other bus stop that i missed...and this incident actually amused me so much...though it lasted for barely 5 min...and was like wat the hell conversation on a bus...but the timing at which it happened was just amazing...i mean nobody has just randomly started talking to me like that in sch...and it was just perfect because i was feeling sad and lonely and there is this person randomly talking...hehehe funny isnt it...i am still quite amused it happened...sometimes u dont noe why things happen...but the fact that they happened is just so interesting...maybe he was bored and lonely too...but if he hadnt come i would proly have ended up crying...but on the way home...i was just smiling thinking abt this incident...i hope i see him around again...will proly tell him thank u for talking to me that day... =)

soooo that has been my sad life the past three weeks...loneliness sadness spicelessness...hhehee and oo! i changed my glasses...and i dont seem to like them much...it is those geeky glasses...that add on to my geekiness...but dont noe la...doesnt suit me...was just thinking i should change it because power had increased and also my old glasses was super conservative...so decided to get something different...and after trying all the glasses the shopkeeper said this one la! so ok anyhow buy...in fact i went back the next day after choosing this glasses to get more conservative glasses...but then...was brainwashed into this...bought it without feeling really satisfied also...and now have to wear...no choice...heheh dont care la! wear this...wear conservative glasses...dont wear glasses...all the same old uglyness...

u noe sometimes...i wish i was pretty...

maybe i wouldnt feel so lonely then?

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

just feel like blogging...

2009-05-25T14:13:00.001+08:00

hey everyone...hee hee after a reviving of my blog i have gone into ignoring mode again! but no! not anymore! hehehhe suddenly i feel like blogging! maybe it is this quote that made me feel this way! i found it on the net!

“Love is when you shed a tear and still want him, it's when he ignores you and you still love him, it's when he loves another girl but you still smile and say I'm happy for you, when all you really do is cry.”

sadness... =( this was proly ritten by a deeply affected person...sigh...but it is very true...even when u leave the person u love...somehow u end up still loving him with all ur heart...feeling sad when he has a problem...feeling happy when he is happy...and feeling like ur heart has been ripped apart when u realise u can never be with him...it is annoying when u think abt this...such a waste of time rite...i mean wat is the point of thinking abt something that is over? someone that doesnt care? something that will change nothing but make u feel down...sad...depressed and waste ur precious finite time left in this world...ultimately WAT IS THE POINT? i guess everyone noes that things wont change by thinking abt the guy who is gone...and ppl noe that nothing can turn back time...but somehow...they cant help it...after someone leaves ur life...ur life becomes dark...meaningless...hopeless...empty and depressing...full of regrets and shattered hopes blood and tears...it is like a part of u is gone...u feel like u will never be able to love anyone else the way u loved him...u r hurt...and u dont noe how to think differently abt him or the entire situation...u cant convince urself that u dont love him anymore...u cant live life without him because u dont noe how to...u feel lonely in a crowd...u cry urself to sleep and sleep on wet pillows...u think abt the past every moment...u think abt how things could have been...u think abt why all this even happened...u blame urself for everything...and then u tire urself out...kill ur brain cells...and then realise that u shouldnt even be thinking abt someone who doesnt care abt u...but then...the cycle repeats itself...everyday...because u did one stupid thing many years ago...u fell in love...

how stupid! OK LETS GET A LIFE!

anyway i think the best thing to do is to not think abt it at all! as in once u go into the thinking mode u will end up crying and feeling miserable...so u shouldnt even think! forget it! divert attention! DONT WASTE TIME because time is precious! get rid of thoughts abt him and just have hopes for the future! if u cant get over him FORGET IT! dont get married! why must u get over him? just keep thinking and move on with life! there is so much more to life than guys and love RITE! rite...point taken...

i found this loooooooooong poemy quoty thing on the net too...from here! http://www.youtube.com/user/LenkaFi so decided to share it here...i am not sure of the lyricist...who is it! i think it is really nice...i have bolded the lines that i really like! =)

If rain drops were kisses,I could send you showers.
If hugs were seas,I send you oceans.
And if love was a person,I send you me!

When you have nothing left but love,then for
The first time you become aware that love is enough.

In real love you want the other person's good.
In romantic love you want the other person.

I wish I was a kid again,because skinned knees are
Easier to fix then broken hearts.

What is love?As far as I can tell,it is passion,
Admiration and respect.If you have two,
You have enough.If you have all three,
You don't have to die to go to heaven.

Passion is to kiss or to hug and to prove
That action speaks louder than words.

Distance never separates two hearts
That really care,For our memories span
The miles and in seconds we are there.
But whenever I start feeling sad,
Because I miss you,I remind myself
How lucky Iam to have someone so special to miss.

A heart breaking isn't always as loud as a
Bomb exploding...Sometimes it can be as quiet as
A feather falling...And the most painful thing is,
No one really hears it,except you.

When you are in love you can't fall asleep
Because reality is better than your dreams.

When you are in love and you get hurt,it's like a cut...
It will heal,but there will always be a scar.

It took a while to understand what love is,
But it'll take forever to forget what it was like.

A break up is like a broken mirror.It is better to
Leave it broken then hurt yourself trying to fix it.

Missing you can turn from pain to pleasure
If I knew you were missing me too.

Every minute I spend with you is like
Being in heaven and looking in an angel's eyes.

Love is not sweet talks and flowers
But love is forgiving and compromising.

I have painted a million of kisses for you.
I have filled an ocean of tears for you.
I have walked a thousand miles for you.
I have counted the stars for you.
I did that,all because I love you.

If I were given a dollar for every time
You were in my thoughts,I'd only have one
Because you never left them.

Everyone is someone's dream.

L-Land of sorrow
O-Ocean of tears
V-Voice of heart beats
E-End of life

Love is being with someone and knowing
That you could die tomorrow and it would be OK.

If you love me only in my dreams,let me
Be asleep forever.

Life and love are like hide and seek.
People spend their whole lives looking for love,
But when they finally forget to look for it,
They find it.

Love is like a cigarette that starts with flashes
And ends with ashes.

When I saw you,I was afraid to meet you.
When I met you,I was afraid to kiss you.
When I kissed you,I was afraid to love you.
Now that I love you,I am afraid to lose you.

Love is the slowest form of suicide.

If I has to choose between loving you and breathing,
I would use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU.

Passion is the first step to "love at first sight"
Because the passion came strong to you
Then you love.So finally,it's love at first sight.

Love is knowing that no matter what is done
At the end of day,you won't change your mind,
It's only wanting what's best for that special person.

If I should die tonight and the reason remain unknown,
Tell not the whole world,but the one I love that I died
Of a broken heart,not because he loved me too little,
But because I loved him too much.

The best and most beatiful things in the world
Cannot be seen or even touched.They must be
Felt with the heart.

Kisses blown are kisses wasted,kisses are not kisses
Unless they are tasted,kisses spread germs and
Germs are hated,so kiss me baby,I'm vaccinated.

so nice rite! =)) very sweet and impactful!

on a side note...i have been having multiple pimple outbreaks the WHOLE SEM! omg la...my skin profile went from clear to blotched and pimply...damn sad... =( i dont even noe wat to do! or why i am getting it! i thought i am 19 alr...so old! who gets pimples now! =S oo wells...hee hee some things just happen...and there r no reasons...or solutions...just accept it! =)

hee hee ok la am going to sch now so shall catch u all later! =)

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

i love you aasiriyarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

2009-05-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...OMG TODAY! was awesome! so wat happened was in the morning i went to the temple for sithira pournami...then after i came back i was like wat to do...and then me and nava were supposed to go out but she was slping for so long heheheh so exactly when i came home she called and then we planned liek ON THE SPOT that we will go to chandras house! since he just retired officially this week...then we were damn sad...so we were like ok lets go! then found his address on the internet and then nava like one minnal...woo hooo! bathed and came to my house so fast! wow her driving is like woo hoooooooooo! cute car! hehehe i was like wondering who it is and then came out the little nayantara from inside which was nava! with her black glasses! =)) hehehehe then we were like ok lets go! then we thatu thadumaari went inside a lot of bungalow and terrace houses area thingy and went round and round and found his house! then we called him and he was like purnima! enga iruka? then i was like unga veetuku veliya aasiriyar! then he was like NEJAMAVAAA? naan ipavey varen! u noe he was at some union meeting then he actually came back allllllll the way for us! i was like SHIT we majorly disturbed him but still! omg he is soooooooooooooo sweet i swear ok! he said go in and sit down i will tell my wife...and i will be there soon! then we were like ok lets wait and we parked the car outside the house and all and chumma we were waiting...then nava got down to investigate the area and saw that ppl were watching chinese serials inside the house! then we r like SHIT RONG HOUSE! then we moved down further and found the rite house! ehehehe and mr chandras wife was waiting for us! sooo sweet la! she asked abt us and brought us in and showed us her paintings! not bad ah she is talented...she is an artist! even has lessons and all that! heheheh mr chandra never told us! then she gave us drinks and cakes and all and we were just chatting...so sweet la she! then mr chandra came shortly and omg heeeeee! u just noe it when a person really loves u...u noe wat he did...he came and he didnt even park his car properly! he just stopped it and rushed out and came into the house and we were like AASIRIYARRRRRRRRRRRRRR! OMG I JUST LOVE HIM SOOOOOOO MUCH! he was the same old sweet...nice...and funny mr chandra! =)) i love him man! he was asking if we got drinks and cakes and all that and was asking us abt our lives and our batchmates lives...then he played for us his daughters wedding cd and we watched it and he talked abt every scene and was just rasichifying and enjoying every bit...heheheh with occasional WOWS when he sees someone...and aaaaaaaaa he is just so funny i tell u! and his daughter was really sweet came and sat with us and talked to us also! and she was very down to earth...like talked very sweetly and nicely! like she was our friend! =)) i loved her! i loved the whole family! and the house was just beautiful! the carvings the sofa the paintings the whole house! just had this artsy look to it and was huge! =) i like him mann! but best was him! he was talking abt his last day and how he was all emotional and how all the girls cried...we could so imagine the whole scene...aaaaaaaaaaa...life is just different without mr chandra u noe...he just makes like sooo...different...when i think abt rgs he is definitely part of the reason why rgs was like the best period of my life... =)) listening to him talk and all made us soo nostalgic...i just wanted to stay there forever and listen to him! u noe it felt like tamil class! hehhee soooo nice la heeeeeeeeeeeeee! =)) all the memories r beautiful! and today was awesomeeeee! i love him so much man...he is like a grandfather to all of us...and no matter wat...he rockssssssss! best tamil teacher mannn! =)) then he came out checked out navas car and boot and everything and said bye and then i was like...aiya no heart to leave him kind... =( he is one of the few ppl i feel like that for...i rmb there r some ppl who even after sch it is so hard to leave them...like u just want to be with them forever and listen to them and talk to them kind u noe...but sadly had to leave...we were just hogging his house and some more we didnt even telll him we were coming! i think he was really busy with something but he came back all the way for us aaaaaaaaaa! i love u mr chandraaaaaaa! =)) then come home even his wife had sent us an email about her paintings and how she was happy to see us both! =)) omg...such a sweet family rite! i really miss those days man...but some things will never return will they? =(

yesssss then there were awesome songs playing on the radio and me and nava were just singing and she was driving so cutely! hehehhe we went to lim jiins place to pick her up then go all the way to j8 for dinner! hehhe havent met jiiiin in a long time! so it was good seeing her! =) pizza hut not bad ah...the cherryco was very handsome! =P hehehehe then eat eat talk talk and she dropped me all the way back at my house! =)) sweetness! thank u soooooooo much for today nava! =)) u really brought back all the wonderful memories! and nice driving! i owe u one! =)) hehhee yes and now i am back home! feeling like a sec 4 girl hehe...and i just realised! we didnt take pics at chandras house! or at pizza hut! how smart...oo wells another day! i really hope to meet mr chandra soon! =))

yayyyyyyyyyyyyy! MUACKS NAVA! ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

finals r overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

2009-05-06T19:12:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! did i forget i have a blog? it has been ages since i blogged! like omg i didnt blog the whole sem sia! =S and as a result u noe wat happened when i opened my blog just now? i realised my flooable chatterbox was gone...and when i tried to sign in i realised i forgot my password! tried alll combinations and coudnt make it...then had to reset password laaaa...u noe! i was so scared becasue they made me reset then the whole process was as if i was starting a new blog or something then i got freaked out thinking they auto deleted this blog! =S shit i will just die if that happens man...i think i should start saving all the entries... =S aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! anyway firstly sori for not blogging the whole sem! in fact i should be sori to myself...missed out recording so many events...i think this sem has been the worst sem so far...and this year has been the worst year so far also...the beginning of the year we were all so happy and excited to go back to sch! but within the first two weeks our lives were like on some roller coaster! SOOOOOOOOOOO MANY MISHAPPENINGS I SWARE! it was really sad...wait should i go from the back or from the front? =S ok la from the back...hee hee since i am like YAYYYY EXAMS R OVER! i shall talk abt that first...hehehehe yes after not blogging for like one sem...FINALS R OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! now got 3 month break till august something! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! =)) am so happy! but u noe...the exams went really bad...i just suck...either i dont finish studying...or i dont rite wat i studied...or i dont noe how to do the qn at all...maths was super bad...i didnt noe how to do like three quarter of the paper...then mkt and mno were bad becuase i have not ritten an essay or human stuff for like 2 years plus...so i kind of forgot how to ans qns...rote very little all the time... =S then wat else...oo programming HEE HEE dont even ask as usual...my programming skills rock my socks as always rite... -_- and finally 1231...all they asked was tut qns...and i couldnt even do those...that is how pathetic i am...so basically it was realy bad...and i bet it is all my fault...u noe maths...i had been ignoring it the whole sem! THE WHOLE SEM! since the start of sem i didnt go for lecs...didnt o for tuts...didnt watch webcasts...didnt even noe wat they were doing...it was as if i never took that module! then in the last 2 weeks i was spamming lecs and dying because it was so hard and i didnt understand a thing! and there were some 11 tuts to do! =S oo wells...that was my patheticism...u noe i dont noe wat i was doing the whole sem...all i rmb is i did two projects for mno and mkt...that is all! and the sem FLEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! i didnt study at all...i wasnt on task...i wasnt following lecs or tuts for both subjects...but somehow there was something to do all the time...weekly programming sit in labs...take home labs...as if i did those...but still...something was coming up...and projects take up so much of time i dont even noe how ppl do so many proejcts in one sem! =S so i was just doing all that...and being BUSY...but not very busy also...that is why didnt even have time to blog! i dont noe wat i was doing la! chumma whole sem was so fast! =S ethoo!

ok so coming back to the mishappenings...sighhhhhhhhh...was a reallly reallly realllly bad start to the sem...maybe that is why i found it like weird...u noe second week into sem...and sandhya was hospitalised for gastroentiritis...it was so sad la...poor thing...she was just aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...but even in the hospital she was so pretty! hee hee =P but aiya it was really sad that that happened to her...and all of us were just sad...it shouldnt have happened...and ever since then we dont go to that particular place to eat anymore! ok at least me...i think she has gone there again alr hehehe brave soul! =P then wat happened...the day after she was hospitalised...i lost my laptop... =S like at the biz bustop...i dont even rmb losing it...even till now...i dont noe how it happened...but i oculd just feel it happening...u noe like...something was telling me i was goin to lose it that day...and i lost it...but i dont rmb how i lost it...all i rmb is that...after i lost it...the ppl around me were REALLY REALLY REALLY EXTREMEELYYYYYYYYYYYYYY SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET... =)) and i rmb that more than the losing itself...firstly nithya and apurva and abhinay were ging around everywhere looking for it! then after that abhinay was so sweet told nithya to go eat first and followed me everywhere! to lodge complaints...to talk to the security guards...to go student service centre...to do everything and anything possible...omg it was soooooooo sweet... =)) I LOWE U ABHINAY! =)) and wat he had some 4 lessons continuously that day...but he ponned all of that for me...even madan came from dont noe where to help me out...sigh everyone was sooooo sweet... =)) i lowe all of u mannnnnn! they all were soooo concerned like as if they had lost their own laptop...aaaaa...sweetness! but yes till now i havent found it because i dont noe why...stolen proly... =S sometimes i see myself on msn signing out because i have signed onto another computer...must be this person who took it only...u noe first week after losing it i was totally disappointed with myself...i mean...it was my first laptop...and it was expensive...i really shouldnt have lost it...my dads efforts r just wasted...which is why now i want to work to earn back that money! then can repay him! but yes that will take some time...i was very disappointed also because...i realised that uni is not a place filled with innocent sweet ppl who will return stuff if they find it...it showed that ppl were selfish...and i was having this feeling of being surrounded by evilness... =S which was scary! u noe...like no protection around u...but oo wells...maybe the guy who took it had urgent needs and really needed to take it...as long as it was for a good cause...i dont mind...anyway cant be helped...so i am like ok...but only in times of stress like this can we see how ppl r really sooooooo sweet and concerned...omg i really love all of them mannnnn... =))

then wat happened...in that same week there were lots of other things that were just bad also...shall not mention it here...bbut yes all turned out to be really bad...like it was PA PA PA PA PA without a break u noe...and the year had just started...so i dont noe wat was happening... =S bad starttttttttttt...and i think i have had the most number of fights with abhinay this sem! hee hee even fought with sai...all due to miscommunication and my fault crap...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...even now i am fighting with siddharth...which reminds me...i should tell u! met this siddharth guy this sem...really sweet person...very different from a lot of ppl i met in uni...and will do a lot of things for u without u asking for it explicitly...has lots of humanityyyyyyyy... =)) i like! but now i dont noe i think he is pissed off with me for some reason...aiya ppl just hate me...i must have said something bad... =S so that is him...something new i saw this semmmmmmmm... =) that was refreshing! hee hee i am glad abhinay and me and sai and me didnt prolong our fights though! because that would have just been miserable...they r all sweet ppl! so they also didnt take the fights too seriously! which is really really nice of themmmmm! =)) i lowe u all mannnnnnnnnnnn! and oo! hee hee last sem one week crush with many weeks of hangover...this sem got two weeks crush on a year 4 guy hehehe...so sad rite...going to graduate alr then i like...but now no feelings...hee hee...i think i have forgotten how to fall in lowe...chumma i like for two weeks for some shallow reason like...oo he is handsome...or oo he has nice hair...or oo he has a nice voice...then finish...no chemistry with anyone at all...oo wells...fated...so that was another new person i met! he was also very sweet...very nice and all...but sadly he is leaving soon! so i saw a new guy...but he was also year 4...so very sad...even today i met him! it was destinyyyyyy! hehehehe but didnt even talk to him! nobody intros me to him! athanaala free! =S ethooooo! just go with the flow! heheheh!

my love life is sad...hee hee...

oo yes basically it has been a very sad sem that i dont even noe wat to blog abt...but then! got nice stuff happening limeeting new ppl and all...and i spent a lot of time in pgpr this sem! because nithya and sandhya both got into pgopr! yayyyyyyyyy! then was just there forever! =)) hehehe! playing away and wasting time only! but it was fun i guess! but shouldnt have wasted so much time because in the end it was hard... =S but yayyyyyyyy now sem is over and i can slp for 3 months! initialy i was thinking of special sem...but i just dropped it because i would be so lonely and have to work for 3 months again! so aiya do next sem la! hehehehe! sadness again because once holiday starts everyone would go overseas...abhinay is going alr... =( and everyone is going tioman tomorrow! so fun! all he pgpr ppl! hehhee! but after they come back they will all go to india straight then damn sad...the sch will be so empty...left with me sandhya nithya sai and siddharth...wat to do...we will proly be spamming outings like last dec! hehehehehe! just do watever we want to lawwwwww! yayyyyyy! =))

hehehehe ok i am actually crying now because i dont noe why...was listening to a sad lowe song... =S so i shall go off and listen to happier songs! YAYYYY CANT WAIT FOR SHAFALI AND NANDITA TO COME BACK! =)) YAYYYYYYYYYYY! heheheh hope all of u have been fine! oo and i set up a new chatterbox! so pls tag! =) YAYYYYYYYYY! ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

hindi ghajini...

2009-01-18T20:55:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...i wanted to have this as a separate blog post because...I LOWED HINDI GHAJINI TO BITSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! =)) IT WAS AWESOMELY SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOODDDDDDDDDDDDDD! =))i lowed it soo much...even more than the tamil oneee...at least the conclusion part...it was all different from the tamil ending...hee hee...and amir khann! aaa i havent seen him much at all...but after this movie i was like AAA AMIR KHAAAAAAAAAAAAAN! he was soooooooooo hot mannnnn! his 6 pack...his entire bodyyy! everything was sooo solid! =)) SUPER YUMMY! yummir khan mann! =)) i lowed ittt! and asin was cute tooo! but i found her cuter in tamil...maybe beuase i understood her tamil better! but she was cute here too! and she lost a lot of wt! looks better here also...nauw ppl r all like ASIN ASIN SO HOT SO HOT! like shafali finds her damn hot hehehe! ok la not bad la...but amir khaan! aaaaaaaaaaaaaa! super nicce la...and i soo knew i was going to cry even before i entered the movie...cried some three four times during the movie...for the tragic parts...for the sweet and romantic parts...for everything...sighhhh...i knew i would get reminded of a lot of things...i just kept seeing one person in amir khan...and was just pouring on shafalis shirt...sori mannnn...aaa...and it was just damn sad la...even shafali cried...the movie was highly impactful and sad and tragic...and VIOLENT of course... =( sooo miserable...but the funniest thing was the villain who played a dual role as a comedian and villain! HEHHEHEHE! HE WAS TOO FUNNY! evertyime during a very serious scene he will suddenly say...SHORT TERM MEMORY LOSS! IN THE PRONOUNCIATION THAT SOUNDS LIKE THIS...shoawt taerm meymry loaws! HEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHE! SUPER FUNNY! and where is the ROAWD? for where is the rod? and LISTHU BANAO LISHTU! surprisingly initially when he kept saying short term memory loss nobody talked or laughed and only our row was laughing liek shit! and disturbing everyone...ppl in front of us were turning around alr! but by the end everyone was laughing at his short term memory loss alr! damn funny la! =)) and my favourite song issssssss...TU MERI ADHOORI PYAS PYAS! =)) SUPER NICEEEEE! and the lyrics r beautiful! kaisey mujhey is damn sad also...the lyrics r really nice with deep and intense meanings...i like both! =)) aaa!

Tu meri adhuri pyas pyas(You're my incomplete thirst)
Tu agayi mann ko ras ras(My soul longs for you)
aab thoooo

Tu meri adhuri pyas pyas(you're my unquenched thirst)
Tu agayi mann ko ras ras (My soul longs for you)
aab tho thu aaja pass passsssss (Come close to me)
hain Guzarishhhhhh(I request you)

Hain haal to dil ka tang tang( My heart is restless)
thu rang ja mere rang rang(Blend into my colors--essentially becoming one with me)
bas chalna mere sang sang(Walk only with me)
hain Guzarishhhhhh( I request you-- or that is my request to you)

kehde thu han tho zindagi (If you say yes)
chainon se chhutke hasegi (Life will smile unrelentingly)
moti hunge moti rahon meinnn (There will be pearls on our path)
yeh yeh yeh

Tu meri adhuri pyas pyas (You're my unquenched thirst)
Tu agayi mann ko ras ras *(My soul longs for you)
aab tho thu aaja pass passsssss (Come close to me)
hain Guzarishhhhhh (I request you)

Sheeshe ke khwaab lekke (I'm taking my dreams as fragile as glass....
raaton mein chal raha hon-- i'm walking on paths)
takrana jao kahinnnn( I hope I don't stumble..)

aasha ki lon hain roshan (The flame of hope burns bright
phir bhi toffan ka dhar hain( But I'm still scared of a storm)
lon bhuj na jaye kahin (I hope the flame doesn't extinguish)

bas eak haan ki guzaarish (I'm just requesting a "yes")
phir hogi khusiyon ki baarish (Then then'll be a shower of happiness)

Tu meri adhuri pyas pyas (You're my unquenched thirst)
Tu agayi mann ko ras ras (My soul longs for you)
aab tho thu aaja pass passsssss (Come close to me)
hain Guzarishhhhhh (I request you)

hmmm mmm mm mmm mmm mm mmm hmmmmm mm…

oho ohhhhhhhhhh oho ohhhhhhhhh..

chanda hain aasman hain (The moon is there, the sky is there)
aur badal bhee gane hain( And cloud cover)
yeh chandaaa chup jaye naaa (I hope the moon doesn't disappear behind the clouds)

tanhayi das rahin hain (Loneliness is stinging me)
aur dhadkan bad rahi hain (and my heart beat is increasing)
eak pal bhi chain aaye na ( I don't find peace, not even for a second)

kaisi aajab dastaan hain (It's a strange story)
bheechainiyan baas yahan hainnn ohhh (There is just restlessness here)

Tu meri adhuri pyas pyas (you're my unquenched thirst)
Tu agayi mann ko ras ras (My soul longs for you)
aab tho thu aaja pass passsssss (Come close to me)
hain Guzarishhhhhh (I request you)

hain haal tho dil ka thang thang (My heart is restless)
thu rang ja mere rang rang (Blend into my colors)
bas chalna mere sang sang (Walk with me)
hain Guzarishhhhhh (I request you)
kehde thu han tho zindagi (If you say yes)
chainon se chhutke hasegi (Life will smile unrelentingly)
moti hunge moti rahon meinnn (There will be pearls on our path)
yeh yeh yeh

Tu meri adhuri pyas pyas (You're my unquenced thirst)
hmm m m m hmmm

aaa i lowe this songggggggggg! =))

and amir khan sooo handsomeeeeeeeeeee! love his cute smile! =))

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...i am falling in lowe with ghajini all over again... =) ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

yayyyy back to school tomorrow...

2009-01-11T22:41:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...YAYYYYY! TOMORROW IS THE FIRST DAY OF SEMESTER 2! =)) YAYYY! sooo exciteddd! new modules new places new ppl! new lifee! =)) i like it! hehhehee the exxictement for the first week and the first day and the how we r going to settle in will all be there for the first 2 weeks! after which life will just be abt work and exams...hee hee...but still! first day is cool man! but looks like i am the only one who is excited! everyone around me is dreading it...and is sad that hols r over...or that they r away from their families in india...and all that...oo wells...life is abt moving on rite? =)) lets look forward to the new sem WOO HOOOOOOOOOO! =))

anyway i wanted to blog becuase this day! 11-01-2009! is the first day a guy friend of mine entered my houseeeeee! WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! and that bravesoul issssssssssssssssssss! DRUMROLLLLLLLLLLLLL! ABHINAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! =)) hhehehehhe dont worry i didnt sneak him in! but my mum! woo hoo suddely she has become quite open abt me talking to guys...and she let them come also! and the second guy is madan! hhehe so today sandhya madan and abhinay came and we chumma played cards and dumb charades and all...but sadly my mum had gone out so we didnt have proper food...soriii pplllll...next weeek definitely come for a full meal...but today i was kind of damn sad and feeling bad that they didnt eat properly... =S sadness...and in the morning we were supposed to go sentosa but my mum scolded me that i was going out too much and all...so i kind of spoilt the plan...and instead called them over to my house! which ended up to be a good thing also! finally sandhya came to my house for the first time! =)) yayyy! but i cant believe guy friends were at my house! aaa that is one thing i have never imagined in my life! u noe even that day...i was on the phone with sai on loudspeaker...and my mum came into the room and i was like OO SAIKUMAR...and then she was fine abt it and took the phone and even talked to him! I WAS LIKE ENGAYO POITAAAAAAA! AAAAAAAAAAAAAA! that was too much u noe...i felt like jumping off the cliff that very moment...because i never imagined that to happen at all...can u like tink abt it...everytime i talk to a guy on the phone i will be like oo it was my classmate...or like stay 20 metres away and talk...or like not call at all from my house...or lie that it was a girl on the phone...but noww...omg...it was unbelivable...congrats sai...but sai the jerk! he said the rong things...like i am always playing in school and dancing around in the hostel...then my mum like keeps scolding me based on wat he said...she cant take jokes man...so dont tell her i am fooling around in sch...she will totally kill me...but woo hooo! well done that finally i can tell her i am friends with these ppl and not pretend like they dont exist or something... =)) happiness! but then...maybe it is only because i keep mentioning their names like abhinay and sai she noes...the rest not much i guess...and madan over the hols...others not yet...but slowly la...YAYY! =)) i dont noe if u can feel wat i am feeling...like...generally happy that i dont have to hide ppls existence and presence...wish one day i can call wenhao mervin and all of them to my house too! =) YAYY! that will be the day man! =)

anyway...just felt like blogging today...but seems like i am losing the drive to blog as each day passes...firstly there is no one reading my blog...secondly...i dont noe...there seems to be no pt...hee hee...or actually maybe i am just too busy going out and on the phone! HEHHEE...ok man tomorrow sch! guess wat...back to back lecs from 12 to 6...HOW IS THAT? shal go slp nauwww! ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

HAPPY NEW YEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR...

2009-01-06T20:22:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! here goes my first entry for 2009 HEE HEE! =)) HEE HEE OMG IT IS ABT TIME I FINALLY BLOGGED! =)) been so loooong mann! and i just realised i havent properly blogged abt my holss at all! and now hols r going to end in like a week alr! =S SO FAST! aaaaaaaaa! no more slping endlessly and slacking on the phone mannn! hehehehe! but in a way i am happy too! finally abhinay sai remya ishaan divya kalyani the whole bunch of ppl will be backkkk! =)) AND YAYYY! school is fun generally mannn! =)) but then i am also sad again! because sigh...next sem seems like everyone is taking different modules! =S then cant really meet up with the usual ppl and have lunch and talk shit and all! ppl seem to be taking gem ss and all that where they have to go to a lot of other faculties and stuff! cant really meet mann! damn sad...SANDHYAAAAAAAA! mera pyaaaaaaaaar! i want to meet up with her sai and abhinay as usual mannn! hope we can make some timeeeee to make some noiseee! WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! =)) and yayyy school shall be fun becuase there r more new things to look out for! like new friends! and new modules! new lecturers! new timetable! HEHEHEHE! =)) YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY! =)

sooo wat have i been doing for this one month? let me see! i rmb i slept a lot and hence screwed up my body clock like shit! have been slping at like 2 or 3 am every day! EVERY DAY OMG! and have been waking up at some 12 or 1 or 2 pm! AAAAAAAAAAAA! super screwed laaaaaa! i need to unscrew my body clock by next week! =S even today i was like DEEP in sleep at 2 PM! OMG! HEHHEHEH! ok besides slping a lot...i have been going out! heheheh! got three sets of ppl i go out with! sandhya madan priya nithya raandy periya sranj r all like one uni set! then got shafali nava kums! YAYYYY! FINALLY SHAFALI IS BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK! =)) WOO HOOOOOOOOOO! I LOWE U BABE! HEHEHHEHEHE so have been meeting them too! then got my jc class outings! so every other day i am out with one of these groups! let me see! first we had surprise bday party for priya then we randomly MAJAA pannufied with my uni set! =)) damn funny! then went to sandhyas house some three times alr! to watch nalathamayanthi...to watch jeyam kondan...and waatched 21 also! damn funnn! then we always make fun of the movies! and she damn funny! halfway thru the movie she will look at the villain and be like...HEY WHO IS THIS GUY! HEHEHEHEHHE BLUR BLOCK! HEHEHEHEHEH! SO CUTE! thennnn...we always mute hindi serials and dub for them HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH! IT IS DAMN FUNNY! liek the scene will be some tragedy scene and we wil be like ENAKU GULAB JAMUN VENUM! AVA THIRUDITAAA! HEHEHEHHEHEHEHE DAMN FUNNNYYYYY WE CRIED LAUGHING! HEHEHEEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHE =)) i lowe her house mann! and her mum and her sis and her dadddd! all really sweet ppl! then we went to ecp like twice to cycle! =)) YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! we r all fit ppl! HEHEHEHEH taught varsha sandhyas sis how to cycle also! not bad ahhh! she learn quite fast! =)) damn fun to cycle and talk shit! =)) YYAYYYY! =))

then with nava shafali and kums and all! we met at chellas corner! met at my house for a dance party! damn fun laaaa! just sitting down and talkiing shit is a lot of fun! AND NAVA! HEHEHEHEHEH DAMN FUNNY HER GUITAR DANCE! as u can see from all the videos on fb! =)) HEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHE! I LAUGH EVERYTIME I WATCH IT! =)) SHAFALIII! i was waiting for her to come backkk for soooo longgggggggggg! finally damn happy to talk to her long long on the phone and go out! =)) YAY! I LIKE! =)) I LOWE U BABE! HEHHEHEHEHEE! =))

then with my jc class! met up with them at huizhens house! HUIZHEN IS BACKKK YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! nice new hairstyle huizhen! I LOVE UR HAIR! =)) heheheh the we also met at settlers cafe! YAYYYY! NANDITA IS BACK TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! =)) WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! as my mum says she looks like a vellakaari nowww! damn modern and woo hoooooo sexeh babe! HEE HEE! and we had a family outing to sentosa too! =)) YAYYYYYYYYY! it was great fun to be with the class again! playing BRIDGE! that most of us havent played for nearly a year! and played heart attack tai tee indian poker blabla yayyyyyyy! i like! all the stupid forfits and swanning! =)) missed everyone and everything mannn! and now everyone is going back soon alr! huizhen left alr omg...and shafali and nandita r leaving soon! and sch is starting next week omg! aaa! so fast! heheheheheh but this holiday was quite fun! becuase i kept slping and going out! but so irresponsible! never do anything for my house! HEHEHEH! oo but we painted the house! i like the purpleness in it! =)) and my yellow door with purple flowers! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHHE! new colour for the new year! =)) YAYYYY! so that is all my holidays was in a nutshell! =)

i shall blog more abt the next few days! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! =)) have a great great new year with no regrets! =)) I LOWE ALL OF U! =)) ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

our koova baashai...

2008-12-24T22:49:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...HEE HEE check out the damn funny convo i had with nithya yday! IT IS TOOOOOOOOOOO FUNNYYYYYYYYYYY! =))

haha
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
namma veetu kounderru
God's Gift says:
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH!
God's Gift says:
ethutha veetu kounderu
God's Gift says:
naan en-gounder shankar
God's Gift says:
HEHEHEE!
God's Gift says:
endra purusan
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
haha...
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
haha
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
kaikari vaaangoanam narukoanam samakoanam
God's Gift says:
HEHEHEHEH!
God's Gift says:
endraa rombathaan aluthukiriyaakom!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
intha panjayathu talavarukkae endra purusan teerpu solvaru...teerpa maathi ezuthu!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
HAHAHAH
God's Gift says:
naatamai!
God's Gift says:
theerpa maathi sollu!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
hahahahahaha
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
ur too funny
God's Gift says:
endra paiyanga rendu perum...undra ponnu kaluthula thaaliya KATTUVANUNGADA KATTUVANUNGADA KATTUVANUNGADA!
God's Gift says:
HEHEHEEHEHEHEHEHHE!
God's Gift says:
ithu intha naataamai theerpu cholliputenaakom!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
shabba ipove kanna kattuthee
God's Gift says:
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHHE!
God's Gift says:
U R SO CUTE!
God's Gift says:
=))
God's Gift says:
nithya will u marry me!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
haha
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
sure
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
nee ethavathu vambu thumbu panena na....endra taaliya arutukuttu poittaa irupen...
God's Gift says:
poikiney iru poikiney iru...ena romba overa thulra! enna pilim kaatriyaa! EI! naa naa wootla sollitu vantiyaa! okaanthu koovinu iruka!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
che kasumaalum vaayla phenoila pottu kazuvu...saavukraaki...ena ena...unaku rendu vitean na sevudu pinjikum...
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
ena romba soundu vidra
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
idhu namma local language pa...rattatuliya ooorinu kidaku...poda goyya
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
ena nalla gaandha kiida
God's Gift says:
EIIII! inaa thairiyom irunthaa...en moonjikita ninnu ipdilaam pesuva!
God's Gift says:
EI un moonjila en peechaangaiya vekka!
God's Gift says:
somaari!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
bemali
God's Gift says:
gaandha kidaavaa
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
che vaayayum adhayayum pothindhu kundu
God's Gift says:
aama naa periya kundi thevi kundinnu kedakrathuku
God's Gift says:
tha paaru paa...nee romba sokka keera...nee vanthathlenthu en manasu julonnu keedu maa...
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
aii...indha kadavula kalaikira velailaam nambulta vechikaatha
God's Gift says:
naangellam cycle chain gapla auto otravanga maa
God's Gift says:
unnoda padum bejaara keedey
God's Gift says:
naa maa savundu paarty
God's Gift says:
vita overa pesikiney pora!
God's Gift says:
kulir vitu pocha maa!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
naangallam cycle chain gapla, kudumbame nadatiduvenuma...
God's Gift says:
ahaaa inaathu...kudumbameyvaa! gujalti kudumpampaa!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
enda saavukraaki....ina tenamum soru thaan tinariya illa veru ethaavathu tinariya
God's Gift says:
aanaa maa nithya kannu...ipovey solikiney...intha pjkitey un parupplaam vegathu aama!
God's Gift says:
soru thaanmaa thingiren!
God's Gift says:
athuku mela moru koodu oothikinen
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
haha...
God's Gift says:
yen paa...nee ena thunra?
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
naa pothikinum padutukuven padutukunum pothikuven, nee ena pannuvea
God's Gift says:
naan oothikinum kadichikuven kadichikinu oothikuven
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
enaku vaaza meenum
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
kozhiyum thaan pa
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
thenumm sapaadu
God's Gift says:
aahaa
God's Gift says:
aiyer familyla assaalta chicken kekriyey
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
kaathadikuthu
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
kaathadikuthu
God's Gift says:
aama di adikum adikum
God's Gift says:
konja nerathula ungammaavey adipaanga
God's Gift says:
chicken kekuthaakum!
God's Gift says:
undra kudumbam sutha saivamaakom!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
eiii ena romba pesra
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
endra kudumbatha pesa nee yaarudi
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
patthui
God's Gift says:
pesuvendi pesuven!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
kasumaalam kasumaalam
God's Gift says:
endra machaan kudumpatha pathi naa pesama vera yaaru pesuva!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
kasoon oru kasumaalam
God's Gift says:
HEHEHEH!
God's Gift says:
kasoon engerunthu vanthan!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
shabba...en peelingsa touch pannita ma...TOUCH pannita!
God's Gift says:
peelings ila maa
God's Gift says:
un thambiya kooda...athaan endra machan machaan...avana kooda naa touch panniten!
God's Gift says:
chee po enaku vekkama iruku!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
aiyyayoo
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
ithu ena puthu kathaiya iruku
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
aii...endra thambiya kalyanakatikarthku unnaku ena taguthi iruku
God's Gift says:
endra annana kattika onaku enna thaguthi iruko...athey thaguthi thaandi enakum iruku choliputen aama!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
hahhaha
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
nee innukonjam choliputea irru...naa onaku kolli vechuruven aamaa!
God's Gift says:
adiyaathi! undra vaayila kolliya vekka! enna thairiyam irunthaa...undra annikitey ipdi panni maari pesuva aathi!
God's Gift says:
intha kaalathu pullagailey ipdithaan!
God's Gift says:
onnum chariyilla aama!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
adi aathi..romba aataatha sulukkika pothu

Sandhya has been added to the conversation.

♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
welcome sandyness
Sandhya says:
hi kuttimas
God's Gift says:
aa aaa! romba thaandi silupikira!
God's Gift says:
HEHEHEHEHE!
God's Gift says:
SANDHYA KUTTY!
God's Gift says:
=))
God's Gift says:
NITHYA IS SO FUNNY!
God's Gift says:
HEHEHHE
Sandhya says:
adatthu enna kandraave
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
ohh u shd read the things we told each other
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
one more time PJ!!!!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
haha...
Sandhya says:
ahaha actually pj copy pasted some snippets
Sandhya says:
thaangala!!
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
haha
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
endra purusen theerpa maathi solvaan
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
endra paiyanga rendu perum...undra ponnu kaluthula thaaliya KATTUVANUNGADA KATTUVANUNGADA KATTUVANUNGADA!

♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
haha read this
Sandhya says:
lol
Sandhya says:
ahaha undra paiyanga yaaru??
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
ena maa koovinukeera
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
enga indha pj ponna kaanom
Sandhya says:
periya (that jugde pakka thula standing persona?
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
periyaachi periya devi
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
and periya
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
ena maa...naa vutta soundla, party kabalti aiyuducha
Sandhya says:
hey actually who is the judge pakkathula standing person
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
oru soundum kaanom
Sandhya says:
he repeats everything thrice
God's Gift says:
HEHEHEHEHEHE!
Sandhya says:
ada thu idhukku soundey vendaam!
God's Gift says:
naa savundu paarty maa
God's Gift says:
vanthutenla!
God's Gift says:
inimey ragala thaan maa
God's Gift says:
enna koovinu kedaka?
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
vanthutomula
Sandhya says:
ada thu gamnu kada
Sandhya says:
rendu peru pesinkarom theriyudulaa
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
che gammunu keda
God's Gift says:
bubble gamnu kedakavaa?
God's Gift says:
sari aathoi!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
HAHAHA
God's Gift says:
pesunga!
God's Gift says:
naa kuruka vanthathu en thappu thaan chaami
God's Gift says:
manichukenga cheriya!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
ena ma inga rendu peri manichenunga pesikiromu teriyudhula
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
tappa othukuruve thaan periya manushi
Sandhya says:
ennala mudiyala
Sandhya says:
by the time I type out tamilla en mudi grey aaidum!
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
aannaa athaa tappa tiripiyum panra paaru...ava periya kiruki
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
epdi namma panchu dialogue
God's Gift says:
HEHEHEHEHHE!
Sandhya says:
ada thuu
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
en maa....tamiz ponnu thaana nee
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
ipadi pilm kaatre
God's Gift says:
undra punch dialoguekku nichayama unaku pucnhu kedakumadiyey!
Sandhya says:
pj nee eppomey vara naa first onnoda hehehhehe thaankeekkudu
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
an aaan...rombathaan altikiriya
God's Gift says:
kawla padathey!
Sandhya says:
keykkudu*
Sandhya says:
kawla LOL!!!
God's Gift says:
aa aan nee periya iva!
God's Gift says:
en pilimlaam keka maatiyo!
God's Gift says:
naa over peter kaatra maa nithya!
God's Gift says:
russell peter mela unaku enna lowes ah!
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
etho patanathu kaari maathri...poranthatho namma tenaambetta hospitrila
God's Gift says:
avana paathu overa ravusu wudatha choliten! aven oru maari!
God's Gift says:
aama naa thenampettai naa nee kannama petta
Sandhya says:
yaven avan
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
haha
God's Gift says:
namma russelu ma
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
tenaambetta bus stopla picha edukuraan
Sandhya says:
petterkey peteraa??
God's Gift says:
intha ninnukeeney sokeu solluvaanla
Sandhya says:
kaatuvandi kaatuvan
God's Gift says:
avanthaan!
Sandhya says:
idhuvum kaatuvan innamu kaatuvan
God's Gift says:
aahaa! vera inaa kaatuvaan?
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
aiyayo
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
censorr
God's Gift says:
enaku romba peelingsa varuthu maa
God's Gift says:
=))
God's Gift says:
inaatha kaatuvaan!
God's Gift says:
namma annaathey!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
adura othiko othiko
Sandhya says:
heheh
Sandhya says:
hey hw;s adira?
Sandhya says:
side noteah vechchokko
God's Gift says:
thenaatu vengathaan
God's Gift says:
othu po othu po!
God's Gift says:
hehehe
God's Gift says:
yaaru maa intha adira?
God's Gift says:
puthusaa?
God's Gift says:
new charatera keethu!
God's Gift says:
aal epdi?
Sandhya says:
sooper figure maamoi
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
semma katta
Sandhya says:
paathathey illa reel odaraya
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
summa kummunu irukum
Sandhya says:
enna maadri
Sandhya says:
kummunu!! LOL!!
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
haha
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
wait lemme paste something pj said
God's Gift says:
HEHEHEHEHHEHE
God's Gift says:
gummunu irunthalum neengellam gammunu kekada solluveenga
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
tha paaru paa...nee romba sokka keera...nee vanthathlenthu en manasu julonnu keedu maa...

God's Gift says:
apram naa maa projanom?
God's Gift says:
HEHEHEHEHEH!
God's Gift says:
julonu keeda!
God's Gift says:
gummunu gujalaambaal maari irupaala?
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
jillunu keedu ma
God's Gift says:
ava peru inaa?
God's Gift says:
sarosavaa?
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
summa takaali colouruma
God's Gift says:
thaa maa sarosaaaaaaaaaaa...saamanikaaloo maa
God's Gift says:
thakaaliyaa
God's Gift says:
aahaaaaaaaaa
God's Gift says:
roseu coloura?
God's Gift says:
rosa rosa nee than en peesa
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
papali sakka iniku
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
inipu*
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
rosapu chinna rosapu
Sandhya says:
lll
God's Gift says:
aaha pappali thakkali!
Sandhya says:
with a o in the middle
God's Gift says:
vitha vithamaa soapu seepu kannadii
God's Gift says:
en aaka mava vanthu ninna munnadi!
God's Gift says:
HEHEHEHEH!
Sandhya says:
lol you guys are proficient at local koovam tamil man!!
Sandhya says:
eppadi!!
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
katiirika pinju katiirika ena paakama poraale chandirika
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
ok kannugalaa
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
i am gonna go sleep now
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
tookam summa sokuthu
Sandhya says:
nalla idea
♫NiTĥǻ♫ says:
naanga namma
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
local koovam languagea
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
naalaiku continue pannalam
God's Gift says:
sokka keethey intha koova baasha
God's Gift says:
ithayey nama maintain panlaama?
God's Gift says:
heheheh sari ma
God's Gift says:
=))
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
nalla soka keethu la
God's Gift says:
paaint noted!
God's Gift says:
gujaltiya keethu maa!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
note panitiya ma
God's Gift says:
pinniten!
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
entha notela ma panna
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
nallu vari koda
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
illa 6 vari koda
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
seri makalz
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
catch ya tmr..
♫NiTĥŸǻ♫ says:
bye
Sandhya says:
bye

♫NiTĥǻ♫ has left the conversation.

God's Gift says:
hehehehe
God's Gift says:
???
God's Gift says:
we r olarifing!
God's Gift says:
ok i go slp!
God's Gift says:
=))
Sandhya says:
enna aachu?
God's Gift says:
gd nite sandhya!
God's Gift says:
hehehe
Sandhya says:
oh ok!!
God's Gift says:
olaritom!
God's Gift says:
so funny!
Sandhya says:
alrighty then

hee hee hehehehehehh! that would have surely cracked u up! =)) ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

happy birthday to meeeeeeeeeeeeee...part twoooooooooooooo...

2008-12-06T19:18:00.001+08:00

hey everyone...HEHEHEHEHEHEH OK I AM BACK! TO TALK ABT MY SECOND CELEBRATION YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! =)))

but before that! must talk abt the phonecalls! heheheh they mean so much to me! esp since my lowed ones r overseas...like CHAPATI! =)) heheheh but this year i had a new set of ppl calling me! SO I WAS LIKE WOO HOOOOOOOOOO! feels so new! heheh first one was unbelivably SAI OMG! he called me according to some ATOMIC CLOCK *faints* heheheh! OMG SAI i thought u would be slping by then man! HEHEHEH THANK U MANNN! and then was ABHINAY! sooo cute! he was like PUUUUUUUUUUUURNIMAAAAAAAAAAAA HAPPY BIRTHDYAYYYY! HEHEHEH am i the first! HEEHEHEH! that is the qn i always ask ppl! =P HEHEHEHEHHEEHHEHEHE so sweeet la u abhinay! then were ppl wishing me online! SRANJ! and then nava called! and she had called at 12 05 because she thought i would be talking to shafali first...then sandhya called! HEHEHEHE cant believe u all were like sooo nice to call even though u all were online HEHHE! =)) THANK U PPL! then there was the string of smses hehee...from ppl i didnt expect! my sec sch friends omg! ELVINA AND ALL! =)) woo hoooooooooooooo! and sabby and wenhao again! =)) thank u allllll for all ur well wishes! =)) and i cant believe even ppl who i am not extremely close to were all calling and wishing and smsing...like shwetha and kritika and all! =)) the pgpr ppl r sooo sweet! i swaare i didnt tink they will be soooooooooooooooooooooooooo swweet to call and all...thank u sooo much ppl! =)) it all meant a lot a lot a lot to meeeeeee! =)) thennnnnn! shafali called! and it wasnt ur fault at all baby so dont be angry AT ALL! something abt the america clock being one hour slow or something...so she thought it was 12 but it was 1 here heheheh NO PROBLEM SHAFALI! =)) ur wish still meansss sooooo much to meeeeeee! so dont blame urself AT ALL! i was touched that u called and kept waking up to call me even though u were sound asleep...=)) *HUGS BABY* DONT BE SAD AT ALL I SWAARE! THANK U SWEETHEART! =)) and shafali damn cute! u noe she was like...WHO WAS THE FIRST? then i said...oo sai and then got abhinay then nava then sandhya...then she was like 'oo like that...yayy i have left u in good hands...' HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE! DAMN CUTE LA U SHAFALI! MUACKS! =)) thank u all of u for all the calls smses fb and msn messages and changing of ur msn nicks to HAPPY BIRTHDAY POONI! HEHEHEH it was so cute! dharini and vicky dedicated their nicks to me awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...NANRI NANRI! =)) HEHEHE! soo nice of all of u mann seriously! so i was like =)) and went to slp at around 3 something i tink...hehehe...TOO HAPPY LIAO!

then came the bday gathering organised by SANDHYANESS! SANDHYA I LOVE U! =)))) HEHEHEHEHEH I LOWED THIS ONEEEEE MANNNNNNNNNNNN! i swaaaare! i didnt expect so many ppl to turn up at all! and some ppl were totally out of the list and they came! ok i shall start from the top...so firstly...i went to the temple with my family and pray pray...then we were like ok must go little india to meet sandhya and sai and abhinay...but surprisingly i was early! for the first time in my life! so my parents were like ok lets walk around...so we were walking around little india...when they suddenly randomly popped into a gold shop...then i was tinking oo noo must buy gold ah...economy down la...but the shopkeeper was stanidng therewith a chain that had my name on it...then i was damn surprised la! like OMG! my mum had alr told him to make it and all before hand and she didnt tell me abt it at alllllll! so it ended up to be a pleasant surprise! i totally didnt expect it mannnnnnnnnnn! yayyyy...but felt quite bad that they were spending money on that... =S anythinggggg! then after that they dropeed me at the bustop i was supposed to meet sandhya and ppl! and i was waiting there and ended up taking pics for touristssssss! HEHEHEH! damn funny...and then yayyyy! i saw sandhya at a distance! =)) and then i was tinking like only abhinay and sai and nithya will come...which will be damn good enuf alr! but OMG THERE WAS SO MANY PPL WHO I DIDNT EXPECT AT ALL! =)) i swaare! i was totally surprised! hehehe! ppl like nikhil omg! and dharshini! and renuka! didnt expect them at allllllllll! sandhyaaa u r soo proo mannnnn! called them all and made me really surprised! thank u maa! =)) yayyy! so i was like yayyyyyyyyyyyy! and as if that was not enuf got three roses and shades from all of themmmm tooooo! so sweeeeet la all of u! awwwwwwwwwww...thank u ppl! heheheh u ppl coming there itself made my dayyyyyyyyyyyyyy! =)) yayyyyyyyyyyyy! then we all skipped our way to raj! =)) didnt noe that hotel existed till sandhya told me! yayyyy so we went there and talked a bit and started ordering naan and panneer stuff...then when the food came we were all eating and talking...while again at a distance i saw this red figure walking towards me with a cake...and at first i didnt even noe who it was...thought it was some random person going somewhere...BUT THEN! I REALISED THAT IT WAS NAVAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! omg la...i totally didnt tink she will come...becuase she said she had an exam to study for...so i was like definitely wont come la! then omg SHE IS SOOOOOO SWEET SHE ACTUALLY CAME ALL THE WAY! despite having an exam a few days later! TOTALLY SWEET MAN! =)) THANK U SO MUCHH NAVAAAAAAAA! i was damn shocked la! and the cake was super personalised! it had a pic of my face and it was laminated! =)) awww! so niceeee of u navaaa! and it was even more personalised because it was spiked! HEHEHE I SWAARE! nava proly poured beer or something inside...hehehe i dont noe but the cake was awesome yayyyyyyyyy! =)) SANDHYA! credits go to uuuu for calling nava omggggg! =)) THANK U BABYYYYYY! =)) and jerk sandhya and nava! the nite before u all in the conference call were like nava u coming? then nava was like nooo man i got exam so blabla cannot...JERKS! HEHEHE WAT A SCHEME! HEHHEHE BUT THANK U SANDHYYAAAAAA! AND THANK U NAVAAAAAA! =)) nava was really a pleasant surprise! and it made my day even moreeeeeeeee! =)) THANK U SO MUCH FOR THE CAKE AND GIFTS BABY! u coming itself was such a big thing for me! =)) hehehhehe! then there was lots of cake feeding session and cake smearing on my face as usual! and yayyy! my first bday songgg! like ppl singing live for this yearrr yayyyyyyy! happy birthdayyyy! =)) hheheheh then following that i was shocked becasue the raj resatuarant also played a bday song for me! like this year all the restaurants r playing songs for me so i was like yayyyyyyyyyy! HEHEHEHE! THANK U RAJ! i couldnt hear the song fully because the first two lines were like STAB STAB into the heart! HEHHE IT WAS DAMN FUNNY! went something like...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U! I HAVE MORE FRIENDS THAN U! HEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEH! so funny! =P then came SRANJ! HEHEHEHEEH! SRANJ WAS PRO! because she was creating awareness by wearing red sine it was world aids day...I SALUTE U SRANJ! HEHEHEHHE! and thank u so much for coming sranjjjnessssssssssssssssssss! =)) i really thought u might not come becuase got nobody u NOE NOE there...but u still came! and that is so sweet of u man! WHY IS THE WHOLE WORLD SO SWEET! =)) THANK U SWEETIE PIE SRANJ! =)) *HUGSSSS* U MADE MY DAY TOO! hehehee we all noticed sranj and nikhil having this bond because the two of them had escaped to this world of their own and they were just talking and talking and eating HEHEHE it was soo funny! sranj ahhh! WINK WINK! =P PINNITA! HEHEHEHEHE! but nikhil is nice and fun to talk to la! he is a gentleman! HEHEHEHEHEHEE! =)) then we just ate and took pics and headed towards the cinema theatre to watch vaaranam aayiram yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! and oo i must mention! abhinay was feeling so tired the whole day becuase he just had an exam in the morning and he hadnt slept the nite before...but he still came all the way instead of slping...*HUGS ABHINAY* appreciate it! =) thank u soo much mr sweetie pie! hehehe next time we can have a slping party also! everybody just comes and slps hehehhe! ok bakwas! yes so we headed for vaaranam aayiram and nikhil and sai had to leave because they had something to do! but THANK U BOTH FOR COMING even though u all had work to do! =)) APPRECIATE IT AGAIN! HHEHHE! thank u sai i noe u wanted to stay longer but it is ok...because u wouldnt have liked the movie anyway hee hee...so paravalaaaaa! DONT WORRY! we missed ur presence though! hehehe but it is ok paa! thank u for coming for the lunchhh! =)) and sranj came all the way to yishun to see us off and had to leave before the movie for her class outing! DAMN NICE LA SHE! come all the way to yishun then went back all the way to jurong or somewhere far away...SRANJNESS! why r u sooooo sweet and cool! hehhehhehe! I LOWE U MAN! =)) we missed u in the movie toooooo! but paravala...because it was a bleargh movie anyway hehehe... =P but u still watched it! HEHEHEHEHE!

so me sandhya nava dharshini renuka nithya abhinay and my whole family hehehe was at the theatre watching varanam aayiram! i tink i really thought it would be a good movie because there was so much of build ups for it and so much of HU HA! but sadlyy...i didnt find it nice la...as in...i knew wat the director was trying to do but it didnt come out well...too many characters or something...if it was a dad-son story might as well focus on that...but the dad didnt even do anything other than say ok son go beat the guy up...ok son we have no money but u can go america to woo the girl...blabla...sighhh...he didnt create an impact at all...so when he died like nobody got emotions...but sameera reddy so pretty and chioo! =)) i really liekd her...and she came for a while and went away so i was damn sad...in fact surya acted damn well in that scene where he cried and the scenes after that...so i was tearing a bit hee hee...damn sad la...didnt like the divya spandana though...and i dont noe why he randomly married her also...clearly he didnt lowe her...but he anyhow get 6 pack and married her...hee hee but he damn hot la...and simrans age was starting to show alr...like she looked married and old...but ok la her body still not bad...hee hee...but overall the songs were damn nice and all...surya dances damn well la! =)) i lowe yethi yethi nauw! and adiye kolluthey! didnt noe sruthy haasan sang it till nava told me! i like her voice! damn unique! =)) and the movie was supposed to be 90s rite...so we were just watching wat all they did to make the movie seem 90-ish...like the songs had michael jackson steps and all hehehe...oo but sighh...which dad in the 90s is like that la...unbelievable...and the dad-son relationship was so westernised...like son says DADDY and nothing more than that...and they communicate like thru the eyes or somehting...and dad says KIDDO and nothing more...like they speak so little...was weird la...i felt it could have been better...but i still like the songs yayyyyyy! =)) and my whole family lowes sameera reddy ehehehehe...find her damn pretty or something...oo noo wat if they get my bro married to her? HEE HEE! ok sadness... =P anyway it was fun watching the movie with the entire bunch so i was like yayyyyyyyyyyyy! it is my first movie with sandhya and abhinay and nithya and all! hehehe but sandhya was so far away! AAA! hehehe oo and abhinay u r seriously so sweet to have come for the movie without noeing tamil...he came and didnt understand much but still came! and slept for a while but nava kept stuffing fries thru his mouth so he couldnt slp HEE HEE! but i am sure u enjoyed sameera reddys presence and the hindi parts in the movie abhinay! HEHEHEHE! =P thank u so much for coming abhinay! =)) and YAYYY IT WAS FUNNNNNN! =)) THANK U ALL FOR COMING FOR THE MOVIE! =)) we should have more movie outings! =)

yesss so we came out and were so like WAT THE HELL WAS THAT MOVIE ABT kind of mood so we decided to take more pics! YAYYYY! hehehehehhehe! and my parents were there ready to go so i had to leave shortly...but THE DAY WAS AWESOME MANNNNNNNNNNN! =)) i felt like i was surrounded by the sweetest ppl on earth! because ppl came when they could have chosen not to! like dharshini renuka and nikhil! and ppl came even when they were busy with omg EXAMS...like NAVA! and ppl came even when they were tired and didnt noe tamil...LIKE ABHINAY! and ppl came even when they had to leave halfway...LIKE SAI! =)) ME IS TRULY BLESSED TO HAVE SUCH SWEET FRIENDS! =)) and the one person who i am MOST MOST thankful to...and the one person without whom i wouldnt have been SOOOO VERY HAPPYYY...and the one person who is the reason behind the wholeee thing...IS SANDHYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! =)) *HUGS HUGS HUGS* THANK U SOOO MUCHHH SANDHYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! for organising the whole thing! i noe u were tryin to even do it during the exam week and recess week and all! and i seriously knew that some ppl will come but i didnt noe SO MANY would come! it was like some huge gang of us! =)) THANK U SO MUCH KUTTY! =)) i noe u were even inviting a lot more ppl but this is like omg alr mannnnn! =)) i lowe u so much mannnnn! i tink it was a lot of trouble organising and passing information to everyone and finalising all that...esp since it was exams...and u even had an exam after that day! but still u went thru so much to make me happy...and i was soo happy darling... =)) u really didnt have to go thru so muchh...I CANT EXPLAIN HOW THANKFUL AND HAPPY I AM DEYY! to have met u and been ur frienddddddddddddd! =)) *MUACKS SANDHYA!* THANK UUU SO MUCH TO UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! AND TO ALL OF U! =)) i noe sai and abhinay were like part of the organising too! SANDHYA SOOOOOO CUTE! u were even organising it with me DAMN CUTEEEEEEEEEE! HEHEHEHEHEHE! and i was sooo excited abt the whole thing becasue i really wanted to meet and talk to all of u like after all the exams and not talking to each other during exams... =)) EXCITEMENT FULFILLED HEHEH! yes it is actually damn fun to organise my own surprise party and then seeing ppl who i didnt expect to come then it becomes a REAL surprise party! =)) THANK U BABYYYYYYYY! i really had a memorable bdayyyyy...one that i will rmb forever and ever! =)) NANRI NANRI SHUKRIYA DHANIWAD HIMAVAD THANK U TO ALL OF U FRIENDSSSSSSSSSSSSS! =)) hope u all had a fun time getting together after the exams tooo! =)) yayyyyyyyy! =)) and with thatttt i went homeee and was too happy to slppp! so took more picsss! of the giffts and roses and all! =)) and then got another surprise! HHEHEH! my bro actually bought me a bag...and it was on my table hee hee...i thought he hated me...aiya i tink he doesnt like me...but somehow he buys me something for my bday...WEIRD RITE! BUT YAYYYY! =)) i like the bag hehehehheheh! =)) but more than the physical gifts...all ur friendship and lowe are the most treasured and important gifts and i am soooooo happy i have them for this bday! =)) A BIG HUG AND KISS TO ALL OF UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! =)) THANK U EVERYBODYYYYYYY! =)) i definitely owe u all a treat! so when u see me attack me and like ask me for one! HEHEHEH! =)) I LOVE U ALL FRIENDS! =)

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

happy birthday to meeeeeeeeeeeeee...part one...

2008-12-06T18:07:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...HEHEHEHEH YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! it was my 19th birthday on dec 1st! =)) just like last monday! YAYYYY! and for the first time i had two celebrationss! =))

firstly on nov 30 met up with sabby wenhao mervin miki and mathew omg hadnt seen them in months i was like OMG alr! then we went to marina square pizza hut and POOF sab the bee and wenhao came late but WOW! really didnt expect them to turn up with a HUMONGONOUS BALLOON and a bouquet of teddybears for my bdayyy! as in i thought it was a normal class lunch kind of thing...then when they gave it to me i was like OMG THANK U PPL! thank u mervin sab and wen! =)) i love the bouquet of teddybears! so sweeeet! hee hee then after a while sabby brought me to the toilet and actually went into the cubicle to plan for pizza hut to play the bday song when we returned...which i was unaware of till we came back and started taking pics and suddenly poof the lights were out and there was a bday song YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY! HEHEHEHEHHE! i never knew pizza hut does it! then the waiters came with a cake and candle and a heart made of chocolate sauce poured on the cake awwwwww...sabby had bought the cakes earlier! omggg la really didnt tink they will all do this! thank u thank u friends! then after that we finished eating took a few pics and everyone had to leave so it was kind of short and sad but still! i was happy we met after such a freaking long time! didnt properly talk to both sabby and wenhao though...talked a bit with mervin because me and him were early and the rest were alll late mannnn! and we realised how everyone is now in their own paths...like everyone has a different life now and as a clas we have nothing in common anymore...sad reality of life...and it feels so weird like...reunions also mean to catch up on each others lives but wat if other ppl r not interested...sigh...but generally the jc memories would keep us going i guess YAYY! lots of memories to fall back on even though we might all be going our separate ways now! hee hee but yayyy! felt good to meet up with at least some of them before my bday yayyyyy! =)) thank u ppl! we will have a bigger and proper class outing for christmassss! need to catch up with everyone mannn! those who r gone overseas r like GONE! havent talked to them at all...like properly... =S i hope christmas outing is a success yayyyy! HURRY COME BACK PPL WHO R OVERSEAS! WE ALL MISS U A LOT! =)) hehehehhehe ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

personality widget...

2008-12-06T16:02:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...i couldnt slp from yday at all...TOO HAPPY! and nauw i am quite sad that the usual ppl r not here and i am just at home and going temples hee hee...today is guru peyarchi! so must go pray pray yayyyyyyyyy! =)) miss abhinay and sai so muchhhhhhhhh! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! anyway HEE HEE I SAW THIS ON SRANJS BLOG and decided to do it! these personaliy tests r all sometimes fun hee hee...

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...why do all the surveys say i like the romantic blabla thingy! HEHEHEHEHEHEH! it is true but i wouldnt even have said anytihng abt romance to the surveyors then they keep saying romantic romantic! but yes yayyyy! i like these surveys! sometimes they make u feel happy...like omg i am like that? YAY! HEHEHEH! =P anyway i have lots and lots of pics to post on fb! so i shall do that nauw! hee hee...ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

the 5th of december...

2008-12-06T00:17:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...i sware i wanted to blog abt my birthday celebrations before this post but today i am too happyyyyyyyy! i am like smiling to myself like an idiot and keep hugging sandhya heheheheheheh! I SWARE I AM SOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY! =))) CONGRATS! =)) ok i cant really tell u the MATTER...but seriously i am damn happy at the moment! am like jumping around alr...actually today was supposed to be a sad day because everyone was leaving...i mean we went to pgpr to see ppl packing and shifting things from their rooms and to empty their whole room out and then me and sandhya and sai and abhinay took a cab to the airport to farewell abhinay and sai! it was really sad...like cant believe they r gone alr...5 weeks omg...and so weird i came back and didnt find abhinay online...and sai...sigh...wont see his calls or smses for the next 5 weeks...seriously bad timing man...i mean sandhya just ended exams today and nauw all of them r gone...i wish they were here for at least a few more days! havent even played table tennis or foosball with sai and abhinay and sandhya! sadness! and sai is moving out of raffles hall soooooo he will be goneeeeeeeeeeee! no mroe raffles hall! today i went to his room for the last time and it was filled with memories of cs and programming labs omg! every fri nite we were there omg...=S SCAARY! but yes...i will miss it... =( and i am alr missing abhinay and sai...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa hurry come back! but beyond all the sadness and nostalgia and missingness i am actually very happy for a very special secret reason...which i shall not reveal...but YAYYYYY I AM SMILING SOO MUCH NAUW I DONT TINK I CAN SLP! =)) FINALLY HE SAW THE LIGHT! =)) YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! AWESOME MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN! =)) I LOVE TODAY! and i will never forget it! =)) hope this happiness continues for some ppl for a long long long long long long time to comeeeeeeee! HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! and bon voyage to everyone! pls pls stay in touch when u all go overseas! like at least come online or fb or tag on my blog once in a while ok! it is so sad when everyone leaves suddenly...feels so weird...like uh they r gone? =S sooo pls come onlineeeeeeeee! THANK UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! =)) and i lowe all of uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! =)) FEEL THE LOWE IN THE AAAIR I SWAAAAAAAARE! i tink i will be going out with sandhya and nava and sranj and shafali and nandita everyday in the hols! HEHEHEHEHEHEH! WE WILL DO THAT! GIRLS OUT EVERYDAY! =)) YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! PANNIDALAM! =)) GOD BLESS U PPL! so i shall go slp now heheheh! but before that! POETRY FROM ME! =)) SINCE I AM LIKE FEEL THE LOWE IN THE AIR! HEHEHEHHE! check it outtttttt!

and when he hugged me and whispered...'i will miss u' into my ears...i swear i didnt want to let go...of both him and my tears... =( awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

finals r overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

2008-12-02T22:48:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY EXAMS R OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY NAUWWWWWWWWWW! FINALLY! after all the last minute studying...i seriously screwed up everything...like all the exams were bloody hard la! go in and stone at the paper while everyone around u is profusely riting away and u seriously feel OWNED...that is serious OWNAGE MAN! damn sad la...but watever...as long as it ended... =S i am like trying not to tink abt results at all! it was so bad...was really really bad...mle was like OMG...cs 50 marks for one qn i just died! and eg omg wat the hell! EG WAS LIKE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ENNALA MUDIYALA! and pc =S didnt noe so many...maths didnt even read last two qns...no time! totally gone to the power of infinity! everyday i felt so owned la...and was like kind of giving up alr...because no time to study at all...should have been consistent from the start...that one week wasnt enuf at all...i was hyperventilating alr... =S but u noe wat...some ppl around me r seriously so sweeeeeeeeeeeet...without them i would have been really gone...but everytime i felt miserable there was SOMEONE saying GOGOGO! and guess who it wassssssssss! ABHINAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! MERA PYARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! =)) heheheheheheheheh he was seriously soooooo sweet mannnnnnnnnnn! with all those long chats...phonecalls...smses...omg...cant express how sweet he is...REALLY! when u feel like shit he makes u feel like u r worth living... =)) i like him a lot! and he was a total sweetheart and a pillar of strength and support and i must thank u a lot mera pyar! =)) without u i would have felt really shitish... =) thank u! and there were lots of other sweethearts around me toooooooooooo! and without those ppl i would be panicking and hyperventilating after every exammmmmmmm! and these ppl r SANDHYA MERA PYARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! AND SRANJ MERA PYARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! AND SAI MERA PYARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! =)) sandhya seriously good at calming me down man...i was like SHIT HAVENT STUDY HAVENT STUDY! and she will be like no man u still can do this this this and like plan out everything for meeeeeeeee! =)) SOOOO SWEET MANNNNNN! she even called me to calm me down and encourage me and tell me I CAN DO IT! =)) awwwwwwwwwwwww...and sai and sranj! those sweeeeeeet words and smses of loweeeeeee! i love u all mann! really...u all r like perfect perfect friends mannn! =)) seriously when u need help and when u find the ppl around u being soooo sweet u really feel so touched mannn...and i was feeling like that wheneever sranj or sai smsed or sandhya called or abhinay said anything at all! =)) ALL OF THEM! SERIOUS SWEETHEARTS! =)) and of course there was shafali nandita nava and ganga wishing me and supporting me spiritually and thru skype all alonggggggggggggggg! and i really appreciate thattttttttt ppllllll! i can feel the loweee even when u all r sooo far awayyyyyyyyyyy! THANK U THANK U! CHUMMA! =)) and here is a BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG HUGGGGGGG FROM ME TO ALL OF UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

THANK U FOR ALL UR LOWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! U ALL REALLY MEAN A LOT TO MEEEEEEE! =)) THANK U PPL THANK U! =))

and nauwwwwwwwww we can so partyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy and enjoyyy! but damn sad ppl r leaving so fast! like mostly on the 5th...then damn sad...sandhya only ends on the 4th her exam...so damn sad la...but we shall make the most out of wat we have ok! =)) and i got lots more to blog abt my bday celebrations and all! but will do that in the upcoming entries! nauw i should slppppp! gd niteee! =)) and thank u friendsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss! MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS! =)) ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

oo wells...

2008-11-09T18:58:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...OMG SAIKUMAR IS ON FB! wat a shock! the guy who said he will never ever ever join fb is on fb! WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! well done sai! it is ur first step towards making urself a social butterfly! =)) anyway life is being a piece of nonsense because my exams r in two weeks! and i am so lost...and wait my cs practical is like in three days wat the hell! dont even noe wat to do to prepare...the practical is 45 min...compared to previous years where it was 1 hr 45 min! check out the difference man! and i usually take like erm 4 days to do programming...so 4 days veruss 45 min...large gap rite! =S BLEARGH! that is like cant even imagine wat i will do... =S

anyway on a side note...i realise that uni is weird...because the ppl u meet r ppl who alr have a past behind them...a group of friends before u...a whole series of events happening in their lives for the past 19 years that u noe nothing abt...and a personality that had been created due to the many events that had happened in their life that u have no clue about and thus cannot make judgements abt...so all u r trying to do is to fit into their lives with the many many assumptions u make after looking at them and being with them for a few days...compared to the friends who have been with them for the past many many years at least...which is why it is difficult to MAKE BEST FRIENDS or like create new relationships in uni...because u noe nothing abt a person and unless both of u r willing to open up and share ur whole past with each other...nobody really cares abt u...which is weird...compared to the situation i was in like a few years ago...when we were all in sec sch...then we didnt really have any life before that so it was super easy and good to start from scratch and make really good friends...i still rmb that my sec sch principle mrs deborah tan said that...even though we will meet many ppl in our lives...our best friends will always be the ones we meet in sec sch... =)) which is very true! those r the ppl who u can really really trust and who u noe will never give u up or give up on u under any circumstance...and those r the ppl who can make u cry at the very instant of tinkng abt them and about how much fun u used to have with them just a few years ago...those r the ppl who u dont have to spend effort to tink abt them because they r constantly on ur mind every second...somehow even though i am far away from my best friends from sec sch like nava and shafali...the bond still exists...when we meet...when we talk...even if it is for a really short while...there is always that spark and that chemistry that we noe will never die off...even if we r talking abt the most crappiest things on earth...or when we r talking abt new things and new ppl in each of our lives...we r genuinely interested and concerned abt each other...something that i proly cannot hope for in uni because the ppl in uni have their own friends and lovers to be concerned abt and be interested in...not to say that they r not interested or dont like u or wat...but just that u noe that deep deep bond isnt there yet...and of course it wont be there because it has just been 2 months while ppl i noe from sec sch r like friends with me for 5 years...large difference...but still...there is seriously something different about ppl in uni la...like nobody is emotionally attached to each other...and everyone is just HAI BYE kind...which is really sad...at the moment i proly only have VERY VERY FEW PPL with whom i can imagine a long lasting friendship with...the rest seem to be close at one period and not close during another period...and some r just not emotionally attached to u even though u see them almost every day...like sometimes u tink that some ppl r really really nice and sweet...but after a few days u realise that they dont really care abt u...and that they r generally like that...like they dont care abt anyone at all...and then u tink abt whether u can even imagine a deep friendship with them and then u decide that it will never happen...because they r just not concerned...and it is not the big things that show u that they r not concerned...it is the little things...ultimately the little things r the things that really show wat kind of person u r...the little words u say...the way u react to something when something happens to u...the kind of things u do IN THAT PARTICULAR SITUATION...those r the things that really show whether u r concerned abt the other party or not...and these things might just be a little gd nite sms...a little how r u...or a nice little hug when u see each other...

but in uni...u cannot expect these things from many ppl at all...i mean i dont go around expecting everyone i noe to be concerned abt me...but when ppl do things that show they care then it really feels good becuase there is hope for a brand new friendship that is really nice and soothing...but when some things happen that show that the other person is totally not sweet totally not bothered and totally not wat u thought of them to be...then i end up getting hurt...at least not very extremely hurt as for now because i am not THAT close to many ppl yet...but still...it hurts to tink that some ppl who i am genuinely concerned abt will never get to form the deep kind of bonds with me that ppl like nava and shafali have...and it is even more painful when u realise that u can never express these feelings that u have to the ppl u r concerned abt...becasue it will never work...i mean...forcing a friendship or a relationship is not the way man...it must come from within...and it must be natural...like if u dont care abt me it is not ur fault at all...because that is wat u r...and this is wat i am...isnt that wat chemistry is all abt? finding the ppl who would tink and react in the same way as u would...and i see the probability of finding such ppl in uni is very small...esp since it is so big and generally u dont talk to ppl after u go home because there is so much work or becuase there is no natural "want" to communicate with the other person when u r not looking at them...isnt that sad... =S or is all this happening just becuase of the amazing workload in uni? =S i dont tink so mannnnnnn...i mean if someone really wants to be ur friend they would do little things that show that they care for u even if they r stressed or sad or busy...like shafali...she is seriously like omg man...even when she had so many hardships she would sit down and be there for u and talk to u even when she hasnt finished studying for alevels and all...i really love her man...but oo wells...i cant hope for everyone in the world to be a shafali because she is a rare gem...and i am really happy that i at least have her as a friend...and now even when things r different between her and me...she is still my best friend! and i noe she genuinely loves me =)) even though i am being a piece of shit and havent called her at all thank u to the many many reasons...but even then she will be like 'it is ok i will call u...' and all that...i mean...this is wat i proly mean by the LITTLE THINGS that set ppl apart...and sometimes i feel like i am surrounded by really evil ppl who totally discourage u and blatantly show that they r using u...something i havent been exposed to (SHIT WHY THE HECK AM I CRYING) in the past...i mean in the past there have been ppl who have made fun of me and have totally hated me and all...but then it was ok because i knew that everyone was being immature and pathetic...but now it is like...u r supposed to be almost an adult and ur personality is something that is more or less defined alr...as in U NOW r who u most proly R and will be for a long period of time...unless something happens that can totally change u...but generally most ppl would have found their identity by now...and if this is wat they r...unconcerned...and evil and discouraging and immature...then they really cannot make it...i have ppl all around me asking me 'why r u in engineering?' 'u r not going to ever be able to do programming...' 'why do u come for tuts when u anyway wont understand anything?' 'u actually failed ur exam?' and that sort of qns EVERYDAY...thank u to the person who i have to be stuck with for the next four years...that bugger is going to piss me off everyday...and talkin to him really gives me a headache...i tink sai would noe who i am talking abt...i mean he is of my least concern...but still...sometimes when u urself r really down that u cant do programming or that everything is so tough...u would really want to hear more positive and encouraging words and not SHIT DISCOURAGEMENT like that...really shows how evil and miserable some ppl can be...and the best thing to do is to not even talk to them...totally suck...imagine me last year during a levels...surrounded by all the ppl who knew i wasnt smart at all but still encouraged me...i mean they believed in me even when i didnt believe in myself...isnt that wat friendship is supposed to be all abt? but anyway those ppl who r super discouraging...i dont really care abt them la...i mean...i wouldnt even want to tink abt or be friends with ppl who r not nice at all...so screw them...but those who seem to be on and off nice make me sad also...like i cant raelly decide whether the friendship will go on or not...and u cant FULLY trust them because u dont noe where they have put u in their hearts...like u might not even be in their hearts at all in the first place...and more often than not...u feel used...and u also feel like u r using them...because u only talk to them once in a while and u r not emotionally attached to those ppl also...in a way they might be feeling the same way abt me too...but then again...those r most proly the ppl who u meet very little and who u dont communicate with everyday...i tink i am actually sad because ppl who i TINK i am close to r not close to me...or at least...not genuinely concerned...and u thought they were really sweet ppl until they did something really tiny that ultimately showed that u werent very important to them...and then u realise that u cant hope for a deep frienship with them...though weirdly i am going to be spending the longest period with them compared to the number of years i spent in the same class as nava and shafali... =S wat to do...and even at the start i had some hope because it was just the time when we were getting to noe ppl and everytime we saw someone new they would intro intro themselves and yay got new person i noe! but now nobody is introing themselves anymore...i mean cliques have formed and ppl have more or less started to just stick to their own cliques...so they wouldnt give a damn if they dont even noe u exist... =S sadness...oo wells...

i shouldnt be tinking abt all this when exams r two weeks away rite! shit man i always tink of the weirdest things when exams come...i tink i am tinking too much la...though when u tink abt all this u would realise that there is some truth in wat i am saying...sometimes it is better not to have a social life at all...saves u all the disappointment and tinking abt ppl...might as well just stick to ur best friends and not open up...oo wells...shall see wat other things happen in the coming years and months...hopefully they r not too shocking or sadness-inducing like now...will i ever get to meet another nava or another shafali? =S i tink the answer is obvious...ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

i hate cs laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaab...

2008-11-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...shit mannn i really raeallly HATE HATE CS LAB! that programming crap...wat the hell mannnn...really takes away all my time and life away from meee...like from tue nite to fri nite...i just stare at it and dont progress at all...and it will be so hard that every week i am dependent on someone to finish it up for me...like sai or madan or sandhya or remya...and i am really thankful i have them at least...at least u noe somebody helps...and mostly it is sai la...he is like super sweet to help us! but i feel so pathetic (PAE-thetic) for asking him programming crap EVERY WEEK...like i am bad to keep asking him rite...but he is super nice and sweet to help la...and me and sandhya were like oo wat will happen if there was no sai? then we didnt even have an answer! without sai we r GONE! GAAN! soooo i would describe sai as the music i listen to during a difficult journey! =) but aaa i hate myself man...why cant i do itttt... =(( depressing mannnn...so much for just 10 percent...ppl either assume we have great brains to do such extremeeellyyy hard programs...or that we r so jobless that we can stare at it all week...it is only becuase of this stupid programming crap that i AM SOOOOOOOO LAGGED BEHIND...like in all my subjects incluidng cs...i am like 4 tuts behind...and 4 or 5 lecs behind...wat the hell..i really dont noe how ppl manage to keep up with lecs...finish up their tuts...clear doubts every now and then...do programming...do mastering physics...and still slp! i tink those ppl hardly slp man...nowadays i realise that ppl all arnd me actually slp at 4 am 5 am or 6 am! WAT THE HELL! in sec sch it was like 12 am...then jc it became 2 am...now it is 4 am to 6 am! gone mannn... =S i can never do that...i need to slp! if not the next day i will be floating...but seriously...with programming coming every week rite...i see that it is impossible to do anything else at all...unless i give up on lab...which i am alr giving up on...esp the practical exam...it is gaaaaaaan...45 minutes! just nice for me to go in and do my header and come out! or maybe i will have time to read the qn la...wat the hell...even the damn pro ppl r like oo i am not going to be able to finish in 45 min...like esusme i take abt 3 days to do it...wat can i do in 45 min! =(( and my finalssssssssss...r GONE MANNNNNNNN! I AM DEADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD! being sooo laggeddddddd and not understanding anything at alll! super lost...i need to do so much to catch up...in 20 days must study 5 subjects...4 days for one subject...ERM? OMG? =S should i just give up? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...drowninggg...i need motivation mannnnnnn! i need a shafali or a nandeeta or a navanitaaaaa to say 'U CAN DO IT!' aaa somebody help! =S life is miserable isnt it? oo wells i am really going to slp now...eyes closing alr...gd nite ppl! =) ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

happy deepavaliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...

2008-10-28T22:39:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY! YDAY WAS DEEPAVALIIIIIIIIIIIII! THE MUCH AWAITED FESTIVALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! HAPPY DEEPAVALIIII TO ALL OF UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! =)) HOPE U HAD A GREAT TIME YDAY! actually it didnt feel like deepavali till like on sat my mum started making murukku and all! then on sat actually me and sandhya went to sch to do PROGRAMMING tuts...but AHEM AHEM! ended up we decided to wath eagle eye! and abhinay joined us toooo! =)) but then eagle eye was too boring and sandhya and abhinay were too tired so they decided to nap nap for a while...while me and sai realised we had mastering phy to dooo! i forgot all abt that mannnnn! then we finished it like in the dark and yayyyyyyyy! =)) happy happy! after that we had planned to go to pgpr for the diwali celbrations so we were damn excited and thrilled! but that stupid sai refused to come because of many many reasons... =( then damn sad la...me sandhay and sruthy ended up going there and yayyyy! it was sooo funnn! the dance was sooo awesome and showed how much fun the ppl styaing in hostels will actually have! damn nice laaaa! i lowe manmitas dance! she got awesome style and energy i tell u! =)) and kalyani was so cuteee! hehehehe! saw a lot of ppl there actually! and just started spamming pics with lots of ppls cameras! sometimes just takig photos and feelig the celebration mood in the air though there might be nothing actually happening in the performance is good mann! feels so woo hoooooo and makes me high! hehehehe the rock music was ununderstandadable because i dont like rock...hehehe and we couldnt even hear each other when we were talking but DIL SE REYYYYYYYYYY WAS GOOD MANNNNN! we all went up to the band and actually started dancing and singing! then saw a damn handsome senior called ranvir...hee hee damn hot and handsome but screw it...hee hee...not my type so watever --- HEHEHEHE! i sound like a bimbo rite! HEHEHEHE! anwyay we actually took pics with that ranvir without even noeing him! then stayed for a while more until my parents came then i had to leave! but sad man! i missed the finale where everyone could dance and play with firecrackersss aaaaa! sometimes everytime i plan for a dance it never happens! or i miss it all the time! but oo wells went home feeling high that i couldnt even slp for quite some time! next day sunday just sat at home and rotted ok didnt even touch work! the past three days have just been celebration mood woo hoooooooooooooooooooo! and so i am lagged to the power of infinity! HEHEHEHE!

anyway yday which was deepavali day...YAYYYY we all woke up prayed brayed wore new clothes went to two templesss! =)) YAYYY! it was like yayy yayy it is deepavaliii! =)) and my dad had as usual put mehendi on my hand hee hee...he does it every year...and like it ends up to be not so pro...but then the design doesnt matter man...the fact that he is actually doing it is the most imp thing hee hee... =)) yayy! u noe when i was young he used to put it for me when i was slping! hee hee so nice rite... =)) anywayy it finally felt a lot like deepavali when i had mehendi o my hand and when we wore new clothes and all...and then i felt really bad for ppl staying in the hostel because they would be missing their home and parents so much! =(( aaaaaaaaaaaa...it is ok ppl! time will fly and u all can return home soooon and celbrate orediya for everythign! =)) DONT WORRY! and so after temple visiting i came home and had lunch and went to sandhyas houseeeeee! WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! IT WAS SO FUN MANNNN! i lowe her house! so homely! and her family is jsut so sweet and awesome...felt like it was a perfect small little sweet family! like the dad is damn cute and nice and sweet...and her mum is soo nice too! and her siss! aaa i lowe her mann! super cuteee and funnyyyy and prettyyyyy! =)) nice family! and we just sat and played charades and anthakshari and watched bits of chandramukhi! RAA RAAAAAA! it was really fun mann! just kept laughing so muchhh! and the food was awesome toooo! woww sandhya and her sis really worked so much for us...like cleaned up the house and helped with cooking and all! aaa i felt so miserable becuase i dont do any of that in my house oops...mayeb i should start rite! =S hehe but yes man the food was great! liked the sweet thing a lot though i dont noe wat it is called! and then we went down and cracked firecrackers and bombs and party poppers at the badminton court and took stupid vidoes of us dancing acting...pole dancing...saving the drowning nithya and wat not! WE WERE CRAZY MANNN! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE! when u watch the videos u will noe how gone case we were! but it was all so nice! becuse usually my diwalis r spent at home watching tv and all...but this time was with friends YAYYY! =)) thank u sandhya for everythinggggggggggggggg! i lowed yday a lotttttttt! and when we went back home we all felt that we should have another one like this man! it would be awesommeeeeeee! really fun fun fun fun! YAYY! i lowe u sandhya! thank uuu! =)) and our day was made!

today hehehee felt like no mood to do work kind...still in celebration mode...must come out of it and realise that exams r coming up in less than a month! !#)*@)_!$@&_!_(@_)!(@_)@#_@)_+!)@+_!@+)! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! AND I AM SOOOOOO LOSTTTTT! SHIT SHIT SHIT! =(( oo wells shall not tink abt it for now...shit it is wednesday! the return of programming aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

nevermind...do u noe wat! bhagyarajs son is actually damn handsome like wat nava says...omg...isnt that like damn surprising...hee hee i need to see more of him...then maybe i will like him too! HEHEHEHEE! SHANTHANOO IS HIS NAME! HEHHEHE OMG THAT REMINDS ME OF SANDHYAS POEM! HAVE I TOLD U! u noe that day on her bday rite...i told her i am sick and went home la...as in it was a lie...so that i could surprise her later...but she believed i wasnt feeling well and she rote me an sms poem! IT WAS DAMN FUNNY AHHHHHHHH! HEHEHEHE CHECK IT OUT!

fret not u little sot,
for it is not ur fault,
if anyone is to take the blame,
it is a guy with a girly name,
but let me give thou a clue,
he wears a cap in blue!

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE DAMN FUNNY RITEEEE! I LOWE THIS POEM MANN! HEHEHEHEEHE! she was simple referring to kiran! athukuthaan intha over build ups! HEHEHEHE guess wat i am over kiran alr man...after i realised that my darling friends have told him i like him...hee hee i am goign to hide my face when i see him alr...u noe it alwyas happens...when the guy u like noes that u like him then...like the embarrassment kind of overrides the lowe for him since it is chumma one small little crush for him...so hee hee SAYONARA KIRAN! =P HEHEHE anyway i am going to slp nauw! soooo once againnn HAPPY DEEPAVALI EVERYONE! =)) have fun and smileeeeeee! and let there be light! pics will be up on fb soon! =)

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

happy birthday sandhyaaaaaaaaaaaa...

2008-10-21T17:01:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...yday was sandhya babys bdayyyyyyyyyyyyy! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UUUUUUUUUUU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SANDHYA KUTTYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! HEHEHEHEHEEHHEHE! i lowe u baby! anyway we went to pgpr to have a surprise party for her! and it was really fun! we smeared cakes on each other and poured buckets of water on her and took loads of picsssssssssssssssssssssss! at the end we had some little little dances too! though we didnt dance much then quite sad...but damn fun overall mannnnnnnnnn! HEHEHEHEHEE she is so cute! u noe she started cutting the cake before we started singing the song...and she blew the candles just when we started singing the songggggg! HHEHEHEE! and omg man we made so much fun of her and isurujith and abhinay aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! the three of them proly felt so baddddddd! OR DID THEY! HEE HEE! =P DAMN FUN LA! i lowe her a lotttttttttt! =)) hope u had fun babe! =)) stay happy and cheerful and smiley and cute and innocent forever and ever! =)) MUACKSSSS! =))

i lowe uuuu! =)) have funn! aaa we r all turning 19 so fast! last year of teenage life! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! HEHEHEHE oo wells time flies like an arrow...fruit flies like a banana doesnt it! =P ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

addicted to fb...

2008-10-19T21:23:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...yday was like soooo embarrasing ok...i didnt even noe kiran uses msn and anyhow had added him looooong ago...and my dp was his face! and suddenly at 2 am yday he was like why is my pic ur dp? REMOVE IT! then i was like OOOOOOO SHITTTTTTT! DAMN EMBARRASING LA! how am i going to face him from now on? i bet he will run away like whenever he even sees me walking 100 m ahead of him...damn sad la... =( i realise uni is like...u r meeting ppl who alr have a past a relationship lots of friendships and lots of other things to take care of...so if u want to be their friend u will be very lost to be suddenly popping into their lives in the middle! and u would noe nothing much abt them at all unless they open up and talk abt themselves also...and i really tink kiran is ALMOST attached...though he keeps saying he is not...and why would he tell me the truth anyway? =S hee hee but the two of them got damn good chemistry! they look so cute and sweet together awwwwww...so i hope things work out between them! =)) and he should tell me if i am being a gong because SCARLY! i say something weird and the gf sees then i will feel so bad... =S oo wells...at the moment i dont even tink he will say heyhey to me...he is going to so avoid me and run away...and i am just going to be =(( aaa...why did it happen!

and i realise i have been wasting so much of time ok...like since last week i have been addicted to fb and it is open almost the whole day...and i keep staring at my com and turning my head to see if kiran has signed in...and check his fb account a million times a day...and see his pics again and again...and have been crashing most of his lecs even those i am not spposed to be in them! =(( andddddd! i have been tinking abt him the whole day...and not even talking to my parents...and just waiting and waiting...and he comes online like after i slp for one minute before goign offline... =( which is damn sad...yday whole day wait for him online until he came only to see his pic as my dp...embarrassment! =( aaa...and omg i have been addicted to kabhi kabhi aditi! it is damn nice...hee hee i plan to sing it to him when i see him! because got the word aditi inside HEE HEE! =P

ok la i shouldnt be wasting my time...but i cant even help it...i am like soooo weird...and my eyes damn pain alr after staring at the com for the past one week...i feel like crap...just want to cry it out... =( he is seriously goign to hate me for life man aaa...life sucks to the core... =(

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

sadness strikes...

2008-10-18T16:50:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...hee hee and so it is decided that my first oficial crush in nus is kiran! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...but sighhh...feels so miserable...i dont even noe why i crush him when like i have rarely proeprly talked to him...and when i see him like for 3 hrs per week...like so weird! =( and after the initial heartbeat increases whenever i see him and the hypervetilation whenever i say HEY or talk like 3 sentences with him...now it is the phase where i get sad HEE HEE! it is trueee! my crush cycle goes like this...i like someone then i get overly hyper and hyperventilate and get excited whenever his name appears and blabla...and after like one week i realise i am being a jerk because i shouldnt be getting so distracted and because IT is never goign to happen...where IT refers to many many things in this case...then wat happens after this is that...i will be sad for two days and then i will get into the i-will-like-u-even-if-u-dont-even-noe-i-exist mood and then i will continue crushing him until i get over the whole thign HEE HEE! check out the graph below for more details... =P

where i am nauw at the dotted circle part! =( this morning woke up tinking abt him and why i am being so childish and ridiculous when i am freakign going to be 19! then i so badly wanted to hug someone and cry! =( but oo wells i noe i am beig a jerk! and it doesnt even make sense to be liking someone who is so near yet so far... =( oo wells! life is miserable nowadays isnt it!

on a side note HEE HEE sandhya has been so funnyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! HEHEHEHEHE!

that day we wanted sai to hear mayiliragey on u tube and he as usual was like NO I AM GOING TO CHECK MY MAIL and he was like SHHHH and offed the song and checked his mail! liek wat the hell can listen and check at the same time rite...then i was like MALE CHAUVANIST PIG la u! then sandhya was like MAIL chavanist pig! HEHEHEHEHHEEHHEHE! SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! SHE DAMN FUNY! and yday we were doing programming and just laughed our heads off like crack pots HEE HEE! becuase there was so much of the variable p inside the programming like litearlly... =P and everytime we read the eqns we would laugh! HEHEHEHEHEHE! DAMN FUNNY LA! I LOWE SANDHYA MAN! =)) she is sooo cuteeeee! if i was a guy i will be like SANDHYA I LOWE U! HEE HEE! on a side side note (nested side note) i am liking thottal poo malarum from new all over again! i lowe it! HEE HEE listen to it ppl! =))

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

i love facebook...

2008-10-12T13:05:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...life is beautiful when u have facebook! =)) seriously man facebook is now officially my matchmaker! HEE HEE! YAYYYYYY! u noe why! because because! i managed to find mishaal on fb the other day YAYYYYY! and then i was so sad that i couldnt find kiran and thought he was too anti social to be on fb! and until yday i was like the titanic 70 year old grandma saying 'i dont even have a pic of him...' BUT NO! YDAY! I FOUND KIRAN ON FBBBBBB YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! thru mishaals acount some moreeeee! check that out mannnn! and he is actually quite active hee hee! and his pics aaaaaaaaaaaaa! i find him damn handsome la! and damn hot becuase he is so tau and doesnt talk...waaaaaaaaaa i am like hyperventilating liao! =)) and i saw two videos of him ice skating waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! DAMN HOT MANNN! and his smile is beautiful! it reminds me of siddharths smileeee! damn handsome la...i like him i like him! hee hee...thank u facebook! for bridging the gap between me and my lower baais! u r my bharat matrimony.com! HEHEHEHEHEHE! and i told that to sranj and she was like...bharat ah? more like srilankan la! and more like international poonimatrimoney.com! HEHHEHEHEHEEHHE SHE DAMN LAME AND PJ JOKE FIED NOWWWWW HEHEHEHE! i couldnt stop laughing mannn! damn funny la u sranj! anywayyyy yesss now my loves r just a click away and i feel so happyyyy! =)) but bleargh facebook is sad also...becuase once u add them as ur friend u would be able to see that they got gf alr also...hee hee! sad rite...i tink kiran might have a gf! =S it always happens! and he might just delete me off facebook after reading my wall post to him that is completely friendly! like wat happened with gokul...that gokul idiot doesnt even say hey to me nowadays...became like my first 'enemy' in that sense... =S sad rite...just for riting a wall post on his wall...gong la he! anyway i shall reveal to u the two most handsome ppl on earth! =)) or at least in nus hee hee...

DRUMROOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL...

CHINGU CHAAAAAAAA! waaaa damn handsomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! =)) hee hee but u noe wat...i realise that guys in uni r all so weird...like in sec sch u crush teachers they tink that u r playing and being imamture so they dont really mind...then u crush ri boys in sec sch they crush u back...hee hee then u crush ppl in jc they take u to be serious and say lets be friends! then in uni the moment they realise some admirer for them exists somewhere they about turn 180 degrees and run away! becuase they get scared that their gf might noe hee hee...all of them r attached in uni man! oo wells...i am the only constant in this world...hee hee =P

boy i am so glad mishaal and kiran dont read my blog hee hee...

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

HEE HEE...

2008-10-09T20:38:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...omgggg ppl who dont talk at all really amuse me...like kiran! i tell u today i saw him enter the lec...and then he sat alone...and just listened to the lecturer...like it might be a normal thing to do...but that boy seriously doesnt even talk to anyone at all okkkkkkkkk! like not a word! since yday i have been trying to talk to him and i tink i have said like 5 lines to him...he will stand there and listen and walk away...or just keep walking...like !!! WAT! how can anyone not talk to anyone at all! and during exams it was just him and his earphones...and he was walking around like that...wow that kind of ppl can teach me how t okeep quiet for 5 min man...but seriously i dont noe how they do it...they dont talk...they dont express...they just keep everything to themselves and become one rock... =S like! UHH! even if u give me a million bucks i cant do that mannnn! =S how do they do it! i have so many qns to ask him...like r u the only kid at home? do u talk to ur parents? r u that sad that u dont talk to anyone? is there anythign that happened that u have stopped talking? is it lowe failure? =S i have so many qns to ask man! and not forgetting the WILL U MARRY ME at the end hee hee...but seriously if he has any problems in life he should come talk to meeeeeeeeeeeee! and i will cheer him up! =)) or at least i will listen to him talk or something...maybe he has no problems...maybe he is like satisfied and doesnt find it necessary to have friends or talk...wow ultimate introvert...i bow to him...how does he do it!

hee hee but i like him! even though he has spoken to me like 30 characters or something only... =S hee hee maybe that is why i like him! because he is so tao doesnt like girls and all...and omg sranj said the funniest thing on earth! she was like 'mmm so now u went from tall thin and handsome to TAU THIN AND HANDSOME!' HEHEHEHEHEEHEHEHEHEHE OMG I DIED LAUGHING LA! hee hee i told u rite...i like gus who dont like girls hee hee...and he looks like he doesnt like ANYTHING...so even better! set ah! and he damn pro la...when u google his name... (see i have done my primary research) u will see statistics on the marks he got and the subjects he topped in giis...PROOOOOOOO! he is like the topper of giis and i am like one bottomer...and he doesnt talk and i keep talking...so technically opposites should attract rite! =P but too young man...like he is one 17 year old boy...cannot cannot...later like get into trouble with parents when it comes to marriage...HEE HEE! wow i am tinking so far...when like he hasnt even uttered a word to me...and i damn sad la! sruthy is damn gd friends with him la! HER CLASSMATE HOW IS THAT! and SHE GOT HIS NUMBERR WAH LAOOOOO! and OMG HE SMSES HERRRRRRRR! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! but apparently it is only abt studies so ok la not so bad...but still! if i get an sms from him i will treasure it! HEE HEE! and omg i have a new aim in life! which is to maintain a convo with him for 5 minutes! HEE HEE! then i will be satisfied! and if i can make him smile i will be on cloud 9999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999! and if i can get his handphone number ah...wow i will treat all the ppl who read my blog to macdonals vanilla cone! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! =))

HEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHE! i tink my motivation in life comes from having one sided crushes on boys...HEE HEE how sad case...wow i tink that for me the happiness that comes from liking guys overrides the sadness that comes from noeing that i will never get them...or anyone even close to them... =( sounds so tragic rite! i tink i am just so used to one sided likings... =S it is ok! as long as i am motivated in life! =)) hee hee ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

the lost pencil...

2008-10-07T19:33:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...i just returned home after losing my lucky pencil... =( and i am damn sad la...that pencil has been with me thru jc and a levels...and like i have been tensioning with it and riting with it for damn long la...like whenever i look at it i tink of alevels and how i used it and all...i had given it to sai for the past 2 weeks and was alr sad that i didnt have it with me thru midterms...and was tinking that i am flunking exams becuase it wasnt with me...though i noe it wouldnt help much...but still...u noe it was like an imaginary support... =( and now it is goneee...and today only i saw it after so long...and it was there at the start of the lec and by the end it was gone...like wat the hell...i was THIS CLOSE to getting it back...stupid la...i always JUST miss things that i love...like damn kaiku etiyathu vaaiku ettavillai...i noe it is damn lame that i am blogging abt a pencil..but there r some things in life that just cannot be replaced rite...and everyone has things that r special to them and those can never be replaced by anything else...and that pencil was the one i used thru a levels and so nothing can replace it...which is why i am crying...i bet ppl around me today thought i was damn weird la...seriously man i can get damn emotionally attached to things and ppl...the last time also i had that very same type of pencil in sec sch and used it till end of sec 4 and lost it...and i was super sad that i lost it also becuase it had been with me thru so many things...and then i bought the same type of pencil again for jc so that i can be reminded of my sec sch pencil...and now it is gone tooooooo...i am damn fated la... =( sigh i hate it when i lose things that r special and close to me...I HATE IT...

and then the only thing i say to console myself is...watever is meant to be will be... =(

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

i want shafali backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk...

2008-10-06T19:00:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...seems like the distance is getting really sad now...with shafali overseas i am like damn sad la...in fact in the start i actually internalised the fact that she was gone that i didnt even talk on the phone with anybody...like nobody called me or my house...then one big void was there la...then i realise even if i talk i forgot how to maintain a convo alr...i sound really sian and weird on the phone nowadays! i can feel it! like last time i used to sound a lot more hyper and happier...now it is like forgot how to talk long long hours on the phone...and i am such a pig ok i didnt even call shafali since she left and she has called me three times alr! that day for the first time she called me at like 12 midnite and i was really like wondering who it would be becuase it had been so long since i got a call at that hour! =( and then i picked up and it was HERRRRRRRRRRR! and guess wat i suck! i couldnt even recognise her voice because i was like into material science and didnt even expect her call! ended up to be a REAL REAL PLEASANT SURPRISEEEEE! AAAAAAAAA! and i was only tinking abt her at the start of the day and tinking to myself...ok pj it is goign to be ur first exam without shafali...GD LUCK! =( and then she calls! and says u can start pouring out ur stress to meeeeee! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! she is damnnnnnn psychic mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! and she is truly one god-sent gift... =)) i lowe herrrr! and i miss her sooooooooooooooooooooooo much...only when she called i realised how much i had changed without her around...and how much i actually missed her...before that i was like escaping into a world without shafali and just accepting the fact that she is gone...then she called! and u noe she doesnt even noe my exam timetable...but she called on all three days when i had an exam the next day...LIKE ALL THREE DAYS! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i lowe u babe! and now i realise wat a crap i am becuase i am like damn weird...got no international calling line...then the only way to call her is thru msn or must buy the calling card...then i didnt buy the card yet so cannot call...i tink i should start stocking it up in my house! she called me three times alr! =(( thank u shafaliii dont call me anymoreee i shall call uuuuu somehow! my bro was trying to get me the line to call america but it died... =S shall ask him again...oo wells and the distance is really making me sad especially becuase the poor kid fell sick last week and i was bloody helpless ok...like she called said she was really sick...and sounded really bad...then she said clinic was closed...and so went back to her room while everyone was in class...damn tragic la...like wah lao wat kind of clinic is that! must have appointment to go...like who noes when u will fall sick! damn sad la...i was sitting here and going shit she is sick she is sick...and my parents also didnt noe wat to do...they were like this is why we didnt send u overseas... =( sigh...shit mannn i really dont noe how me and shafali r going to survive like this...damn helpless for each other no matter how much we want to help the other person...that time when i was unwell also she felt helpless...then now it is me... =( dont worry shaf be strongggggggg! U WILL BE OK! must believe that u will be GOOOOOOOD IN A JIFFY! =)) and u will be fineeeeeeeeeeeee! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa life sucks totally doesnt it? =(

and to add on to that...all the ppl who have to leave from my class have left alr...and belu has left to india also...belu nandita huizhen angie cherie yiwen and basically the whole world...now the class size has exponentially reduced to the 12 guys plus me christina xinyun vaish sabby ruth and reshma! =( which is really little...that day organise class outing but it ended up to be a 5 guy outing so i didnt even go... =( damn sad la...i couldnt even go and send off ppl at the airport...then like the last time i saw some ppl was like A LEVEL RESULTS! which was in like march! =S sigh...feels like everyone is just splitting apart and now we have to count on that ONE SINGLE reunion which may come once in a year or never come at all... =S feels so uncertain and different...funny how i wasnt even prepared for this situation...sometimes when we r all having fun and laughing our head off...we kind of dont tink abt the day when we will end up taking different paths in life and suddenly we realise that some things will never be the same again...when we r happy we assume that life is goign to be the same forever...and dont mentally prepare ourselves to face separation and totally different environments very soon...which is why i am like damn in a weird state now because although on one side i have met really nice ppl in uni and all...things will my old friends r different...and it is sad that there is no going back and reliving the days we spent together...ppl sound so different now even when u talk to them online or thru sms...like u noe different things r happenieng in each others lives so there is this big gap and there is no continuous communication so everyone is like lost...and even when we meet for reunions i wonder wat things will be like...like everything will be so different...and this kind of situations r always inevitable...which is why it is sad...that nothing can be done to change them...unless u try and be close with the ppl u really want to be close with and keep in touch with...even that nobody can be sure wat might happen...like ppl might not want to keep in touch with u after some time...or ppl might just drift apart given the exceeding work load each of us have to face... =S somehow everything seems to be like disappearing la...and it is very sad...like got serious communication problem...even me and shaf...we need to set a time and find a way to call each other...=S the time difference is damn annoying hee hee...but we should really figure out a way where both of us will be awake mannn! and i hate it when we r like talking and talking and suddenly the conversation HAS TO BE KILLED because of watever reason like the line got disconnected...or something...then damn sad that we cant have those long endless hours of laughing away and tlaking abt crap stuff till both of mums scolded us! =((( i really miss those times...and belu i was talking to her online and she suddenly disappeared and never came back...it is like u cant even sms the other person and say why u disappeared and instead the other person jsut has to assume something happened and just leave it...that really sucks...=( i tink i will miss the belu and her lame jokes when me and nava next meet and we realise we have no melu beside us to give us the damn funny lame jokes and laugh at our damn stupid jokes...and no shafali to laugh with us and crap around also... =( i tink if we meet like let only me and nava la...dont noe how it will be also...damn sad la...and shafali is like one person can mention her name and i can like dont talk for 20 sec and have to swallow my tears alr...seriously man...i really really wished she was here with me...then she wouldnt have to suffer there alone...and i wouldnt have to suffer here alone too... =( life would be so much better with u around babe! =( but i really hope u get well soon and enjoy things thereeeeee! i bet u r having a ball of a time! =)) HEE HEE HER STORIES R DAMN SEXCITING LA! i relal hope all the fun continues for uuuuu! =)) ENJOY! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE! BADE LOG! have funnnn! and take care mannn! =)) HUGS! MUACKSSSSSSSSSSS! =* =* =*

oo and i realise i am even more pathetic because i am not even meeting or talking to my old friends in singapore! like nava and me rarely talk...only online sometimes...i dont even talk much to ppl online these days other than ppl who start a convo with mee...do u tink i am becoming an introvert? =S hee hee highly unlikely...but like i am not initiating msn convos...or calling ppl and talking endlessly for hours...other than with sandhya recently! yayy! she is like the person who is fun to talk to on the phone! I LIKE IT! =)) but besides that...i am not talking much to anyone else! and everytime we will be like oo we should meet now we should meeet later but in the end nothing happens...different timings...different test dates...all that make things a lot harder but we will mate soon nava! and we shall talk online or on the phone till then! finish ur exams! =)) hee hee...and i am not seeing other ppl like xinyun and christina and sabby much in sch... =( like only coincidentally meet them like suddenly! we should have one lunch meetng one day too! but their exams havent end also...sigh... =S oo wells...see la...i hate separations...and now i am alr tinking abt the day like me and my new friends will part...like me and sai...and sandhya...and everyone else... =S oo noooo...that would be worse...because they will go back to india...and never return! =((( aaaaaaaaaaa! okok that one i shall tink abt it later! if not too depressing alr... =S

mmm i wonder where we will all be in the next 10 years...hee hee...quite interesting to tink abt it actually...we will all be married with 5 kids hee hee...OR WILL WE! =P i dont noe...but let us all just make the most of wat we have...because once we part...all we will be left with is memories of the past and nothing else... =(

sad post rite...shall make u happy...sandhya is seriously one cute thing la! u noe that day me remya and sandya were sitting in pgpr doing lab...then we were listening to boys songs...sa re ga mey! then we sing sing damn seriously and then me and remya were like 'WE R THE BOYS!' and sandhya spontaneously went...'OR R WE!' HEHEHEHEEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEEHHEHE IT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTEEEE! HEHEHEHEHE me and remya couldnt stop laughing for like 5 min straight! omg laaa! some things r just plain cute in life! =P and some things r just sad... =S

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

KILLABEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZ...

2008-10-05T21:38:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...i must tell u! i rmb watching dhool finals last week and watching it halfway here halfway there because got exam the next day! but i still watched it! and was wondring why everthing was so violent and disturbing! but killabeez was really good...and me and nava r just talking abt it and falling in lowe with the dance omgggggggggggggggggggggggg! these guys r damn fluid and smooth and yet so forceful! like wat vadi says...menmaiyil vanmai! DAMN NICE! and the song selection is awesome! nava has made me feel in lowe alr! HEE HEE! by making me realise how nice and beautiful this song is! i didnt even noe it existed till they danced for it! but the lyrics not that nice hee hee...only the music is like woo hooooo! and check out the DAMN HANDSOME BOY in this group who does a 360 degree FLIP! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! when i was watching it last week my hearrt was like POP! DAMN NICE LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! WATCH IT WATCH IT WATCH IT! i love the flip mannnnnnn! =)) i still dont noe how he did it! ENNA BEEZZZZZZ? KILLA BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZ! kway la pis...HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE!

hee hee and yayyy i am so happy that i finally managed to reply to ppls long overdue emails! i totally suck for being such a piece of shit and delaying my reply! everytime i read the emails i will be like okok must reply long long post...but now cannot reply long long becasue no time! so must postpone! but finally i did it today! soooo guilty mannn! esp belu and nandeeda and ganga! didnt reply their mails since like forever! =( FORGIVE ME PPL I SUCKKKKKKK! and hope u r all doing great wherever u r! engirunthaalum vaalga! =))

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

midterms r overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

2008-10-04T19:31:00.001+08:00

hey everyone...omg the past two weeks have been bomb busyyyy! =(( with mid year exams this whole week and stuff...the past week was just a week of catching up and finishing up all the undone work i had for the past 5 weeks! and i didnt exactly finish everything...but tried to do wat i couldddddd...unlike really hardworking ppl who did tuts on time...went for lecs and understood everything...practised past year papers...got qns from e-books and did them...and mugged like shit everyday...hee hee...which explains why i am goign to fail everything... =( seriously man...i had like 2 exams on one day kind it was sooo irritating! esp computer and physics back to back omg! DOUBLE KILL LA! like they stab u first and they stab u again straight into ur heart rite after that! damn sad...and i found mid year really really really really hard...like u tink u have done as much as u could have done in that one week...u convince urself u r prepared...u believe that U CAN DO IT and u go in and simply get owned by the evil papers! =( and everytime u believe that u can do it the exams prove u rong...and kill all remaining confidence and hope in u...seriouly man...i hate eye openers...that is wat happened in two years of jc...every exam was an 'eye opener' they like to open and open and open ur eye until u cannot open alr... =S sucks la! i ws damn sad by the end of the exams...and just when i was planning of being happy that at least the exams r over and can relax now...they bomb us with the marks! failed computer studies miserably...as expected... =( it wasnt even a decent fail ok it was like SHIT! and seriously the paper was new...greek...alien...spanish french blabla to me...i went there and jsut put something i thought was rite...the probability of getting a qn rite for that is like damn low la...and same happened for most papers actually...just guess guess all the way! dont noe how i am going to survive finals which has no mcq... =S

oo and electrical engine...wasnt mcq...so i am totally going to die for it...i noe all my answers for all four qns r rong...and somebody before the exam mentionedthat the paper is damn easy...just that he forgot two more words which is... 'damn easy to fail' =( damn sad la...i seriously have given up by the time i reached physics because when i was reading the lec notes i realised that every page was filled with proving and integration crap and i was like WAT IS ALL THIS! like the day before exam dont noe wat the notes r talking abt...and didnt even noe whether i was suposed to noe all that... =S sometimes i feel that even studying doesnt even help...because the papers always test u on things u have never seen before or something... =S i am totally pathetic at applications man... =S aaa sighh...nevermind...now i dont even have time to be sad because...SCH IS OPENING AGAIN ON MONDAY! and i am goign to be lagged again ebcause i havent studied new chapters and all...did u noe...that this week was exam week but there were lecs and tuts still going on...but i ponned all of them this week... =S can u believe it! I PONNED LESSONS! =S and just went for exams...how t ogo for lessons when u have exams la...and they always had exams at nite or in the evening when my brain was snoring alr... =O seriously...my marks r all dependent on luck... =S aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa kill me somebody! =( sari nevermind i shall not make u all sad anymore...and i shall stop pouring out!

the worst part is...i cannot even pray to the bel curve anymore...because! everybody around me...meaning the really smart shcolars have done well =)) soooo it puts me in the bottom of the list...and the bel curve will just be something that makes life worse... =S

heck it...i should just be happy that exams r over! but u noe wat...got nobody to celebrate post exams with! everybody has started studying again omggg...wat is the world coming to... =S

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

recess week...

2008-09-23T14:05:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...omg it is alr the start of the recess week! SO FASTTTT! it has only been 5 weeks and got exams alrrrrrr! and no recess week doesnt mean a week of sitting at home EATING AWAY...but it means STUDY HOLS! HEHEHEHE or something to that extent! damn scary la...i have like 5 exams... =S and two exams on one day! i feel damn screwed...like damn blur...and i miss sch! like this week no sch...then cannot see ppl and laugh and crap around! hee hee...an next week sch open alr but got exams! like got lecs then at nite got exams...exciting rite...why cant they have an exam week with no lessons! ppl will proly be ponning like shit next week! aaa i tink i should go back sch this week and like hug it...hee hee i miss sch! and i miss sandhya! and saiii! sandhya at least can talk to her on the phone! stupid sai and his dappa phone! i am going to buy him a phone for his bday...then i can talk! but i tink he will spend the money talking to sandhya! =P HEE HEE! or nithya! or varsha! =P he is SAI THE MANNN! HEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHHEE! ok wat the hell...he damn unavailable laaaaaaaa... =P in all senses of the word! =P oo anyway! he doesnt tag anymore because the tagboard doesnt work on his com! i bet he blocked pop ups so cannot tag or something...oi do something abt it laaaaaaaaa!

anyway damn cute laaaaaaa! i should start recording some quotes that i heard during sch damn funny laaa! =))

me: OI NATRAJ! wat the hell i am sure u watch pamela anderson!
natraj: waaaaat! i only watch pamela anderson ok...ava ethavathu panninaana athu en thappu illai...
me: wah lao...un appa amma viyarvai sinthi ulaithu unaku kaasu anupi padika vecha inga vanthu pamela anderson paathitu irukiyey!
natraj: dubai nalla coola irukum...angeylaam verkaathu...
me: -_- HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE!

second day...

natraj: hey do u noe who is sam anderson!
pj: oo yaar athu? pamela andersonoda husband ah?
natraj: -_-

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE! oo if u want to noe who sam anderson is go u tube and find her! DAMN FUNNY LA! =P

me: SAIII! did u noeeee! sandhya tinks u like ______!
sai: WAAAAAT! SUTHAM! U TINK I LIKE SANDHYA! sandhya tinks i like ______! ______ tinks i like uuuu! aaga mothammm unga moonu perukum ennai pidikalaiiii!

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEEHEHEHEHHEHEE pointa pudichitaan! =P but then againnn! WHO SAYS I DONT LIKE HIM HEHEHEHEHE! =P

me: subwayla vegetable patty (PAATI) yen thaniya iruku? pesama athukooda TARTAR (thaathaa) sauce serthidalaama!

=P HEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHE! i am so cute! =P

sandhya: PJJJ! DID I TELL U! that day at the bus stop i was waiting for the bus and a crow landed on my head!
me: HEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEEHEHEHEHEEHEHEH OMGGGGGGGG! at least if the crow landed on my head i would have understood his feelings because my hair is like one kuruvi koodu! but urs! airport runwaynu nenachirucho!
sandhya: HEHEHEHEHEHEHE and i was walking with the crow on my head!
me: OMGGGGGG HHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHHE! karakaatam maari...CROW-ka-aatam panitu irunthiya! PINNITA!

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE DAMN FUNNY LA! cant imagine a crow on sandhyas head! she will look like this! HEE HEE DAMN CUTEEEEEEE!

HEHEHEHHEEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHE SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! this pic is sais favouriteee! awww so romantic! hee hee i tink if sandhya sees this she will kill me! =S OOPS! but relax sandhya! nobody reads my blog! really...like a maximum of 5 ppl read it! HEE HEE AND U R SOOO CUTEEE I LOWE UUUUUUU! =))

ok i go eat! =P must justify RECESS WEEK! =) ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

thottal poo malarum...

2008-09-17T22:17:00.001+08:00

hey everyone...OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! FINALLY AFTER 5 WEEKS OF SCH AND CRUSHING MISHAAL...GUESS WAT! I GOT INTROED TO HIM TODAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! =)) AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! THANK U TO KIRAN WHO i introed sandhya to and said 'ok i have introed my friend to u! so time to intro ur friend!' and then he was like zzzzzzzz then he went MISHAAAAALLLLL! she wants me to intro u to her! and then mishaal cameeeeeeeeeeeeeee! AAAAAAA UP CLOSE MANNNN! DAMN HANDSOME LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! his features r really beautifuland unique! like his nose is so nice and his eyes! AAAAAAA! anyway i was damnnn controlled variable la so i was like not hyperventilating not smiling like some baeku not doing anything! i was calm cool and compsoed and when kiran said 'this is purnima' he went 'mishaal' and then i was like HAI I AM PURNIMA AND SHOOK HANDS WITH HIM AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! DAMN CALM AND COMPOSED BUT STUCK OUT MY HAND FOR HIMMMM! aaaaaaaaaa i am not going to bathe for one month mannn damn nice la his long fingers that run thru his smooth hair everytime during lec aaaaa! i touched him! CAN U BELIEVE IT! I TOUCHED HIM AAAAAAAA! ok la shaking hands only...then mishaal damn funny la he was like 'oo and the rest of them dont have names?' and then kiran went oo this is sandhya this is sruthy this is vblabla...not important =P HEE HEE then i went on saying 'OO I AM THE ONE WHO WAVED TO U AT THE LECTURE!' and he was like 'LECTURE? uhhhh? u waved?' then i was like yes looooooooooooooooooong agoooo! che he doesnt even rmb la! sranj tink too much! she and sru were soooo worried abt that matter but in the end he doesnt even rmb! then i said 'oo i noe ur friend!' then he said 'who?' then i was like OO SRANJ! and he had the O.o look and then i said SIVARANJANI! ur tutorial...civil engineering...and he was still so blur la! until sranj came there herself and he realised and he said 'OO I NOE HER NAME IT IS SOMETHING SOMETHING SURESH!' HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE! THUUUUU! he only rmbs her dads name how useful! future father in law maybe! =P woww then they can together build their own house mannn civil engineersss! coooooool! invite me for ur wedding sranj! HEHEHEHEHHE! i will be sure to accidentally sit at the brides place during the marriage HEE HEE! anywayyy damn funny la after that he had to leave for lab and i was like FLOATING ALR! damnnn happyyyyyyyyy! YAYYYY YAYYYYYY YAYYY! =)) but i realise i introed to him also like no pt...he proly didnt even catch my name...and the worst thing is i went into the lab room with kiran and said 'HAVE U TOLD HIM I LIKE HIM?' then he was like 'i dont have to tell him...he noes!' WAT THE HELL! HEHEHEHEHEHHEEHHEHEEHHEHE HE NOESSSS? damn sad la! like that how will i maintain a cool and calm and composed personality with him anymore! but aiya i so obvious stare at him during lec...and hyperventilate when he comes...and research abt him...and crash cs lec for him and talk in tamil abt him...of course he noes rite! too bad for me he is attached la wat to do...sighhhhhhhh...SIGHH! reminds me of SAI! yes he shall be my substitute! HEHEHEHEHE THU! no man i am joking...sai is a saniyaasi hee hee =P but yayyy i finally got to mate mishaal so i damn happy! wat a bootiful name rite...MISHAAL! =))

oo and did u noe...day one of tinking that gokul was handsome made me rite a friendly wall post to him on fb...with the line 'u r very handsome'...and that nite itself i went to his profile and the post was gone! he had deleted it! =( then i damn sad...and then i went around sch telling everyone my misery abt how he deleted my wall post...and day 2 i go back and check him on facebook...and realise he had deleted ME off facebook! =(( WAT THE HELL RITE! i am sure shy and scared until can delete ppl off! so unfriendly la...i am never going to talk to him aaa... =( oo wells! heard he is attached some more... =P hee hee wah lao like that everyone is attached mannnnnnnnn...i should just go for natraj! NATRAJ NATTUKUTAN! EBDI KALAAICHEN PAATHIYA! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEEHHEHEE!

shit lab 3 is so damn harddd! somebody help! =S MISHAALL COME ONLINE NAUWWWWW! yes sure i dont even have him online...ok man my next aim is to get his email yayyy! no la i dont tink i will have contacts with him other than like HAI and BYE... =S will be so weird rite...as long as he says HAI enuf alr...my vaalkai latchiyam has been achieved today alr yayyy so wat more can i ask for! hee hee...and u noe wat! sandhya is sooooooooo sweet and funny! the two of us were just sitting on the bus tlaking shit and laughing CONTINUOSLY! HEHEEHEHEHEH! damn funny la! dont noe wat we talked also but we just kept laughing and laughing until ppl kept turning around to check us out! HEHEHEEH SANDHYA DAMN CUTE AND FUNNY LAAAAA! =)) I LOVE HER SO MUCH! =)) and today i talked to shafali online yayyY! and heard her laugh after sooo longggg! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE she has the same squeaking laughter HEE HEE! and she saw sandhya and ashwin all thru my camera! yayyy! and she was just surrounded by hot hindi baais! JALSA YAAR! HEHEHEHEHHEEHEHE omg i realise laughing is so male oriented (NO THAT IS NOT THE WORD BUT I DONT NOE HOW TO PUT IT) WHY DO PPL LAUGH HEE HEE! why not SHE SHE? HEHEHEHEHE! i mean...SHESHESHESHESHESHESHESHE! =P ok i am crapping rite! i shall go slp la! MY HEART GOES SHALA LALALA! MI-SHALALALA IN THE MORNING! WOO HOO WOO SHALALALALA MI-SHALALALA IN THE EVENING! MY HEART GOES SHALALALALALA MI-SHALALALA IN THE SUNLIGHT! SHALALALALA MI-SHALALALA JUST FOR UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! =) ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

gokuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuulll...

2008-09-14T15:15:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...omggggggggggggggggggggggg...pls ignore my previous post...it is like some shit hee hee...i totally dont feel that way anymore aaa! was just angsty i guess then "poured out" like wat sai sayssss...but now i am okkk! =)) YAYYY! HEE HEE! anyway yday was maths make up lec! for hari raya holiday...so went there at 2 and beside me was natraj crapping away for like 2 hours straight! he is actually very funny la...will just sit blablablablabla then every 5 sec he will be like EBDI KALAAICHEN PAATHIYA! and nothing would have happened at all...he wouldnt even have kalaaikiran me or anything...and he will be repeating that dialogue again and again! HEE HEE EVEN WHEN HE IS PLAYING COM GAMES OMG! but damn funny la...and his shoes omg...he wore like damn nice black formal shoes (FORMAL SHOES?) and walked like some frog because he didnt want the shoes to have the kink...HEE HEE! damn funny la! really looked like a frog cum pregnant woman! ok how abt a pregnant frog... =P HEE HEE! and oo afte maths lec went to the library to jalsa with saikumar! and we took like forever to finish mastering physics! by the time we ended it was like 8 somehting...hee hee and as usual mr sweetie pie sai helped me with my assignment and in fact did everything for me HEE HEE! now i have to sit down and figure out wat he actually did... =S hee hee oo then came abhinay to pick us up for dinner and we three went to pgpr! there was apparently some mid autumn festival going on there looked damn fun! i like these fun fun stuff! but didnt really go into it to explore...just headed straight to the canteen and ATE! and omg omg GUESS WHO CAME THERE! HIMAAVADDDDDDDDD! BEEP! rong ans! i mean he was there but nevermind HEHEHEE he is alr taken rite...U NOE WHO WAS THERE! IT WAS GOKULLLLLLLLLLLLLL! AAAAAAA! gokul is this guy i saw from far far last week i tink...abhinays friend! and he waved to abhinay and i was tinking he was waving to me la! ZZZ! LOSER ME! hehehehe anyway he is this really really really really really really SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FREAKING HANDSOME BOYYYYYY! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! HIS FEATURES R SOOOOOOO PERFECTTTTT! they r BEAUTIFUL! as in u look at him he is just like a SUPER SUPER PRETTY BOY! damnnnn beautiful laaaaaaaa! and i tink he is like the most handsome tamil boy in nus...hee hee...after saikumar of course... =P (i can imagine saikumar smiling widely now! SARI POTHUM! =P) but seriously gokul damn beautiful la...like he got beautiful eyes...a perfect nose...and suchhh beautiful lips...he is just beautiful mannn! and becuase he is a MAN he is actually damn handsome la...u get wat i mean rite...and his beautiful name so suits his beautiful features...GOKUL...aahaaa! enna alagu! ethanai alagu! kodi malar kottiya alagu! indrenthan kaiii sernthatheyyyyyy!

wowww can look at him all day laaaaaaaaaaaa...

=)) i dont believe he is single la...maybe he is the ACHA BACHA nalla paiyan type then damn soft and like damn shy with girls kind...aaa sai can u like make friends with him for me! UN FRIENDUKKAAKA! =)) HEE HEE unnaiyum maamaa aakiviteneyyyy! PONGI ELU! aaa anyway yday i was damn hyper because he was sitting beside my table eating YAYY! and i was telling his friends GOKUL GOKUL and they were like ENNA ENNA ENNA? and then they decided to tell him and kalaaikiran him i tink! HEE HEE so he waved! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! and he waved to meeeeeee! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! not like i mistook his wave to abhinay or mishaals wave to his friend ok! THIS WAS FOR ME! =)) TING TING! YAYY! and i waved back and said 'i am purnima' and he said 'i noeee' WAH LAO he daaaaamnnn soft and soft laaaa then can hardly hear him...have to like lip read...which is quite fun beuase his lips r so beautiful =P HEE HEE OK ENUF PJ! and then i said 'oo i added u on facebook!' and then he nod nod...and then he finished eating and lefttttt! and wavedd before he lefttttt! becuase his friends told him to! HEE HEE...but after that he went out and was like 'who is that?' HEE HEE! damn SAD LA! he doesnt noe who i am actually...randomly intro like that...bleargh...must go and properly make friends =)) yayyy! going to pgpr is damn happy happy la! can like have a feast for the eyes...even the lecture theatre is like that...full of yindian baais...after the 18 years of not seeing indian baais in my sch...i finally see so many! YAYYY! =)) satisfying... =)) and u noe wat! sai actually came to pgpr just becuase abhinay called him! AWWWWWWW HOW ROMANTIC! vaa da vaa! unnai aprama vechikiren! i have called him to pgpr like 1000000000000000000000000000000000 times but he always refuses...HEE HEE...oo wells...this is called the POWER OF LOWEEEE! =)

and why has pyjama guy suddenly disappeared from my chatterbox? oo nooooooo... =(

anyway my subjects r getting buried under my distraction towards indian baais...and gokullllllll! so i shall ANDAR JAO nauw! =P ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

i will always walk alone...

2008-09-12T12:00:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...yday was a miserably pathetic and embarrassing and shit day! it was like super sad day la... =S when u realise that being a girl has its problems and then u go SHIT! WHY AM I A GIRL! =S and when making ur mark is not a victory but an embarrassment... =S oo wells tank god puva and sranj were there to save me at the most crucial point! tank u ppllll! =)) greatly appreciate it! HUGS! anyway the sad part was that i was alone from like 1230 to 330 yday and i ended up crying on the bench which i was glued to for 3 hours straight... =S hate to be alone man...and most proly i was pmsing and just wishing that some ppl were beside me when i needed them the most...like shafali... =S why did u gooooooo deyyyyy? =(( i was just sitting there imagining wat she would have done if she was there...and trying to tink of all the words she used to say to console me...like 'OO NOOOOOOO HOWWW! relax deyyyyyyy! just dont tink abt it...GO HOME! blablabla' aiya if she was there i would have basically forgotten that i was having a problem...anyway i shall tell u my chain of thought in my angsty and sad brain yday...dont get upset or shocked ok...not referring to ANYONE in particular...when u pms u proly just get annoyed at the world in general i guess...so this is for THE WORLD AS A WHOLE...

why am i all alone...where is everybody...ok maybe they r all busy at lessons...or maybe they dont noe wat happened...or maybe they dont care...oo no nobody cares?

shit i have no friends...nobody loves me...

uni is so sad...ppl only want to HAI BYE and meet for lunch...i should stop hoping somebody is going to come...

and my phone rang and it was nithya! and she told me to go to the library study with her and the others...and then i said i cant really move from there...and she said she doesnt understand wat i was talking abt =S and she was the first person who i told my problem to...but i tink...i tink...she forgot abt it...hee hee...

and then my mind voice continued talking...guys r always like that...never believe a guy...they dont care abt u or how u feel unless they like u...blablabla why is it that this always happens to me...the whole world is a phony...nobody cares abt anybody else...how could i forget that there is nobody in this world who will be there for me...for a moment i thought i had friends but now i noe i dont...i need shafali...i wish she was here with me...she is proly the only one who will be here for me...aaa why did she gooooo...if only she was hereee i would not even have thought abt all this...aaa...why cant ppl even sms? i wish uni had the class system where ppl actually noe if u r alive or dead...u mean in uni if i faint in one corner nobody is going to realise? isnt that sad? =S

BLABLABLABLABLALBALBLA and it just kept repeating and repeating...and the fact that i had zero friends was like engraved in my brain by the end of three hours alr...after which i smsed sab the beeee! and POOF! she cameeee! aaa! =) i was really very touched that she was thereeeee laaa...she is another of my friends (do i even have any? =S)who will be there for u...and will actually make sure u r ok before she does anything... =)) tank u sab the bee! i really love u man...i mean actually the whole thing is no big deal and all...but everybody has this small little teeny weeny hope that SOMEBODY will be there for u...at least...AT LEAST when u have a problem...but it is always rong to hope...isnt it? so yday i was just one lonely piece of crap so my imagination ran wild like wat u could see on top! hee hee...quite stupid rite...i mean i am not tinking of all that now...so pls dont be offended...and as i mentioned earlier it is not abt anybody at all...it is just BEING PISSED WITH THE WHOLE WORLD... =S

but oo wells...maybe it was just rong timing...bad day...ppl were busy...and everything ended up the way it turned out to be...but seriously man...this is one tiny problem and alr so scary to tink abt how u will be left alone and have to independently take care of urself...wat will happen if u r MURDERED or something...or like u faint somewhere...scary riteeee? =S if u r in a class ppl will constantly be looking out for each other and u would always be with someone u noe...but here is like...nobody noes u...u noe nobody and nobody actually cares...because u r old enuf to take care of urself? =S is that the idea? omg...that is totally SAD... =( and there is the part abt how u dont have FRIENDS...like the soulmate kind of friends...it is true that MOST ppl i have met in uni r like the HAI BYE friends like wat sabby says...and u only meet them for lectures tuts or in the canteen and go HAAAAAAAAI then talk talk talk talk have u dont blablablalbalblalballba OK BYE...that is all...and when u part u dont tink abt that person anymore...(of course i tink of some ppl even when i go home now la...like those i consider my REAL FRIENDS and all...)but it was never like this before... =S when in sec sch or jc...we always stuck together...we always went home and contacted our friends from home...we always thought abt each other and made sure everyone was ok...or at least the ones we were close to...and everyone somehow knew if u were ok or not...sometimes even the ppl who r far far away never seen ur face the whole day NOE that u r in trouble and POOF comes a phonecall! that always happened with me and shafali...but now everything is just so different...

i noe i am being very paranoid la...after all it is only the fourth week...and i cannot expect to have made or found SOULMATES by now...but well i am just tinking abt all the worst possible scenarios i guess... =S everytime i go into a new place this is the only thing i tink abt...will i even make friends? will i find ppl to love? will i find ppl who will like me? and when i entered jc i had a super weird feeling abt it...but in the end it turned out to be a great class! and in uni i had those same qns again...and i was happy till like the day before yday...tinking that ok at least i am starting to make friends and all...but yday was just sad and bad and lonely... =S it turned out to be a disastrous feeling la...like nobody to actually seek when u need something i guess...maybe i am too dependent on ppl la...i am some stupid piece of shit who is totally emotionally attached and emotionally dependent on ppl...especially those i like...and i tell myself everytime to STOP being emotionally attached to ppl and to STOP hoping but i always do it...i mean i dont expect anything from ppl la...expecting is different from hoping...expecting is like OO I WANT U TO COME DO THIS NOW! but hoping is like a feeling really deeeeeeeeeep inside that ultimately says 'if he loves u he will do it...'(HE MEANING anybody in general la) and then when it doesnt happen...ur imagination goes crazy and u just hurt urself and cry because it didnt happen... which means he doesnt love u...and then ur world and ur dreams and ur hopes just shatter... =S u get it? =S ok this is tinking toooooooo far alr...but hee hee being lonely makes me tink of all this nonsense...i suck rite? =S

seriously man...it is definitely too early to come to conclusions...but i am sad now rite...so i will be talking like some crap...dont care abt me la...just IGNORE THIS POST ok... =S seriously...i am totally a nutcase for riting this post...IGNORE IT...really...

and special thank uuu to sandhya sai sranj and sruthy who kept making sure if i was ok hee hee...i tink sai still doesnt noe wat happened...(OR DOES HE?) but tank u ppl for all ur care and conern! yday was just a bad dayyyy! =( and i have a bad feeling it is going to impact my opinion on ppl...HEE HEE! JOKING LA...(OR AM I?) we will see how it goessss i guess...

ultimately rite...all this is supposed to be natural...as in...the whole situation and ppls reactions to it...so if it didnt happen the way u hoped it would happen u cannot do anything abt it...becuase not everybody is going to behave in the same way as u would...HA! i should have just done psychology rite...hee hee...yes it is true man! i mean...i cannot force a person to react in a way i or any other person i had met before would react rite...everybody is different...and even if like majority of the ppl might react in one particular way...it doesnt mean that ppl u meet will do the same thing...because everybody is different rite! so in life u just got to accept wat u see and wat u get... =) in fact...these kind of situations show how ppl react...so it is actually quite good to observe wat happens...SNEAKY RITE! hehehe and no i am not going to fake that i have a problem and observe wat happens...although it might be a good idea hee hee... =P anyway i am tinking toooooooo much rite...like wayyy too muchhh...so i should shut up now like now...

next time if i am like stuck somewhere i will just shut up and not tell anyone la...must be independent! OK YES I NOE I WONT DO IT SO STOP LAUGHING...but seriously...i need to start detaching myself from ppl i TINK i am close to...i must be dreaming when i tink i have friends rite? =( learn to walk alone miss purnima janani! because the world doesnt care abt u! =((

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

c my program...

2008-09-11T08:12:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...HEE HEE! the week has been exciting! with tuts and lecs and nonsensing around during breaks as usual! HEE HEE! and yday was damn funny laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! i was sitting with puva and sranj during my break and sranj was busy slping while puva and me decided to remember and talk abt our good old days back in sec 3 and sec 4! HEE HEE DAMN FUNNY LA! all our recess times and ino HEE HEE! and me nava puva and melu sitting at the back row of tamil class and attempting to talk like MGR HEHEHEHEHEHEH! we will like bite our teeth and go VUI NAVA! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEH BEE JAYYYYYYYYY! DAMN FUNNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! can die laughinggggg! and who can forget my 'DAVA DAVA DAVA DAVA! OORELLAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM DAVA DAVAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!' HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH WITH NAVAS MOUTH LIKE SOME MANGO! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE and nicoles PONMENI! JIGU JIGU CHA! URUGUTHEYYYY! JIGU JIGU CHAAAA! HEHEHEHEHEHEHE! wowwwwww those were realy the golden days mannn! me and puva were just laughing continously for the whole time and i was getting stitches in my stomach alr! HEE HEE! =))) and as we were talkinggggggg and having this lame and crappy mood...i was translating a c program to tamil! HEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHE CHECK IT OUT! DAMN FUNNY LAAAAAAAAAAA!

a normal c program is like this...

#include stdio.h
#include math.h
#define PI 3.141593

int main(void)

{
char yes;

printf("I LOVE U. do u? \n");

/*user input*/
scanf("%c, &yes);

return 0;

}

then when u run the program u must type...

gcc -Wall iloveu.c
./a.out

which is all transalated to...

#studiokulaara sernthuko!
#kanakku panrathukaaka sernthuko!
#venumna oru pie-ah kondu po!

{ figureukku bracket potuko!

solla vendiyathellam solliko!

aval inputkaaka wait panniko!

bracket pottu mudichiteena }

inimey run panratha pathi thaan yosikanum...

athanaala gcc-oda pinnala poi sevar eri kuthichiko!

a.veliya poiko!

HEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH DAMN FUNNY LA! it is actually funnier if u noe programming and u r like making a crap pun out of it! HEE HEE! anyway i should get back to slping! damn early in the morning la! =)) hee hee...

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

pj has drowned in the c (of) programming...

2008-09-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...omgggggggggggggggggg! have i told uuuu! my programming skills r non existentttt! and i have no idea how to do it unless i am given instructions that i can just follow and do! HEE HEE! damn difficult when i noe nothing abt it in the first place riteeeeeee...anyway yday was the bomb! since today is the submission deadline for lab 1 for c programming i spent the WHOLE NITE yday trying to figure out how to do it! can u believe it! 7 hours straight! 9 pm to 4 am! ppl can usually finish it in like one hr or max 2 hrs...but meee! I AM SUCH A GONGGGGGGGG! aaaaaaaaaaaa! and i still got some errors la but just anyhow submitted! i dont noe wat the errors mean also hee hee...they will be like...U HAVE TOO MANY ARGUMENTS IN THAT FORMAT...then followed by U HAVE TOO FEW ARGUMENTS IN THAT FORMAT...ada thuuu! i suck mannnnn! =( i wish i had done c programming over my 8 month long break hee hee... =S paravalaaa at least i tried it yday and realised how bomb bomb it was! and guess who inspired me to tryyyy! it is none other than the eptiome of sweetness...SAI KUMARRRR! THE PYJAMA (PJ) GUY HEHEHEHEHHE! he damn concerned and sweet la! proly more concerned that i am abt my own life hee hee...and he was damn encouraging and all so even at 3 am i was like NO I MUST DO IT! then i kept reading his sms and like WOO HOO LETS DO IT BABY! but after it hit 4 am my brain kind of floated away so couldnt tink anymore at all...and didnt even understand the qn! =S i tell u their qn is like super concise...like one statement and u r supposed to understand it...ENTHA OORU NYAYAM MAN! anywayyy tank u saaaiiii! if u didnt inspire me i wouldnt even have tried hee hee! yayyy! =)) but i still need loads of help i guess! =S

and u noe! my other subjects r all dying! i am well lagged behind for ALL my subjects! not following tuts or lecs or labs! labs totally kill me! like stab me in the heart mannn! every lab is 3 hours and that is just the minimum number of hours...usually thy take like 5 hours or more...and too bad if u have a lec u have to finish it and go! like my tue is 9 to 12 lab which extends till 2 then i go for lecs from 2 to 6 continuously! PINNITENLA! =S and that day went for electrical engineering lab...something which i just cannot do...like i suck at connecting circuits and lighting up the bulb all...but this one damn advanced la! got oscilloscope all! then i anyhow whack everything until the last min the teacher told me two of my graphs r rong! but at least he was nice enuf to help me do it! =)) hee hee but i can just feel myself dying la...and u r left aloneee! like nobody who will save u when u r dying there all by urself...isnt that sad... =S etho la...in the end anyhow whack...and i have tarang in all my labs and all my lecs and all my tuts... =S well isnt that great? hee hee but i tink he becoming slightly nicer now la! compared to the first few times i saw him...or IS HE? maybe i am just getting used to him hee hee... =P

but seriously of all ppl saikumar is the nicest! yayyy! and oo i realised that abinay is one WOO HOOOOOOOOOO SUPER NICE GUY TOOOO! =)) hehehehehehe and super cute! i will always rmb him as the guy who goes to the shuttle bus and turns around and asks 'nobody is going to pgpr?' awwwwww! his face damn baby baby boy kind la...and he just damn nice la! like that like that...hee hee...and today is his birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UUUU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UUUU! HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY DEAR ABINAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UUUUUUUUU! =)) yayyyyyyyyyyy! =)) and we taught him tamil! SUPER CUTE LA! we tuaght him PINNITA! and ENGAYO POITA! and he taught me BADE LOG! HEHEHEHEHEHEEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE DAMN FUNNY LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! =))

and omg omg sab the bees bday was on sunnn! havent celebrate yikesssss! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAB THE BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! =)) HAPY BIRTHDAY TO UUU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UUUU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SAB THE BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS! =* we will have a surprise celebration for u sooon! OR WILL WE? HEHEHEHHEHEE surprise wat so cannto sayyy! shhhh! =PPP

ok la i go slp...my eyes r like super heavy alr...gd nite everybody...slp well! there can be nothing better than slping in this world...HEHHEHEEH no i dont mean THAT SLPING OK! dont pollute my innocent mind la SIGH! =)) ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

my current state...

2008-09-02T21:10:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...HEE HEE at this pt of my life i realise i have a sudden urge to blog abt everything that is happening around me! been such a long time riteee...anyway it has been 4 weeks into uni now and i am still playing! which is why i am so stressed during lecs and when i go home because i dont understand anything! and ppl around me r like WOO HOOO MUGGING LIKE SHIT! and i am slacking so muchhh! seriousllyyy... =S i suckkk! hee hee but it has only been 4 weeks! so seems like still justified to be slackig but nooo! tests r going to come in like 20 days shit hee hee! but thennn i must tell u abt the whole new set of ppl i have been meeting recently! =))

to start let me talk abt my lowe SANDHYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! hehehehe i cant believe i wasnt close to her in jc mannnnn! she is seriously soooo super cuteeee and sweeeeeeet and funny and niceeeeeeee! i really really love herrrr! in jc didnt really have a chance to be close to her i guess! different classes and all...but now we meet quite often...and i have realised wat a THANGA KATTI she is mann! sooooooo damn cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! u noe she will be like forever sayning things like...'I AM HAPPY! OR AM I?' and like 'OO U DONT LIKE HIM RITE? OR DO U?' HEHEHEHEHE she keeps asking that kind of OR BLA BLA? QNS HEHEHEHEH! DAMN CUTE LA! and then everytime she does something she will be like PINNITENLA! HEHEHEHEHEHEEHHE! i can die laughing everytime she says that! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHHE! i love her mannnnnnnnnn! if i was a guy i would want to marry her! hee hee...actally now also i dont mind la =P wat say u sandhya kutty! =)) anywayyy yayyy! i am glad i found her in uniii! yayyyyyyyyyy! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! =))

and then i found...NITHYA! HEHEHEHEHE sandhyas friendddddd! she is a really nice person toooo! dont noe her THAT well yet! but can see that she is genuine and like doesnt cover up things and like generally she is SUPER NICE LA! and she looks like a malayala kappa kilangu! sooo prettyy! =)) and i like her confidence mannn! romba nalla pesuva! very funny alsooo! yayyyyyyyy! =))

thennn got SAIKUMARRR! HEHEHEHEH who i mentioned in my previous post as the crushable guy! HEHEHEHE! this guy is one MEGA MEGA MR NICE GUY! sandhya and nithyas friend! HEHEHEHEHEHE damn nice la heeeeeee! i only noe him for like 2 weeks but i like him a lot! =)) because he sooo sweet and nice and u noe he takes other ppls worry and tension as his own and reacts to it and all! like how i lost my hp and he immediately called sandhya and asked her to grab it! =)) and can see that he was genuinely worried hee hee more worried than me i tink! or maybe he was just hurrying because he was worried of his phone bill =P HEE HEE! but no man! he romba romba nice! and we always play table tennis and FOOS BALL is that how u spell it? and all! which explains why i havent started stdying hee hee! but he damn nalla paiyan and all and very funy! and keeps laughing like one little boy hee hee! =)) and he taught me and sranj electrical engine tut! that tut was a bomb man! didnt understand so many things till sai opened up my NETRI KANN! =)) thank u saiiii! =)) and yesss hee super niceeeee so if any girl is single and avaliable GO ATTACK HIM! =)) he will take care of u like he takes care of his erm...pyjamas! =P which r always on his bed =P HEE HEE ok i shall stop being sick! =P

oo then got REMYA! and when i mention remya i must talk abt ANKIT KUSHWAHAHAHHAHAHA! heheheheehehhee met the two of them during lecs! they r really nice ppl toooO! remya like helped me with lab 0 of programming! somehting i was clueless abt! and sai helped me with that too! and gaurav helped me too! HEE HEE! lab 0 alr need so many ppl... =S but we keep goign to remyas room and all damn nice girl la she! super friendly and all! =)) and i tink she likes ankit shhh! or ankit likes her ETHO! =PP ankit is this pro table tennis player becuase he is in the sch team but i havent seen him play at all! he always doesnt want to play with meee... =( and hee hee he is a cute and sweet guy la! super soft! u noe when he talks on the phone he is hardly audible becuase he speaks so softly and gentlemanlyly AAAAAAA can melt alr! and he is fun to flirt with! =P although he only flirts when we r in a group and not when we r alone =S hee hee that is sad rite...anyway if remya and ankit lke each other i shall unite the two of them! =)) it shall become my vaalkai latchiyam man! =)) both of them have nice eyes man...KANNUM KANNUM NOKIA! oo remya is malayalee...so should i say KANNUM KANNUM NOKIO? =P

last week i kept going pgpr and realised that it is actually a nice place! go hang out there for a while and u will meet a lot of new ppl and can make friends! i met nishank himavad zac wassim isurujith kanishq (NICE NAME RITE!) two adityas abinay and all! hee hee and they all r like super hamsam la...esp wassim! SUPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPER CUTEEEE OMGGGGG! if any girl sees him the first thing she will say is HE IS SOOOOOOOOOO CUTEEEEEEEEEE! he is mannn! the way he looks and behaves both also damn cute! and he has become immune to ppl telling him he is cute! no reaction! HEHEHE! that day got one bee sitting on his food and he was like 2 km away from it and just frozeee! SO CUTE LA! and he looks like he is from mumbai or somehting but he is TAMILAN! CAN U BELIEVE IT! =PPP NEXT TARGET MAN! ehehehehe though he is too little boyish until he looks like he wouldnt like anyone hee hee...unless they r super cute... AHEM AHEM PJ AHEM AHEM =P

and himavad is one hottie...super cute in the handsome way and his body is freaking nice! like traingular and damn cute...not BIG and BULKY! but small and toned and muscular and cute and nice! and his munnalagu pinnalagu all damn nice =PPP me and nithya can sit there look at him the whole day! super eyecandy...hee hee but he not my type =P he is the hottie hottie kind la...and he is attached HEE HEE! SO SAYONARA!

u noe i realised a lot of them r supr cute and nice! like abinay! the wway he talks damn cute la...and nishank is a nice guy too! =)) dont noe how close i will be with them though becuase never meet them much for lecs and all till now...so must go pgpr to see them or something hee hee...but anyway u noe most of them have been attached or have a gf in india and come here and claim that long distance relationships dont work and break up... =S so sad and tragic and they all follow a pattern! so quite scary! =S and they r all younger than me! AAA I AM SLOW! HEE HEE =P no man i am nalla ponnu!

ANYWAY I DONT CARE I MUST TELL U! MY EYECANDY IN THE LETURE! I FOUND OUT HIS NAME! or rather! sranj helped me find out! HE IS LIKE IN HER EVERY TUT MAN! UNFAIR! and his name is mishaal! =)) civil engineering...sheares hall...from srilanka...gd guy...has an i phone...that is all i noe abt him so far! AND RECENTLY I FOUND TWO CONTACTS! kasun and ashwin! who directly noe him omggggggggggggg! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! VICTORYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! OR IS IT? =P EHEHEHEHEHE oo wells at least i noe his nameee! wow he damn distracting during lec la! i will just be like having my eyes fixed on him the whole time until i dont hear a single word the leturer says...damn bad la...but he is SOOOOOOOOOO DAMN HANDSOME...TALL...THIN TONED...and aaaaaaaaaa hottttttttttttttttttttt! and he has nice features ok! like wat sranj says! so if u dont trsut my taste trust sranjs and sruthys! they both approved him alr! although they tink he proly tinks we r all weird hee hee! omg today was the first time he was siting so close to me! 2 rows in front of me mannn! he kept running his fingers thru his hair la! HIS HAIR DAMNNN NICE CAN GO FOR SHAMPOO AD ALR! super shiny and smoooooooth! JUST LIKE A SILK! HEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHE aaa damn yummy la heeee! howwwwwww! i dont even noe him! and he doesnt even noe i existttt! shiiiiiiiiit! and he is not on fb... =S sad sad sad sad my love life is always a tragedy yaar! but he damn mugger la so dont noe wat also...he doesnt even eat! i havent seen him in the canteen at all man! other than like once... =S oo! AND HE IS IN CRICKET! AND HE JOGS EVERY NITE! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! ok i am going to start jogging every nite! =)) and learn the rules of cricket which i am totally unaware of till now oops! HEE HEE oo wells i am happy just to look at him from a distance though =)) AWWWWWW POONIKUTTTYYY!

oo shit la i have soooo much work and why am i so slack...i am like screwed mann...i tink! IT IS ALL BECUASE OF MISHAAL! OR SAI! OR ANKIT! =(

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

khansamas and ecp and schoolllll...

2008-08-24T00:18:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...i realised i didnt blog abt a lot of things that have been happening recenlty...and at this midnite of 24th aug i shall just bloggggggg...which reminds me...HAPPY BURFDAE BELUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! HAPPY BURFDAE TO UUUU! HAPPY BURFDAE TOO UUU! HAPPY BURFDAE DEAR BELUUUUU! HAPPY BURFDAE TO UUUUUUUUUUUU! =)) god bless u darling! hope u have a great uni life! stay happy! =))

anyway that day me shaf nava and belu went to khansama for farewell dinner for shaf! thennn omg there was this really really hot waiter we were all fainting and like OBVIOUSLY looking and staring at him and our eyes went whenever he went! damn funny la! since we were sooo obvious he actually noticed! and he kept grinning and smiling and checking out all of us AHEM AHEM! HEHHEHEHE but oo wells then we dam happy la! esp this shfali was like TOTALLY checking him out and he was like omg on shafali HEHEHHEHEEHEH and anyway after that shafali said it was her farewell present to take a pic with him! HEHEHE it was damn funny la becuase just when shafali and nav went to the toilet did he come and ask belu and me whether he can clear the table! so only the two of us got a bigger and better and clearer picture of him and his hamsamly hot face HEE HEE! anyway we asking him whether we can take a pic with him was damn funny la! at first we called him and before any of us could open our mouth belu was like 'COULD WE HAVE SOME WATER PLS?' then we just LAUGHED LIKE SHIT HEHEHEHEHEHE BELU DAMN ANTI CLIMAX LA! then second time nava daringly asked (on behalf of all of us la) whether we can take a pic with him...but it was unfortunately a failure to launch because he refused...and i dont tink he understood wat we said la...and we didnt understand wat he said also so knd of sad then we just laugheed and ran away HEE HEE...BILLA BILLA our second failure to launch in LITTLE INDIA OMG! but the whole time in the restaurant we just kept laughing and laughing and i told them all the jokes i heard from someone and we laugh until omgg laaaaaaa! make so much noise until we had to be hushed by the waiters HEE HEE! and we took loads of picsss! all on fb go seeeeeeee! it was a really really fun day laaa especially if we minus off the failure to launch part hee hee! next time we should never ask guys for their number or pics mannn! which reminds me...going to sch really saves us of all the embarrasement and hassle of getting to noe new ppl...just sit with a random guy in lec and be a bit thick skinned like me and ask HEY HOW R U WHO R U WAT R U DOING I AM PURNIMA CAN I HAVE UR NUMBER THANK U! is so much easier than waiting looking and asking for a random guy for his numberrrr! HEE HEE...but then again i havent asked my crush in the lt for his number omg! =S bleargh...things get harder when u crush ppl riteee... =P give me chance la!

anyway did i tell u that day i went to crash ecp with the freshies and it was quite fun to see the whole lot of them getting dunked and thrown into the sea...but it was quite dangerous because it was late at nite and u noe quite unsafe la...and i was happily standing arnd the sea tinking that oo nobody noes me so i wont get dunked...but omg i was this close to getting thrown because i saw shwetha and went HEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHE THOOKI POTAANGALAAAAAAAAa and then she grabbed my hand! and another girl attacked rom behind then i was like SHITTT! i should have shut up! EHEHEHHE but because i told them i have my hp with me they let me gooooo! yayyyy! why didnt everyone tink of that mannn! hee hee anyway watching ppl get dunked reminded me of the good old times that 6f spent at ecp and at sentosa throwign ppl into the sea...making me almost drown and all! aaa reallly miss 6f a lot! esp ppl like mervin who will make u feel so much happier and better just by being there and being nice! =)) aaa i love him! =S and miss a lot of ppl too! =S oo wells...

anyway sch has been like WOO HOOOOOO! i told u rite all the lecs and all...next week tuts start so i am like omg...got so many tuts to doooooo...and all so hard! anyway must tell u abt the ppl i have been meeting! some ppl r very nice but some ppl r like not very nice...u see got kalyani shwetha saikumar soham sandhya ramya shakthipriya varsha sunithra all nice ppl as far as i can see...but ppl like tarang sometimes piss me off...he doesnt let u talk...and just blablablabla scolds u and at the end of 5 min says...HOW CAN U LET A GUY INSULT U FOR 5 min! and i will be like UHHH? sighhh...quite immature of him la...heard he is pissing off a lot of ppl...and he is the one who told me my joke offended him...hee hee but on fri he said he was just playing with me zzz! HEE HEE...i guess he is just liek that...one gong...anwyay every lec i keep meeting differet ppl...suddenly this saikumar guy popped up on fri...and he seems quite crushable...HEE HEE...but i shall wait for the moment... =P i tink he got gf la... =P and he is a sprinter! so quite hard for me to run with him if we decide to elope rite...hee hee! =P anyway we will see how my friends circle develops and shrinks in due time... =)

u noe...life would be so much easier if everyone who has hurt u comes and tells u they were just joking... =(

and yayyyyy! i got back my friend on friii! =)) at first i was and i felt very weird...and then i felt very sad...and then at the end of the day i decided to be normalllll...and he was normal and his usual self tooooooo! =) so no barriers! =)) and sooooooooo i am happpppppyyyyyy! tank u friend! and dont be pissed! =) i wont do it again! =) FRIENDS! =)

ok la i realise i keep blogging...i should like slp now...ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

oo shittttttttt...

2008-08-21T20:36:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...aaa second week of uni nowwwww...and alr damn stressed out...like i feel so lost la...got lec notes...got recommended textbooks...got ppt slides...LIKE WAT DO I STUDY HOW MUCH DO I NEED TO NOE! zzz and every lecturer got different style of notes...so it gets realy confusing...and the yupdate everyday! so msut keep checking and printing and printing! i am printing and printing so much that i have no time to studyyyy so print then no pt -_- from the start of uni all i rmb doing is like PRINTING and travelling! and there is sooo much to do! everthing got tuts...and must read lab manuals...and must figure out how to do programming...and must like book and register for all the stuff online and must do online assignments! omg la...ad u r on ur own! left to die like that...it gets really difficult when u have no support around u and no one to ask and clarify doubts with man... =( how do i do this without u babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?

anyway it has only been 2 weeks but i have alr sucessfully screwed up my relationship with 2 ppl...damn sad la... =S today damn sad la...i was almost going to cry alr...maybe it is just me and my stupidity...i tell u i am really a gong la...a stupid old piece of shit...like i dont tink before doing things man... =S and it gets hard when u dont NOE ppl...and u anyhow just say things as a JOKE and they get hurt because they think u r SERIOUS but u like totally innocently saying something...oo man...i hate the fact that...i have to go and like make friends FROM THE START and make them understand that i am actually a crackpot and a gong and like SHOW them my character... -__- it feels so weird...jc was so much easier with classes that let u see a fixed group of ppl for a long period of time...and we somehow get to noe wat everyone does and thinks like...but here it is like just so hard...staying in halls and all would make u closer to ppl easily though...now i very sad because there is one whole group of ppl who stick arnd...and individually they r very nice...but u never noe if they all tink that U R AN IRRITANT...esp if u screw ur relationship with ONE person...u r dead because the whole group is going to hate u...or avoid u...or tlak behind ur backkkk...oo noooo...oo wells...nava told me to just dont care abt anyone and just do my work alone but I CANNOT! I NEED PPLLLLLLL! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! oo wells...life is like that... =S and i suckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! =S and aaa soriiii ppppppppppplllllll...i guess it is really my fault for being so open...and erm...SHAMELESS if u want to call me that... =S

ok why so angsty...zzz maybe i am just pmsing... =S

anywayyy i very happy just now during lectue because i chatted with my CHAPATIIIIII! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! she says heyhey to everyone hereeee! she safely in new york alrrrr in her aunts houseeeeeee! and ill be moving to her room on the 24thhh so after that she would be YAYYYY! =)) and i sent all our lowe to her on all ur behallfff! =PPP YAYYY! chatting with her makes me feel more happy and shows that she is still contactable so yayyyyy! =) I LOWE U CHAPATI! =)

on a side note...i hate to blog...pour out my emotions...put all my feelings into words...and THEN...save it as a draft! -__- it defeats the purpose of blogging...and makes me feel like i have no one to share my feelings with...like no point blogging rite...can just keep it to myself...sighhhhhhhh...ok actually i havent done it a lot of times la...and i dont do it to talk behind ppls back la...it is jsut that sometimes u dont want some ppl to read wat u rite and get hurt...or feel confused...but then again sometimes u feel like just letting everything out and u blog but u cannot make anyone read it then damn sad la... =(

zzz u noe wat! i have a pimple near my eye! like just below my eye! DAMN PAIN! every time i blink i am like aaa painn! pain man painnnn...the pimple of my eyeeee...pimple alr so pain...imagine how muh pain ppl who have an APPLE OF THEIR EYE would be having zzz... =P

on an even sider note! YDAY I WAVED AT MY CRUSH AT THE LTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! =)) oo i have a crush on this TALL THIN DARK AND UGLY (MY TYPE) GUYYY YAYYYYY! and yday he was looking at my direction and waving to someone then i waved back to him awwwww! then he sawwwwwwwwwww! and like told his friend THAT GIRL WAS WAVING AT U...but i tikn he realised after a whil that i was waving at him! and u noe i actually was sitting in that lecture for him becuse i just crashed it! i didnt even have to be thereee but anyhow went to follow him into the lt! he damn handsome la! but he wears blue braces! so he will be a bad kisser aaa =S and i tink he stays in pgpr so cannot see him much outside nus! aaa! ok yayyy i asked nava to dare me to go and ask him for his name and number! and she did dare me! so i shall do it the next time i see him! =)) YAYYYY! i dont even noe his nameeeeeee...so i cannot even facebook him oo no...ben says it is SANTOSH! but he anyhow whack...so i shall like give him a name...MY BLACK VANILLA! YAYYYYYYY! wat a yummy nameeeeeee! =PPP and he is singaporean becuase he alwyas with chinese guys and all...so he is older than me yayyy! but he looks damn uninterested in girls and life in general man...like some mugger shit... =S oo noo like that will be very difficulttt...but i shall not lose hope! which reminds me of this really nice quote i read today!

"courage doesn't always roar...sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying "i will try again tomorrow" -mary anne radmacher

NICE RITE? no wonder i so quiet and shy and like u noe...conservative...but my inner voice tells me to TRY AGAIN tomorrow! COURAGEUOUS PJ! =)) soooo courageous that i try again tomorrow....but with a different guy HEE HEE...ok that sounds rong...u noe wat i mean rite... =P

oo and i invented a quote! "if u dont meet mr welfare often...u would have to meet mr farewell soon!" HHEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHE CUTE RITE! tank u tank u! =P

ok la i go eattt...ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

thank u friendsssssssssssssssssss... =)

2008-08-21T11:50:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...the week has been an emotional one...with shafali leaving and everyone being really sad over everyones departure...so far nandita ganga yiwen angie pris and shafali have left...and cheire and huizhen will be flying off soon... =S seriously man it feels really weird...i should hae thought abt this earlier and prepared myself better...was such an escapist and dared not tink abt this at all and now it is happening for real...now even when i am mass smsing i will tick like nanditas and shafalis name and then realise that the sms wouldnt reach them and then unmark their names...and at that pt i am just like shit mannnnnnnn... =( and on wed on the bus i dialled shafalis number and almost called and then i was like (**!)(_!(@_(!@_!(@_)!@)_ i cannot call her... =((((((( sigh mannn...i have really been sad this week and i am sori to everyone who i have been expressing my depression to and have been affecting in a bad way...i am really sori ppl...i noe i have been depressing u all too and i am super sori abt thatttt...=( and thank u sooooo muchhhhh ppl for putting up with my misery... =(

and so i have to thank a few REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY IMPORTANT ppl for helping me get over these separations...for all their support all their love and all their efforts to piece me up... =)

tank u beeeeeeennnn! =))

and tank uuuu sab the beeeeeee! =)) thank u so muchhh for all those sweet smses at midnite to tell me that both of us r going to get over this period togetherrrr... =S i noe u r affected by nandita just like how i am affected by both shaf and nandeedaa but we can do this mannn! this parting is just temporaryyyy and wat is most imp is that our friends r having a great time there and r happy thereeeeee! and if they r happy we r happy riteee? =)) so cheer up babee! we r in this togetherrrr! anyway if u feel like crying just call me and i will bring u a lollipop to cheer u up! HEE HEE...hugs babeeeee! and THANK UUUU! =)

nava and wei beeeeeeeeee and elspeth! =) thank u for all the hugs and cuddling and group hugs at the airportttt i really shouldnt have started crying before shaf left...now she is going to be so sad on the aaeroplane mann...and i made wei bee cryyy shit! =S sori wei beeeee! but oo wells...really thank u for consoling me and patting me and for telling me that everything is going to be ok man...without nava and wei beee i proly would have exploded... =S thank u friendsss... =)) and soon wei bee will be leaving too...SHIT...why is the world such an unfair place...it only has to take my friends away from me... =(

and last but not leastttt nandeedaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! who is far far away alrrr...but still whenever we chattted and talked on msnnn she used to console me and make me feel better...thank u babeeeeeeee! u better mate my chapati more often in USA and take care of her ok! *and i will tell her to take care of u too ok!* =)) hugs babee!

sooo tank u all u friendsssss! =)) i am really happy to noe that i still have got friends! =)) A BIG HUG FOR ALL OF UUUUUUU! =)) MWAHHHHHHHHHHHH! =*

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

and she is gone...

2008-08-20T20:01:00.000+08:00

hey everyone... =(( SHIT I CANNOT TAKE IT I CANNOT TAKE IT I CANNOT TAKE IT...shafali left for new york yday nite at 11 pm...it was like the saddest moment...saddest day...in my life to part with my best friend without even being prepared to do it...and without wanting to at all...u noe i didnt even believe that she was going forever until she said ok bye i have to go now and then went in...and we all just shattered...it then striked us that SHE WAS GONE...like just a while before that me nava weiyi siau xi siau re were all ok and taking pics and fooling arnd as usual and then suddenly...she went in thru the glass doors and shrank into a tiny dot and disappeared just like that...and we were all behind the door watching her walk in silence...and then once her image disappeared...it felt like somebody was just ripping out something from inside me man...there was this sense of emptiness in the air...like as if u had a house full of guests one moment and suddenly they all left ur house and u r all alone...sad and on ur own...that is how it felt...and it felt muh worse than that actually...my friend for 5 years...JUST 5 YEARS...and now she is gone...it all happened so fast...and so suddenly...i really wish she didnt have to gooooooo...nava told us not to cry until she left...but me the gong couldnt hold back my tears...and i didnt even say my last few words before she left because of the pain in the throat with the tears...all i said was...i love u...and dont forget me...and she said...gd luck with ben =S and then we were like...shittt i wont be here for ur bday...and u wont be here for my bday... =( aaaaaaaaaa! oo nooooooooo who is going to play me the piano at 12 midnite on my bdayyyyyyyyyyyy... =S who will i talk to on the phone nowwwww for three hours continuoslyyyy...who will i share my happiness and sorrow with...who will wake me up early in the morning with A HIGH PITCHED HELLOOOOOOOO! =(((( who will i kachowwww! who will i confide innnnn...who will advice meee and stop me from going after guyyssss...who will call me in the middle of the nite to talk...who will be my best friendddddddd...and who will be there for meeeeee...now that u r gonee babeeeee...shit mannn i feel like shit...it seriously pains me sia...there is never going to be a replacement for shafali because she has been there for me during my toughest times during teenage hood...and that kind of friend...was truly a god-sent gift...like she didnt even have to do all that for me but she was really there for me to listen to my crap and to help me get thru every problem i had...like i dont tink anybody would do that...noeing how pathetic and angsty i can be...even when she was happy and i was depressed...she would be sad for me and share my feelings...and she was the only one who actually understood exactly how i was feeling and say the things that could really convince me not to be sad anymore...and she had such great chemistry with me that she knew exactly wat i was tinking even if the words i say dont really express wat i was actually meaning...and she was really gd at it...so gd that i didnt even have to tell her i had a crush on ben and she knew it... =S oo nooo...this kind of chemistry...only works with ur soulmates mannnnnn... =(( and it is hard to find these special friends who connect with u like anything...WHY IS SHE LEAVING WHY IS SHE LEAVING WHY IS SHE LEAVINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! AAAAAAAAAAAAA! i cannot take it la...like it just feels soooooo weird...and so different...like as if there is something missing in ur life...a hole there...and as if ur better half has gone away... =S SHIT I HATE TO BE EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED TO PPL BUT I ALWAYS DO IT MAN...and i always end up losing... =(

and shafali is the friend who i will proly be most indebted to...because of her really really really sincere love and affection for me...and for every single thing she has done for me...she has done soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much mannn that 'thank u's gifts presents hugs and kisses can never repay wat she has done for me...i seriously am so lucky to have found her man...and to have her for the past 5 years at least...i really thank god for that...without her i would have been nothing...and would have proly just died away... =S and now i dont really noe where to begin from without her... =S thank u shaf...thank u sooo much...u have been one of the most significant parts of my life and though the days we spent together might be short...the memories we have created r plentiful...and i will always rmb ur words of advice and love whenever i fall and use them as a motivation to pick myself up! =) and uuu! if u have anything to tell me at all from there pls doooooooo! u noe i will always be here for u rite...even though it might be things that can make me scold u...u better tell me ahhhhhhh! if not i will fly to new york and do research on u hee hee...OK NOT ON U like ON U! HEE HEE DONT TINK DIRTY SIA! =P

and i really want to apologise to u if i have hurt u babe...i noe i have...like sooo many times...and i feel so bad for that...hee hee even when i was fighting with u...i will always be tinking abt u...and every day wld be like AAA i didnt talk to her today kind of thing...but then i had such great pride that i never patch up with u...but when i hurt u so much...u were the one who always came back to me like REAL SOONwith a phonecall or a little message and patched up...and i dont noe how u do it...and WHY u did it to me babe...but it really showed that u loved me like shit la...and i am really fortunate for that...ur kind of friendship is super rare...and i tink it might not even happen again in my entire life... =S i will definitely treasure ur friendship forever babe...u have been...u r...and u will always be a part of me... =)

anyway shaf i jsut wanted to tell u...that physical barriers can never separate the two of us...u and me have been like sisters for th past 5 years and nothing can change the fact that we both love each other so deeply...u noe we will communicate and keep in touch and even though things might be different...some things will never change... =)) we will always find ways to update each other on each others lives and even after 10 years we will be happily laughing and talking abt our wedding days and babies and other matters AHEM and even after 50 years we will be playing chess...still hee heeing with our teethless mouths HEE HEE! =) so dont be too sad babeeeeeee! i tink it is harder for u to be there than for me to be here because of everything being new there...but smile darling u will get used to everything soon k! there must be a first time for everything rite? =) and i am sure u r going to love ur campus and make lots of lovely friends who u can create more golden memories with! =)) going to new york has always been ur dream rite...so i should be happy for u! and not like be too sad...(but then again =(() soo take care and dont party too much ok! we will be loving u and missing u EVERY SECOND! =)) "and there is no where in the world i want to be...than here in my room dreaming abt u and me..."

MUACKSS HUGSSSS!

sighhhhhhh and after all that...i am still very sad and angstyyy...i hate separations I HATE SEPARATIONS I HATE HATE SEPARATIONS...i wish some things would just never change man... =S but the gd things always end fast rite... =(

ok i need to like call someone to pour out now...but SHIT WHO DO I CALLLLLLLLLL! =((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! =((((((

ok i need to cry...

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

first REAL day of uniiiiii...

2008-08-13T19:39:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...monday was my first proper day in uniiii! HEE HEE beuse we had lessons! and omg usually first week can honymoon around and u noe just intro intro so slp thru lecs and make new friends...but this time! WOO HOOOOOO! they started lectures properrr! and u noe wat...i dont remember much from jc at allll! but they expect us to noe all the jc stuff and they r just building upon those...so no revision...no recalling of formulae and stuff...just PA PA PA! and i will be hanging in the air like oo this looks familiar but i dont exactly noe it so should i dig out my old notes or should i rely on these new lec notes and be satisfied...that kind of thing...like damn zzz...i should have started revising y jc stuff...i had 8 MONTHS OMG! =S ok nevermind...then oo i love my com studies lecturer because he reminds me of mr lai! the super nice and gentlemanly and speak slowly and nicely kind! but sadly he is married hee hee...had to tell us his lowe story on the first lec alr HEE HEE...and then wat else...oo it is quite difficult to understand maCHIrial science because it is all chemistry! and omg idid pdpd VAN DER WAALS! HEE HEE seems so far away everything la! =S but oo wells...oo and some ppl r really smart la...esp the guys...no lec notes no pencil case on table but come out of lecture can vomit everything the lecturer said...GOT SHORT FORM SOMEMORE! the brain some bomb la! and they like studied 3 years ago man...and they still remember! =S

besides the lecs themselves...got other problems...hee hee i realised i dont noe anybody much beause never go camp never go o week rite...but then damn hard to make friends during les...liek randomly cannot say...HEY U WANT TO BE M YFRIEND? -_- so like dont noe wat to do also hee hee...but then i met ppl! like puva and sranj come for some of my lecs so i was really happy that first day i wasnt a loner...and puva introed me to her brothers friend BENJAMIN PEERIS (unique name rite) and no his short form is ot BP! HEE HEE...but he is really nice and really handsome and really gentlemanly...just that he is attached zzz...there is only ONE GUY i noe and he is attached! hee hee i bet all the ppl in nus r attached la...i should be a backgorund dancer to those couples hee hee...anyway he is a very nice friend =)) and his gf is super chio la... =P o i was telling him how i dont really have indian guy friends...which is true la i only got to noe a few indian guys in my whole life...like ppl i an call friends... =S and i have come to a conclusion that i will not meet more new indian guys because it is just hard to find someone and intro urself unless u r linked by ur friends...hee hee wat else...oo yes...puva and sranj r nice ppl! i dont noe sranj much but hopfully can get to noe her better hee hee she is niceeeee! =)) and puva is PUVA! HEE HEE which means she is nice la zzz! hee hee oo the ben friend is super smart la...he is like some bomb gets excited over CHEM MATHS AND PHYSICS and u noe...that kind of naturally smart kind of ppl...I FEEL USELESS! =S

hee hee oo i tink walking thru nus can kill 500 calories per day! super nice long walks getting lost and finidng ur way...after a while i realise it is actually fun to get lost...the boards will guide u anyway so no worries...hee hee just that if u walk too far and faint in the middle of a jungle due to fatigue...OOPS! TOO BAD SO SAD! =S yes that idea is a biiiit scary riteeee! anyway today i was a gong...i took the same shuttle bus twice and got lost in the same place twiceee! the bus ended at the hostel so i was like shiit hee hee then came back somehowww...did i tell u i take 2 hours to go to sch...hee hee i tink i should start dating the bus driver alr... =PPP

HEE HEE ANYWAY...this week is very sad la...everybody is going overseas alr...yiwen leaving today...pris tomorrow... =S angie fri i tink... =S and shaf this tueeee! omg la...everything so fast! and so suddennnn...suddenly feels so empty and lonely... =S oo wells as long as we keep in touch and they r happy thereeeeee...i will be happyyy... =) but still! damn sad la...like how ganga suddenly left after sending an sms saying she is flying off alr...then it felt so saddd like OMG SHE IS GONE! and i couldnt even reply herrrrrr... =( and that day when i mass smsed the class i had to untick nandita from the group and send to the rest...then felt so weird...and bleargh... =S oo wells...have to get used to ppl entering and exiting ur life rite?

anyway i am still looking for ways to find out more abt venkat! he year 3 omg... =S far far awayyyy...hee hee difficult to get to noe ppl mannnn! =S help! hee hee...

anyway u all should see this video it is super funnyyyy! =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1rc0U2-EpE4

awwwwww...quite sweet ah! if AND ONLY IF somebody did that to me i will faintttttt! HEE HEE...ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

songs that make me feel like i am in loweeee...

2008-08-05T21:10:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...did i tell u! recently i have been in love with songs that make me feel in love! =)) and the best movie i have watched recently is santhosh subramaniam! i watched it again in indiaaa! damn niceeeee laaaaaaaaaa! i didnt noe i would cry again but i diddd! damn sad la the movie! i love jenillias actinggggg so cuteeee! and jeyam ravi damn handsome and sweet and nice laaaaaa! all the songs in the movie r damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn niceeeeeeee! they make me feel like i am in loweeee! and the sad song makes me cry mannnnn...come i show u!

supr cute la this songgggg! the video damn nice also! i love the part where she scared in the club then he bring her out and dance for herrrrrr! so sweet laaaaaaaaaa! and the part where he keeps doing watever she does... =P and siddharth sang itttt aaa his voice damn nice la! poovil aadum pattampoochi koodu neeyum nadanthu kondey paranthu sellum alagai rasikirathey! un seikai ovandrum en kaathal arthangal...naalthorum naan serkm nyabaga chinnangal! aaa! =)) nice nice!

and this...

he damn happy when he dances la! so cute! like very enthuuuu! jeyam ravi is the kind of guy who will have chemistry with any girl hee hee...becuase of the way he looks at her hee hee... =P some guys r just like that...IRAVO PAGALO KANAVO NIJAMO ETHILUM NEEYE THAANADI! =))

appan kaasellam cell phone billuke kaali aachu endru sonnal keli seitheney! AANAAL IPOO! naanum indru queueil nindruuuuuu ithayatha tholaitheneyyyyyyyy! o ho ho! intha naal muthal en vaanam aval kangalil!

and this song can make me cry like shit...

=( damn sad la...when they play a music that was happy happy made u feel happy and pla ythe same bit in a sad version it feels very sad... =(

nizhal nambidum en thanimai...udal nambidum un pirivai...uyir mattum nambida marukiratheyyyyyyyyyyy! =((

damn sad rite...

anyway my current love is KANGAL IRANDAL from subramaniya puram mannnn! DAMN DAMN DAMN NICEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! i love every word of the song and the music and the videooooo! all super nice mannnnnn! the girl quite pretty mann! and the guy actually acted in hcennai 600028 and he looked gd in it...but here with the beard a bit cmi la...and his hair looks like mine! hee hee...

i love love love this song!

the video really makes me feel shy and all la! damn niceeeeeee! here r the lyrics! from http://accessstreet.blogspot.com/2008/07/lyrics-of-kangal-irandal-from.html

i bolded the super nice lines man!

Pallavi

M: Kangal irandal un kangal irandal
ennai katti izhuthai izhuthai podhadhena
chinna sirippil oru kalla sirippil
ennai thalli vittu thalli vittu moodi maraithai

Kangal irandal un kangal irandal
ennai katti izhuthai izhuthai podhadhena
chinna sirippil oru kalla sirippil
ennai thalli vittu thalli vittu moodi maraithai

F: pesa enni sila naal arugil varuven
pinbu paarvai podhumena naan ninaithen
nagarvene maatri

Kangal ezhudhum iru kangal ezhudhum
oru vanna kavidhai kadhal thanaa
oru vaarthai illeye oru oosai illeye
idhai irulilum padithida mudigiradhey

Charanam 1

M: iravum alladha pagalum alladha
pozhudugal unnodu kazhiyuma
thodavum koodatha padavum koodatha
idaiveli appodhu kurayuma

F: madiyinil serndhida thudikkeren
marupuram naanamum thadukkudhey
idhu varai yaaridamum solladha kadhai

M: kangal irandal....

Charanam 2

F: karaigal andaatha kaatrum theendatha
manadhukkul eppodhu nuzhaindittai
udalum alladha uruvam kolladha
kadavulai pol vandhu kalanthittai

M: unai andri veroru ninaivillai
ini indha oon uyir enadhillai
thadai ellai saavilume unnodu vara

F: Kangal ezhudhum iru kangal ezhudhum
oru vanna kavidhai kadhal thanaa
oru vaarthai illeye idhil oosai illeye
idhai irulilum padithida mudigiradhey

M: pesa enni sila naal arugil varuven
pinbu paarvai podhumena naan ninaithen
nagarvene maatri

F: kangal irandal .....

DAMN NICE LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! i love it i listen to it like 30 times a dayyyy! =))

ok la i go sleep hee hee...gd to hear that nandita the chick in chicago is doing greatttttttt! she went niagara falls aaa i also wantttt! hee hee...ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

first day of uni...

2008-08-05T20:13:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...i realised i forgot to blog certain things in india...in kanyakumari rite...apparently four things r famous amos...one is the sunset and sunrise...apparently the sun will be damn round and clear and bright from that place...and then the beach there got four different colours of sand...red black brown and blue or something...hee hee then got one temple rite where got one god with a big nose stud...it seems in the past ppl who came on ships would use the light from the nose stud because it is super bright and find their way to the land! and lastly got vivekananthar paarai and thiruvalluar silai...this village was badly affected by the tsunami and it was my first time going there...i saw the cathedral that was not affected by the tsunami...and i saw the thiruvalluvar silai from far it was freaking tallllllll! and very nice but cannot go near these two things to see because they r doing a lot of rebuilding and renovation after tsunami...even now when we went the sea was super rough with high tides...damn scary la...we all woke up at like 5 am to see the sunrise...bu omg our bad luck the sky was damn cloudy and the sun was TOTALLY BLOCKED DAMN SAD LA... =( it was the main thing there and all the ppl in the hotel were in the motai maadi waiting for the sun and drinking their coffee but zzz the sun ran away...the my grandfather was like...sun illa aanee daughter nee irukiyey! hehehehehehhe lamee! damn funny la he! anyway then we took the boat to the vivekanandar paarai where vivekanandar went there meditated and samaathi aanaar...u noe he was there on the 26th of dec like hundreds of years ago...but the date is WHEN TSUNAMI HAPPENED OMG! =S coincidental sia! then got one room where u can go in look at this om sign and meditate and get peace...it was quite peaceful the ambience...but zzz my father started slping HEE HEE! meditate too much liao! lucky he never start snoring! =P yes and we onl saw thiruvalluvar from a distance...the tsunami tide covered the whole thiruvalluvar statue u noe...and it is seriously very tall la like a lot of metres tall...scary rite... =S

and oo i told u i went to see the astrologer rite! u noe i asked him will i enter the media...like acting and all? then he was like NEVER! u dont even have chance of modelling! HEHHEHEHEHHEHEHEHHE damn funny la...modellingku koodu vaaipu illai...sad man...that is ideally my job! to be in the mediaa! =PPP yeah rite hee hee...jk la!

anyway besides the good things in india...there r some things that really affect me everytime i go there la...i mean for ppl living there they r used to it...but for me it is like omg kind of thing...like child beggars...handicapped ppl...old ppl sitting on a field with direct sunlight...and cows that r packed onto a lorry and driven long long long distances...it was damn poor thing la...i mean they were all made to stand and they were all tied up...like cannot even move...i wanted to cry alr la...they cannot even express their sorrow...they have to miserably travel so far and over there they will be chopped...wat the hell la...then got cows that r beaten up on the road and made to drag so much of load! one single cow u noe...ppl r seriously ruthless...sighh...everytime i go to a hotel to eat...i see ppl outside begging and saying they r hungry...like when i am eating i cannot eat peacefully because i will be tinking of them and their words will be echoing in my ears then i will be crying and crying...sigh...once i saw a naked woman outside a restaurant la...she was not sane la...so it was very sad that she didnt even realise she was naked... =S i hate it when i see so many miserable things but i am helpless... =S i wonder when these things will improve la... =S

anyway...i shall blog abt my first day in nus! yday i went to sch...then i was damn excited la! couldnt even slp all nite...i knew i couldnt go for orientation because i never sign up but i thought i could crash or somehting...went to sch super early la...then i was walking arnd but then decided not to walk too far scarly i get lost! HEE HEE i tell u nus is super bigggggggggggggggggggggg! my legs r all aching alr! it is alr located on a MOUNTAIN ad yet there r SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MANY STEPS! like batu caves like that super a lot of steps! hee hee shafali was nice enuf to accompany me to walk arnd nus! so both of us met and walk here walk there had breakfast at macs where we met devii my loweeeeeeee! she super cute laaaaaaa! she lowes my bro la! no i mean i am trying to matchmake her with my brooo! and she will be matchmaking me with SHANKAR AAAAAAAAAAA! hee hee i even saw the spark in my bros eyes when he was talking to devi! but apparently my bro likes someone else! exciting! first day of nus alr i noe rumours abt him...but i bet ppl told him i am in lowe with shankar alr hee hee...dey but anyway the whole day we were like walking...finding devi...finding shakar...going to the library...the librarian didnt let shafali in la damn sad...because she got no matric card... =( but we went in anyway...after the librarian changed =P HEE HEE...then we went to various offices to clear our doubts on modules and all but like i am still very confused...lessons havent even started but i am damn stressed alr la...module bididng and all is damn stressful! i am like AAA alr! i am sure everything also must bid bid gamble gamble watch watch and when closed bidding starts PAA backstab! =S so weird...i wonder how everyone does it...why cant they just give us a timetable and ask us to follow it man...oo wells...and then shaf submitted her withdrawal from nus form =( damn sad laaaa! dont goooo shaffff! oo wells...then ambihaa came also so we were all like having fun walking arnd...and then we saw shankar arnd but i was damn shy then i started sratching the table HEE HEE so shafali missed him because i never told her he was shankar... =P but damn tiring to walk arnd and find places...we anyhow get onto shuttle buses and got off...even if we r damn hungry rite...must take a bus and make sure it goes to the canteen and then eat...by the time hopefully u dont faint la... =S nus damn big la...and confusing! so many links and blocks and all...i wonder how ppl find their way...anyway...we three stayed all the way just to watch the ics show yatra rehearsal la...like we badly wanted to watch the dance and see devi dancing all...hee hee...so we were there stoning...they only start reharsal 6 pm everyday...until then we were with the props ppl and devi they all...talked to the seniors they damn funny la! shwetha suppu anitha and all...everytime i got introduced to someone they would say i am mojos sis so i was like !!! hee hee...the guys were damn handsome la...like a lot of them...but then hee hee never talk much...it felt so weird and we were damn extra and out of place there...becuase i never go orientation so i felt so unwelomed and felt like a tourist in the sch la...then dont even noe how i am goign to get to noe ppl and all... =S maybe i will never fit in! i realise all the guys were old and manly and weird and all the girls were skiny with rebonded hair hee hee! anyway we waited for time to pass until we could finally watch the rehearsal then we were damn happy la! it was almost going to start rite! so we were excited and happy and thrilled though we were damn extra...then we were there rite...when shankar came up to us and started talking! my heart was lik beating alr la...but it all died when he said...ok who is mojos sis who is vaanis sis...then he didnt even bother waiting for us to answer...and he said...ok can u do me a favour? help us take care of our bags while we go into the lecture theatre...ok? u go there u go there...we were all like SHOCKED WITH HORROR and didnt even say a word la! it was quite pissing off becuase he was so stern...after that our mood kind of died...then the yall went in and came out after the briefing and had the rehearsal outside...if only the rehearsal had happened inside and we couldnt watch it ah...i would have been damn sad la...he never ask us nicely law...just whack only...damn sad...the guys all damn stern and harsh la...another guy was sreaming and scremaing...DANCE GIRLS U HAVE 5 MINUTES...then like 5 sec later he will be screaming...3 MINUTES! it was like some army... =S and i wasnt used to the shouting so it felt super weird...and they kept hushing us...like ESUSME rehearsal only can u like take it easy and relax! it was damn like weird...usually rgs and rjc rhearsals all damn fun and all wat...i mean msut be serious when needed la but not like the whole atmosphere is so unfun and sad case...so it was damn weird and we felt like little kids there because everyone was much older than us...and were IN the indian group...so we were like cheer girls hee hee...but the dance was cute! devi damn cute laaaaaaa her way of dancing damn cuteeee! and some girls were really gd man! the funny thing was that most of them were stick thin hee hee...damn skinny la...shaf said to be chio in nus need to be skinny can alr...zzz so i cmi hee hee =P anyway...the kathala kannala dance was SUPER DAPPANGUTHU LA! i loved the purple shirtd guy mannn! he was super dappanguthu mannnnnnn! it was rare to find such guys in rjc...so it was the first time i could see real dappanguthu in my own sch then i damn happy...but then again i realised i will never even be able to see him or talk to him la...like they all feel very far away...i bet they r damn clicked up and only talk to chiobus hee hee...so i will take forever to even talk to one guy...and since they so old i get extra shy la... =S maybe i will never make new friends since there is no fixed class also... =S i very sad la...i was super sad yday after i left realising how i have never had indian indian friends other than nava melu they all...never had guy indian friends also...like not many...not close close like forever friends kind... =S damn sad la...i want to have friends! =( damn sad la...so my first day was like that...i bought the yatra shirt fro a very cute boy who was selling it...he damn poor thing la kept walking arnd selling...but only like 6 ppl bought...and he does it everyday omg...sigh i tink being with oldr ppl quite weird...i prefer the kiddy cute innocent kind of ppl..here everyone is mature and adultish...it felt like some workplace la nus...shafali said it is like a hospital! omg la...and there were so many couples! we could look at a guy and noe from his face then he is attached alr...we walked past this handsome guy and were like CHECK HIM OUT...and then i was like i bet he has a gf! and there came his friend who said...OI WHEN U MEETING UR GIRL! HEHEHEHHE damn like that la...all of them r attached! =S then howwww! heheheh nevermind forget it...first day is always like this...sad and unwelcomed... =S etho...

but after all that...sitting down and looking at handsome indian guys was really fun hee hee...venkat damn handsome la! so cute...and there were many others whose names we dont noe...hee hee...i wonder how to get to noe more ppl la...like HOW? somebody help! =S and gd luck devi for yatra! i will cheer for u! =))

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

back from indiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

2008-08-03T22:47:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY i am back from indiaaaaaaaaa! hope u all didnt miss me too mcuhhhh! hee hee now i miss india sooo much! it was a fun tripppp! started liking india ever sine my last trip thereee! My village is very nice la like the scenery and the greenery the mountains the ppl there the lake the cool climate the whole atmosphere in india is very nice! But i tink last time the village had more ppl la...now when i went 3 ppl had eloped...ppl had found jobs...everything was a bit weird...and since there was some prob the last time i went there i thought ppl had a mind voice going on whenever they were talking to me and my family...zzz so we tried avoiding some ppl sia...but the purpose of my trip was to visit my grandfather becasue he is unwell...blocks in the heart sigh damn sad...he is the jolly and happy type and takes care of his health quite well but dont noe why suddenly like this...and from now on he has to survive on lots of tablets...the condition is very unpredictable la...like suddenly he will be ok and suddenly he will have chest pains at nite...he has like beome very weak alr la...and can see his fear alr...and he tends to forget a lot of things...like we will travel by car to a place and when he reaches the place he will be looking for the bus to go back home forgetting we had taken the car there...sigh super sad la...ageing is a terrible thing...esp when u have to be lonely and sick when u r old... =( it was very sad to see him like that...and there were ppl who were hurting him there so it was even worse...now we r back but he would be going thru the same old problems there...feels very terrible la...he has nobody to talk to and all...but when we were there he tried to hide all his fear and sorrows and tried to be happy for us...he travelled far far and wide with us just for us and even we were so tired i dont noe how he could take it...we decided to make him visit all the temples and pray for him...so we went rameshwaram and bathed in the sea...it was quite dirty la but suposed to be holy so just bathe...then went to the temple where they will pour water on us from 22 wells! It was exciting! Like walk i ncrowds and bathe bathe...but super crowded la...then water splashing everywhere...hee hee...then went thiruchandoor another sea to bathe...the sea was super rough and the tides were high so just bathe a while and go temple and pray...then went kanniyakumari and pray alsso...saw lots of peacocks flying around hee hee...very pretty! I tell u the three temples the journey was super long laaaa! Like took 3 days aaa far far far! Then went back to lower camp my village and rested for a whileeeeeeee! Then after that went to madurai and saw mathurai meeatchiyamman temple...it is seriously one of the most beautiful temples i have seen...because it is so old and every single statue was done like so many hundreds of years ago but still they r all so pretty and intricate and symmentrical! Brilliant la! And many of the long statues and pillars r all made from one single rock...so shows how pro the ppl were last time! Damn nice! Then after a few days went tanja oor and went to see our astrology... apparently naadi jothidam is famous there...but so weird when we went there every single shop was named naadi jothidam sigh...like how we went thirunelveli and they said alva is famous in saanthi sweets shop...and every single shop was named shanthi sweets...sigh hee hee spoil market for everyone only! But the astrology not bad ah some of it was quite accurate and they said quite interesting stuff! =P shall hush abt it...hee hee...then went to taja oor periya kovil...wow the nanthi was super biggggggg apparently one of the biggest in india...and saw a huge sivan...damn nice! It was built by the king raja raja chozhan...so very nice to see man...it was very big and ppl were all in groups...like a picnic spot ppl come with their friends and all! Reminded me of my friends hee hee...wished u all were there tooooooooooooooo! =)) then after that went back to lower camp and never went anywhere else...just madurai again and finish...the two weeks there was so destressing and peaceful la...but two weeks was super short la i wish it was longer! 8 months of leave and went india only for 2 weeks! Hee hee...oo wells hope my grandfather is not too sad that we r gone alr...i miss all of them nowww! My neighbours r very cute! Annie jani and shiny! Super cute la shiny this 5 year old! Damnnnnnnnnnn cute i love herrrrrrrrrr! We always play play...and they all speak tamil with that village accent damn cool la! YEKKA! PO PULLA! PONGAKKA ANGITU! Sooooo cute la! And they all quite pretty la like mangalagaram...homely and damn nalla ponnu gd girl kind...wear manjal on face all hee hee...anyway shiny is only 5 years old but talks with the village accent so it is even cuter! And this time she danced for meeee super cuteeeee! =)) i love all of them la! Aaa want to go back and play with them soon! =)

and then we came back only like 3 days ago...i then had to faster finish registration at nus...and go matric day and submit my forms and collect my cards...i look super ugly in my matric card and tertiary ezlink card la! I didnt noe they were going to use the passport ize photo ahhh i sent! Bleargh anyway...the past few days have been very stressful with me being super lost...while i was in india i realised i missed out on a lot of things liao la! Like orientation registration all...which is why sch is starting tomorrow but i cannot go for orientation aaa! I noe nobody in my faculty so i was really wanting to go for orientation but now it is gone zzz...oo wells...and this module bidding thing is damn stressful and weird and aaa...want to faint alr...shall see how it goes...aaa...oo anyway my bro introed me to some guys in nus...and he will be like ‘oo this is vinoth the most handsome guy in nus...after shankar...’ when he said that i almost said I CAN SEE THAT! But had to control because my bro was there! =S then he introed me to shankar MY LOVE OMGGGGG! I have been admiring his debating skills since like forever! He became fair alr mannn! And his voice super niceeee! But i couldnt even talk to him because my bro was there hee hee...ok i dont noe how to survive alr...like my bro and me in the same faculty hee hee...well done...and since my bro is the one introing...all the guys might develop a siserly feeling towards meeeee! =S scarly they all call me THANGACHIIIIII! Aaa! Ok nevermind...shall see how it goes hee hee! For now i dont even noe anybody in my course computer engineering...anyone there? =P and thank u sab the beee and devi and divya for all helping me with my module thingyyY! Hope i am not torubling u all too muchhhhhh! =S

oo wells cant believe that 8 months of holiday is alr over omg! So fast mann! And tomorrow sch is starting so quite excited! Shall walk arnd with shafali! Hee hee! Must noe how to navigate arnd man aaa...hee hee exciting! But nava is going to be so far away and all...and wat the bomb ganga belu kums huizhen pris cherie yiwen SHAFALI all going overseas... -_- so damn sad la...on sat me nava kums belu sandhya jesilla shaf ganga went to watch kuselan and have gangas farewell! Damn sad la the movie was such a flop...it was way boring and iluvai and aruvai...didnt like it...only nayanthara was so pretty and hot i dont noe how she is losing weight so fast omg! And vadivelus meesai was super funny! CHROMOSOME HEE HEE! And after the movie we just sat and talked and took pics! Shall upload them on fb soon! And had a surprise cake for ganga bish! Hope u liked it ganga! And all the best for ur uni education overseas! Take care and hope u have a great time there ok! Dont forget all of us! =))

then today went to meet wen hao and sab the bee at bishannn! His bday was on friiii! HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEN THE HAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! =)) so went pizza hut talk talk eat and then hagen DASH (like wat wenhao calls it) to eat brownie explosion then talk talk shop arnd then go homeee! Finally saw them after like super longgggg! We missed our other family member nanditaaa so i felt damn bright like a lamposttttt! Hee hee and quite rushed so couldnt even give wenhao a proper present...damn sad la buying gifts for guys always damn hard hee hee...but it was a fun dayy! And wen hao looks different! Shuaier and more manly and muscular! Yayy! And sabby damn slim and sexy la lost so much weight! Wat am i doing with so much of fat in me! 57 kg alr omgggggg! Hee hee...ok hopefulyl climbing the nus mountains will help! =))
so tomorrow got schh yayyyyyyy! Will blog abt it when i come backkk! Check out fb for my pic updatess soooooon! =)

happy friendship day to one and all! =))

ok then...

Take care,
-God’s Gift

a short and quick post...

2008-07-16T01:17:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...a little blog post before i leave for india tomorrowwwww! so much has been happening omgggg...

ok first got kalachitraaaa! rgs niteeee! it was super funnnnn! and superrr gdddd! i loved the hindi danceee! NACCHLE NACHLEEE! me and shaf were like dancing on our seats mannnn! =)) and everyone looked super prettyyyy! thennnn inooo! reminded me of old times esp since they were wearing the same costumes that we wore! and they played boshambooo yayyyy! me ganga and nandita were just singing and remembering the notes hee hee! then the drama was super funny laaa! we were all sitting at the gallery on top and laughing our heads offff! RAGUPATHI RAAGAVA RAAJARAM RAAJARAM RAAJARAM! *HOLDS NOSE AND DROWNS* WOO HOOOOO! aarthi was soooo cuteee! and lavernia acted so wellll! it was like she was being herself hee hee! =P and the singing was gddd! tisha looked super damn gorgeous in that saree la! i was like in lowe with herrr! and omg jayanths siister who looks just like jayanth hee hee sang super cutelyyy! her voice very nice hhee hee...oo and i was in lowe with nanditaas danceeeeeee! omg she soooooooo freaking cute laaa! valayapathi thaviley thavile! aaaa i want to hug her mannn! she smiles and her eyes become super cute like thisss ^^ heheheehee ummmmaaaa! =)) yess then took some pics with chandra and leftttt! i love this wholeee show feel and being in rgs and allll! aaa reminds me so much of all the gd old times mannnn! i lowed it! didnt really talk well with chandra he too busyyyy! so must go meet him again and catch up with him yayyyyy! oo and thank u vickyy fir always being with us explaining everythinggg even though u were super busyyy aaa! u r such a sweethearttt! =))) hugsss! sigh and now i miss all of them a lotttt! they r all really cute ppl laaaa! suchhh cute and nice and sweeeeeeeet juniorsss yayyyy! =)) i wish i could teach them tamil yaar! =P

ok then after that me and nandita had a slpover at shafalis houseweeeeeeeeeeeee! yesss can u believe itttt! my mum actually allowed me to stay yayyyy! it was super fun la we were just cracking up into crack potssss! HEHEHEHEE KEPT DANCING AND DANCING TO AAJA NACHLE AND KANGUNA AND CHAYYA CHAYYA! omg la madhuri dixit is imbaaaa we r nowhere near herrr! but we tried okkkk! the steps r all super hard actuallyyy heheheeehe! nevermind we r determined to get our MA IS KATHAK MANNNN! =PPP RITEEEE! hehehehe and the choreographer vaibhavi is the bomb laaaa! she suuuuuper gddd! aaa we were just going crazy looking at themm danceeee! and me and shaf died laughing for MERA BOOBU MERAAAA! HEHEHEEHEE OK INTERNAL JOKE...INSIDE JOKE...YES VERY INSIDE HEHEHEEHEHEHE! SUPER FUNNY LA WE LAUGH LIKE SOME PING PONG BALL I TELL U! anywayyy yesss it was funnn! and thank u shafali and thank u auntyyy forr all the hospitalityyyy! they weree tooooo nice yaarrr! i actually felt so bad that i was staying in someones house and u noe...hehhehehe ok i am weird...anyway they were really nice hostssss! tank u ppplllll! =)) and sori abt all the nonono to food i really didnt want to trouble ur mummy shafff! but next time i come i will try eating more okkk! =)

yayyy following that i went to malaysua fir a few daysss! it was funnnn! went gentinggg and the hotel food was heavenlyyyyy! I ATE SOOO MUCHHHH! MANGO PUDDING PIZZA CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM BLUEBERRY CRUMBLE CAKES CHEESECAKES AAA! ALL THE GOOD FOOD! ATE SO MUCH UNTIL I AM A PIG NOW LA! ok i always am a pig sigh...i shall change my name to panni from pooni...oo then we watched this magic showwww! very niceeee! with little kids doing stunts and with white tigers and lions on the stageee yayyy! super coool! and the u noe 4 ppl driving bikes in one cage thing...it was imba! previously i had only seen that on tv but to see it in person was super cool! and sadly theyt were imba in the cage then when they came out one guy skid on the stage... =S bleargh...but tthe show was really gddd! ppl rr all so talentedddd! oo the ride there was thru the skyway cable car thingy! apparently it is one of the longest in asia! 3.4km long and it was super high from the ground la! from the cable car can only see like the top of all the trees and the mist was all arnd us it was really funnnn! but not scaryy so it was a gd thing! i wonder who invented it la damn bomb brain! apparently the guy who owns genting bought the wholeee plot of land for 850 000 rm lloooooooooooooong ago and then went bankrupttt...but now he must be woo hooo rich la! anyway i badly wanted to go theme park but bro didnt want so we didnt gooo...we went to a beach in quantan though it was beautifullll! the water was CLEAR U NOE! LIKE DRINKING WATER! and there were little plots of sand in the middle of the water so u can walk thru the waters and go reach the land and sun batheee! i shall upload pics on fb when i return from indiaaa! overall fun trippppp! =)

then wat elseee...oo we decided to go india urgently because my grandfather is unwell la...i tink it is terrible to be lonely in ur old times and when u suddeny get this fear of dying things get really bad...so it is a must for us to go meet him and boost his confudence level...sigh ageing is seriously aaa quiteee imba...ok i shall not tink abt myself for now...yes...so today went to meet tina sru and sandhya at raffles placeee! sru will be gone before i come back i tinkkk! those ppl r so funny yaar! sru told me how to talk with the word 'the' inside a sentence...like 'u r the funny yaar!' heheheheh it is really funny when she says ittt! and tina is super skinny now laaa! oi go eat more laaa! and sandhya has this EM BEE BEE YES look on her face hee hee! aaa they r all very niceee ppl! am going to miss themmm! after that met nandita and vaish and sat down ate and just talked for super longggg! sigh i damn sad la...today was the last time i saw nandita before she leaves for US la...sigh it was such a sad fareewell...wasnt suposed to be this way but wat to do...nandeedaaa come back soon okkkk! and have a great time in US! =) dont forget mee ok! bkeargh i was very sad la cannot even send her off properlyyy... =S sori babeee...will make up for it when u returnnn! =) smileee!

yes with that it is alr 1 16 am now so i better go slpppp! i will miss all of u terriblyyyyyyy! take care all of uuuuuuuuuuu! =)) hugsssssssss! spread my lowe to everyoneeee u noeeeeeee! and if anything just email meee i will try to get hold of the net sometimeeee! =)

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

rgs juniorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrssssssssssss...

2008-07-05T12:24:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...ydayyyyy made me smile and laugh and be haappyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy like shitttttt! havent been soooo happy in a long long time omg it was damn funny la! because me nava and belu decided to mate in rgs and go meet chandraaa! so we met met and omg rgsss reminds me of soo many beautiful thingsss! as i stepped in i was like omg i was here here here nd there and there and we used to eat here and talk ther eand cry here omg...so many golden memories! but quite anti climax when i was stopped by the security and asked to enter only from the main gate! hee hee and they told me to sign in tinking i was a student! didnt even give me visitors pass =P hee hee tanku tanku i noe i look like endrum pathinaaru =) dey but after that we were sitting in the canteen with shafali and just talking and eating mee goreng when chandra suddenly came! HEE HEE AASIRIYARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! OMGGGG instead of we surprising him he surprised us! and we could really see how genuinely happy he was to see us and how bad he felt for being so busy with the show that he couldnt talk to us properly...he is really such a nice man la...i really miss him and his jokes and tamil class! hee he ewe were such crack pots! so he asked us wat all of us will be doing in uni and all...and he said nava should be a doctor because she has curly hair just like another doctor he noes omg HEE HEE enna oru kaaranam! and he told me my hair looks like a WIGGGG HEEEHEHEEHEEHEEH! AASIRIYAAARRRR...then shaf was talking abt how he lost wt and he soo cute say it is because we all left him...and that we r all in his eyesss aaaaaaaa! =( hee hee then later we went to watch the rehearsal upstairs! and chandra like gave us thadapudal mariyathai with chairs and all! and all the juniors were looking at us engaluku ore vekam chi poo! hee hee so we were watching and then aasiriyar wanted to rehearse the arrival of the goh part...so he called us and was like aa melu nee than principal nava nee vice principal...then i was like 'apa aasiriyar naan yaaru green man ah?' then he was like illa nee inga okaanthiru...HEE HEE...then we went backstage after a while because aasiriyar wanted to show us thiraikku pinnal nadapavai...and belu left super fast la quite sad...it is ok belu! we will go back another day ok! =) so in the backstage me and nava started crapping around like crap with all our cute juniors! omg they r all so adorable la just laugh and laugh...and they r very funny! it was soooo gd to see all of them talk in tamil...last time ics was just some english kaaran fied thing...but now it was so woo hoo! i felt like i was in some agragaaram sometimes! and i dont rmb wat all jokes we cracked but i knew we were laughing like shit continuosly for a few hrs! there weeree cute ppl like lavenia who will suddeenly appear and pada padanu sara vedi maari pesittu poiruvaa...super funny la! and then got rachel who was just sitting diwn there laughing away without giving her seniors any chair to sit hee hee...and she was like 'heels podrathu thareley nadakrathukku...mathavunga kaala mithikrathuku illa' HEE HEE because i accidentally was stepping on her foot oops saari...and then there was pretty tishaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! who was as usual so chio...and she like took out her belt and put it back like 10000000 times hee hee =P and i learnt that she was a malayala kappakelangu! so we started calling her ti-shakeelaa! super funny la! talking abt how the kosus will HEHEHEHEHE BITE! OK CENSORED VISHAYAMS...and then got divya and vidya! a pair of twinssssssss! i was like 'omg r u all really twins?' and then they were like 'yes we even have the same initials noe' HEHEHEHEHEEHEEEHEHEEHE! SO CUTE! then there were lots of other funny things la! like how me and nava were forever BEE YES CEY YEM ES CEE PEE HEDGE DEE YIN BIAALAGYYYY to all the juniors HEHEHEHEEHE super funny la it was gd to see that me and nava had chemistry after soo longg! even when we were talking abt biology! =P and there was a tall smrithi thatha who was so tall and funny...and got shyama omg hee hee drama queen la besttttt! aval romba naala avungappa sattaya pottutiruka polum...then damn funny we all will be talking talking abt chandra then suddenly he will come and i wil be like AASIRIYAR SATHIYAMA NAANGA UNGALA PATHI PESAVE ILLA! hee hee! =P the dance was nice! omg nandita is sooooooooooooooooooo cuteeeeeeeee! she dance super cute alsooooooooo! and tisha reminds me of someone but i dont noe who! hee hee they r all so cute la...got karthigah and somasundaram alagu who were all younger sisters of ppl older...like my juniors hee hee... 'ungaluku en alagunnu per vechaanga?' 'perlayavathu alagu irukatumeynu thaan!' HEE HEE damn caamedy fied la! on stage there was a comedy drama going on but i didnt watch it because the atmospphere was too seriouis hee hee...but damn funny la everything was just soo omg...and i wasnt scared of prewfects anymore! =P hee hee but sadly ppl thought we were 20 something years old oo noo...i thought i was a chinna ponnu... =( etho...maybe they were just ragging us hee hee! and omg jayanths sisters looks exactly like jayanth! aaa! but she can dance! =P hee hee ok i wouldnt mind watching jayanth dance =P hee hee anyway after that the juniors were talking abt how they will get to eat kothu barota tomorrow...then i was asking aasiriyar...aasiriyar antha kaalathilernthu intha kothu barotava neenga innum maathaliyaaa! then he said 'oo pillaiga aasapatuchika...' and nava gave her flashback abt how she was the first person to request kothu parota and ever since then he has been ordering it...hee hee sutham! so cute la aasiriyar...he said naalaiku nee varum pothu nalla style pannitu vaa mudiya...enaku intha wiga vecha nallarulkum theriyuma! HEE HEE! SUPER FUNNY LA HEEE! i am damn excited abt laterr because today is the showw! so sad nava cannot come la zzz...so after all the woo hoooo we told aasiriyar we r going off...and went far east to eat eat then go home...i tink we should all go back another day and avar freea irukumpothu manam vitu pesalam...he seriously like our thaathaa...aaa...u noe when we looked at him we were like bee yes cey yem yes SUBBULAKSHMI! HEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHE OMG I HAVE ABS ALR! ok now i go get ready la!

and anyway this is a convo i had with chapati iin the morning! decided to save it by blogging it...because sigh it might be one of the last few convos we have before she leaves to new yorkkkkkkkk! =( anyway it was quite funny! hee hee her nick was 'no one like me" so i started...

God's Gift says:
CHAPATIIII!
God's Gift says:
NO ONE LIKES MEEEE?
shafali - : ( says:
hello
God's Gift says:
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
God's Gift says:
:'(
shafali - : ( says:
NO its no one like me
shafali - : ( says:
no one like you
God's Gift says:
oo
shafali - : ( says:
itrs a song!
God's Gift says:
=P
God's Gift says:
hee hee
God's Gift says:
oops
God's Gift says:
dey i am a boon
shafali - : ( says:
haha
shafali - : ( says:
EH
God's Gift says:
yes?
God's Gift says:
B
God's Gift says:
C
God's Gift says:
D?
shafali - : ( says:
when we meeting
God's Gift says:
oo
God's Gift says:
that!
God's Gift says:
3 pm?
God's Gift says:
=)
God's Gift says:
when will u wake up?
shafali - : ( says:
adi pavi
shafali - : ( says:
no i cannot go so late
shafali - : ( says:
cos i need to tuition a girl math
God's Gift says:
oo
God's Gift says:
in rgs?
shafali - : ( says:
yea
God's Gift says:
ok 2?
shafali - : ( says:
GUESS WHO
shafali - : ( says:
lol seliyan's cousin hahahahhahaha
God's Gift says:
dey but if u tuitioning wat will i do?
shafali - : ( says:
he msged me this morning
God's Gift says:
omg
shafali - : ( says:
oi pig u remember me
shafali - : ( says:
LOL
God's Gift says:
seliyans cousin = singapores population
God's Gift says:
hee hee
God's Gift says:
tell him nao la nao
shafali - : ( says:
lollllll
God's Gift says:
ok
God's Gift says:
so how long is ur tuition?
shafali - : ( says:
about 2 hrs
God's Gift says:
and will i have to stare at ur bootiful face till u finish?
God's Gift says:
HEE HEE 2 HRS!
shafali - : ( says:
lol then u come at ard 3 la
shafali - : ( says:
ill go earlier
God's Gift says:
SET AG
God's Gift says:
deyyy i miss rgs
God's Gift says:
yday just reminded me of efverythinggg!
shafali - : ( says:
lol i knew you were gna say that
shafali - : ( says:
yeaa
God's Gift says:
yessss!
shafali - : ( says:
all the girls were msging me ytd
God's Gift says:
u noe i have never been happier in such a loooooooooong time
shafali - : ( says:
wat time u cominggg
God's Gift says:
until yday
shafali - : ( says:
can u bring me anklett
shafali - : ( says:
blabla
God's Gift says:
hee hee all the girls lowe u!
shafali - : ( says:
ahhaha thats good man
God's Gift says:
for iur anklet
God's Gift says:
=P
God's Gift says:
hee hee then dey
God's Gift says:
yday we laugh until omg
God's Gift says:
and last time...
God's Gift says:
WE USED TO DO THIS EVERDAY!
God's Gift says:
come to sch and just crack up
God's Gift says:
=((
God's Gift says:
it ended so fast dey
shafali - : ( says:
hahaha
shafali - : ( says:
yea dei
God's Gift says:
sigh dey
God's Gift says:
all gd things end super fasst
God's Gift says:
or maybe they end super fast that is why they r gddd =)
God's Gift says:
wow great philaasaphy yar!
shafali - : ( says:
that didnt make sense lol
God's Gift says:
it did!
God's Gift says:
because if things continued forever then there is nothing special abt it
shafali - : ( says:
ohhh
shafali - : ( says:
lol ok i gettit
God's Gift says:
and things might become worse and mundanee
God's Gift says:
YES
God's Gift says:
U POKE
God's Gift says:
hee hee
God's Gift says:
dey and uuuu
God's Gift says:
r going to make me and gloria cry
God's Gift says:
sigh
God's Gift says:
:'(
shafali - : ( says:
aw man
shafali - : ( says:
:(
God's Gift says:
u la
God's Gift says:
if u knew u were going overseasss
God's Gift says:
thennnn!
shafali - : ( says:
dei i honestly didnt know k
God's Gift says:
zzz
God's Gift says:
ok
shafali - : ( says:
anyways when i come back i can be like sruthi mlyavaparu
God's Gift says:
HEE HEE
God's Gift says:
WITH CURLY HAIR AND A HOT BRO?
shafali - : ( says:
adi pavi
God's Gift says:
=p
God's Gift says:
SRUTHI IS TOO CUTE YAR
shafali - : ( says:
adi paaaaaaaaavi
shafali - : ( says:
ok la
shafali - : ( says:
ill go and not come back then
God's Gift says:
adi pavi
God's Gift says:
u can help me find a hot guy there
shafali - : ( says:
adi pavi
God's Gift says:
and adopt him as ur BROTHER *HINT HINT*
shafali - : ( says:
dei on friday illw ear my sch uniform
God's Gift says:
yayyyyyy!
God's Gift says:
i bet i cannot fit into it laaa hee hee!
God's Gift says:
dey last time u looked damn gd in a pinaforeee
shafali - : ( says:
LOL dei its like a potato sack anyone can fit in one lol
God's Gift says:
because u had low belt and low socksss! sporttyyyy! =P
shafali - : ( says:
hehehee
shafali - : ( says:
lol
shafali - : ( says:
oh yea
shafali - : ( says:
i remember
shafali - : ( says:
i was damn shit la
God's Gift says:
HEHEHEHEHE POTATO SACK!
God's Gift says:
NOOO
God's Gift says:
U WEERE COOL
God's Gift says:
i bet u rmb how i wore it
shafali - : ( says:
whats with the were lol
God's Gift says:
my belt was like
God's Gift says:
defying gravity
shafali - : ( says:
at yr boobs
shafali - : ( says:
HAHA
God's Gift says:
and my skirt was like pulled by grravity greatly
God's Gift says:
HEE HEE YES!
God's Gift says:
as in were because u dont wear it now wat ada thuuu
shafali - : ( says:
hahahhahahahaa
shafali - : ( says:
yes la
God's Gift says:
deyyy potato sack reminds me of the kkindergarten game!
God's Gift says:
u rmb?
God's Gift says:
omg it was so scary and dangerous la!
shafali - : ( says:
i didnt go kindergarden :(
God's Gift says:
u jump jump with the sack and dont noe do wat
God's Gift says:
adi pavi
God's Gift says:
???
shafali - : ( says:
hhahahahah
God's Gift says:
WHYYYY!
God's Gift says:
oo yes u were busy fighting the gulf war in iraq
shafali - : ( says:
hahahahhaa
God's Gift says:
why deyyy?
shafali - : ( says:
cos there weer no good ones
shafali - : ( says:
so my mum just taught me stuff at home
God's Gift says:
wow
God's Gift says:
ur mum
God's Gift says:
woo hoo
God's Gift says:
billa billA MUMMYYYY
shafali - : ( says:
HAHAHA
shafali - : ( says:
wth
shafali - : ( says:
lol
God's Gift says:
my kindergarten rite
God's Gift says:
one day got one big tarantula inside it
God's Gift says:
then my teacher opened the door fir it to go out
God's Gift says:
ever since then she became my herooo!
God's Gift says:
adi pavi wat u doing?
God's Gift says:
is my childhood story so touching that u have disappeared to cry?
God's Gift says:
=(
God's Gift says:
stop watching shakila la!
shafali - : ( says:
HAHA
shafali - : ( says:
sorry!!!
shafali - : ( says:
went to pee brush and wash face
shafali - : ( says:
have u eaten haha my mums asking me to eat again
shafali - : ( says:
omg im still full from last night la
God's Gift says:
HEHHHE OMG THAT IS DAMN FUNNY
God's Gift says:
did u have a full yday?
God's Gift says:
hee hee dey maybe u r like on diet then ur brain auto tinks that u r a full

and then our convo died because chapati decided to call meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee yayyeeee! =)

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

wen sab shafffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff...

2008-07-01T19:26:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...hee hee my past week has been exciting! with outings with shaf san and wennn! so last thurs i tink...me and shaf went shoppingggggggggg! at dhoby gauttt and i found the same dress as bandita me and sab found last time and since we all loved it i bought it! =) yay happy happy can wear with nandita one dayyy! or one sexeh night! =P and we decided to fulfill our inner desires by trying on overalls! HEHEHEEE COME I SHOW U PIC! IT WAS DAMN FUNNY LA!

YES I LOOK LIKE A FARMER RITE! but i want to buy it man...one day when i got enuf money i shall buy...overalls r cute ok! =) hee hee then looked arnd dhoby gaut for shoes that shaf wanted and she bought a unique pair! her taste damn unique la...like never see ppl wear it...but she will wear it and will look gd in it! not like 'omg wat is that' kind...she some trendsetter liao la! and she looks super tall in it! hee hee i bet she will be taller than all the guys in uni hee hee! anyway then we went tekka and ate at murugan idli shop! jil jil jigarthanda and vada and thosai! hee hee the guy like changed my thosai and apologised like 1000 timess but it was okk! stilll super nice! and chapati even nicer made for the bill! u ah! hee hee me felt like some gf of hersss...hee hee tank u babe! but i will pay u back one day! =)

then we went to mustafa the toys section and like ROFLMAO our heads off! because the toys were all super cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and funnyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! HEHEHEHEHEEHE then we like dubbed for them and made them talk some shit and played around and laughed like crazzyyyy! then we onned the dog that can walk and then HEHEHEEHE IT WAS SUPER FUNNY IT ACTUALLY FLIPPEDD AND DID LIKE 360 DEGREE SOMERSAULTSSSSSS! SUPER FUNNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! ppl who passed by thought we were like mad la! laugh until wanted to pee liao! super fun la! we like no childhood like that! HEE HEE! =)) THEN we went to the perfume section and like sprayed ourselves HEHEHE i tell u a person can basicaly live in mustafa all his life and nobody will noe la! then shaf wanted to do threading so we like walked a long long way to find this place shaf wanted...but it was getting late so i was freaking her out and like scolding her oo noo...sori babe...we go this wk! so even after we found the place we just like ran away and i went home and she went to watch a movie withhhhh HEE HEE =PPP hee hee yayy happy day! she is super skinny now la! run until so slim alr! i want her perseverance and her drive and her consistency and her hardwork and her man! =P NO NOT HER MAN LIKE VISHAL KIND OF "HER MAN" =P but i mean like "her" mannn! hee hee ok nevermind shaf dont kill me ah...

hee hee then sat went to see sab the beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and wen hao at wenhouseee! he went brunei liao sigh...can only see him like 17 days later sigh...so went to have a chit chat! but ended up we watched musuc and lyrics this romantic comedy! hee hee yes sab and wen r the romantic and i am the comedy hee hee...it was very nice! the blueberry girl so pretty and the hero so handsome also...but damn old la...and his hip thrusts r damn funny! and his driving dance step! look like he riding some motor bike! but the songs were damn nice so i got the cd to get the songs! thank u wen! =) then watch watch then talk talk walk walk and went home...he damn nice actually didnt go out with his family to stay with us omg...we felt so bad for keeping him with us bleargh... =S anyway take care in brunei brotherr! hee hee i made him wear shafs shades andd check him out! HEHEHEHEHEHEEEEHEHE DAMNNNNNNN FUNNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY LAAAA! HE LOOKS LIKE A FLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! HEHEHEHEEHEHEHE SUPER CUTE! =PPP and with that orange umbrella! heeheheehee super comedy la! hehehehhe anyway u come back soon la! =)

=PPP

yayyyy nandita returning on thursss! hee hee she should come and spam outings with me before she goes to wellesley mannn! hurry nandeedaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

hee hee omg just one more month of hols before uni! aaaaaa passed by super fast rite! sighhhh ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

new shoes...

2008-06-24T21:54:00.002+08:00

hey everyone...hee hee after reading yiwens blog i got an ideaaa! i need to sell a pair of shoes that i bought for prom but never used them mannn! kind of bought it in a hurry and my left leg doesnt really fit in... =S it is actually a very pretty pairr! and i have never worn them so it is freaking brand new...here r the pics!

and the details r...

brand: URS and inc
size: 37...abt my foot size la if u want to imagine...
price: originally was $36.90 but i bought it at some discount so it is $29.90...hee hee u can bargain with me if u want =)
colour: black...but the sole touching part is silver...and the part where u slot in ur toes is double coloured...silver and black...open toes! damn airated! =) say no to bad smell and fungi that come with closed toe shoes man!
type: it is actually for casual wear i guess because the heels r super tiny and can go with anything and bring u anywhere!

so hurry and buy this pair from me WHILE STOCKS LAST!

REMEMBER THE PJ COMPANY's CAPTION...

TAKE IT ITS URS (and inc)!

=P

so if u want just sms me or call me ok...i have been ready to sell it since i bought it hee hee...remember! first come first serve! SO HURRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! =)

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

back from malaysiaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

2008-06-22T18:22:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...i had a quick and short trip to malaysia! and now i am back! it was damn random and sudden but oo wells it was fun! the ride there on the car is the beesstt...a super long drive! hee hee and there we just watched tv ordered food to eat went shopping blabla...bbut kl quite ex la so never buy much...hee hee...then came back very fast alr...and omg i watched dasavatharam for like the THIRD TIME! and it was damn cool la! balram naidu is damnnnn funnyyyyyy! and jeyapratha is soooo chic and pretty at this age! hee hee damn nice la...but the theatre was super cold and my teeth were chattering the moment i entered it...and we were all trembling away...then in a while i felt liek peeing so badly man...but i controlled for three hours becuase the movie was too good to be missed! and hee hee if i bring my dad out with me then he mmight not understand wat is happening when he comes back! and guess wat? there was no interval! AAA! hee hee was waiting so badly for that but nooo they just continued the movie...hee hee...oo wells damn thrilling! i want to buy the vcd and watc h it again and again! super funny la some parts! and first time u watch it u will be looking for the story...then damn thrilling...then second time i was trying to find expalnations for certain scenes...then third time i was just looking out for flaws and laughing away and anticipating certain scenes...hee hee it was damn gd la... =)

who wants to watch it again with me? FOURTH TIME LETS GO! hee hee...anyway sch reopens tomorroww woo hoooooooooooooooo so exciting! hee hee not for me but for the little ones... =P june hols passed by super fast rite! as usual...hee hee...i feel my juniors crying alr...anyway gd luck for sch and exams and cts ppl! u can do this! =) and happy birthday kannan! =)

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

dasavatharam...

2008-06-15T11:01:00.000+08:00

hey everyone..yday was damn gd! Went to watch dasavatharam with nava ambi and dewya! It was a realy realy damnnnnn gddd movie man! Abt holiwood range but not quite there yet but stil! It was like damn cool! And damn pro! A lot of efort by kamalahasan as usual man! Wonder how he changed his make up soooo many times! Anyway the best part was that it was a realy smart storyline! It was damn complicated and hard to understand at first but as the movie progreses u wil noe how beautifuly every single scene was linked and how wonderfuly they conected the start to the end! Like the first time i watchin kamal movie in theatre and i was tinkin it might end up to be quite like weird and ununderstandable...even at the start i was tinkin oo no pathetic alr...but it was a realy inteligent plot and cld understand the whole pic at the end! Yay! Power man! Kamal and ks ravikumar! Great combination yaar! Anyway i was such a nub after halfway thru the movie only did i realise that 2 of the characters were kamalahasan omg! Hehe after which dewya told me the golden rule...watever looks weird is kamalahasan hehehehe! But i wonder how they changed his height and body size all...4 some characters the face looked the same and sometimes the make up wasnt properly done...hehe 6 crores on just make up aparently..but it was impresive la how he managed to be like 10 diferent ppl! He damn versatile and acts damn wel la! And even his accents were near perfect! The funiest was balram naidu hee hee! And the paati was so cute! Trafic athikama irunthathanale flyoverla vanthen hehehehe! Power la kamal! At the age of 65 he is pro! And it takes a lot of brains to come up with one scene without any confusion man! Of course there were some parts where i didnt understand why it hapened but at least we cld tink of like valid reasons 4 those parts...and that was gd enuf...i mean the movie with so many twists is clear enuf alr hehe..malika sherawat and asin were both quite redundant...and asins voice was very iritatin...hehe i tink the character was just iritatin and she cldnt make it as a cute girl...aiya nowadays no one is cute...so like no other options 4 that role...and malika sherawat is so hot with nice hair! Hehe sadly she died halfway...and omg asin and kamal didnt even have a duet which was great! Hehe they actualy had zero chemistry...but the movie had a lot of litle mesages like caste diferences speakin in tamil hehe...sand theft and other isues inside so it was realy gd...the fight sequences the tokyo guy the story line the litle mesages the 10 diferent characters...the linkin up and the chaos theory thing were all just great! Realy nds to be apreciated! Which is why we went back in to watch the movie 4 the second time in a more interestin way hehe... :p cool rite? 2 times the same movie back to back! We r pro! U all shld go watch it too! Ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

cricket has innings but pooni has outings...

2008-06-12T20:37:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...HEE HEE YESSSSSSSS! i have been having so many outings recently that i havent had the time to blog abt them! first was ecp cycling with class that sun! had mervin sab wen eug vaish willy hz and me! we cycled for two hrs (only) and i was damn cmiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...got tired super fast and was lagging like shit! and half the time i wass the lonely middle man as u can see i was stuck between three couples hee hee... =P go figure out...and then we only cycled to halfway of wat me sab and nan cycled last time and then we were coming back...not bad sab and wen were damn fast in catching up with us although they were damn late (u noe these couples and their punctuality rite) yes soooooooooooooo... =P oo and woohan jumped down from the sky in the middle too! anyway we were coming back and me was rite behind since i was damn tired liao and sab the beeeeeeeeeeee was nice enuf to cycle with me yayyyyyyyy! then we finallyt reached and when i stood up omg i was going to faint liao! everthing was so dark alr...i tell u i no stamina at all! then hz held my cycle while i plopped myself on a chair! saby gave me minute maid which was really gd i was ok after drinkng it yayyyyyy! =) this shiows how cmi my stamina and health r i better exercise man! and yes i have been saying this since last year... =S aaa and we didnt take a pic!

anyway after that me woohan hz and vaish went to eat at swensens where woo han told us how he has a gf who lives in chinatown from jurong jc! imba la he... =) so another member of our class is attached yay... =P

yes that was last last sun...after that...on the following fri...me nava melu shaf went arnd serangoon road! we went to eat at murugan idly kadai where one idlis price is now 1 10 omg! but the taste damn nice! =) then we walked arnd in mustafa with navas occasional AHU AHU AHU phone calls...we were shopping for her bag but in the end didnt buy! but more than shopping for the bag we were making a fool out of ourselves and just laughing like shit...oo and two men saw nava do weird things to me omg... =S hee hee belu damn mangalakaram with her flowers on the head all! she is some pothi vecha malikai mottuuuuuu...owwww...ok then we went komalas to stone and talk and it was damn funny la! our usual crap talk and taking pics! the lady there played realy nice dappanguthu dancy songs and we were singing so loudly and dancing away sitting diwn it was damn funnnnn! after that i felt like dancing alr! one day we should all go someones house and avuthu pottu aadran man! damn fun! oo and nava kissed my neck omg aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! =S then belu had to leave and me nava and shaf went home shorty after that! fun dayyyyyyy! i forgot a lot of our jokes because they were all kind of ow jokes hee hee =P censored! oo that reminds me! belu kept saying she cracked a *silence* joke she cracked a *silence* joke! HEHEHEHEE IT WAS DAMN FUNNY! yes we were talking shit like that half the time la super funny...and oo u noe u noe! nava sipped her coffee and put it down and said FILTER COFFEE? and the three of us instantly went ITHHU BRU MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEEHE! we were shocked that chapati knew how to say it in tamil! damn funny because the ad was hindi and got dubbed in tamil and they play the tamil dubbed one in the hindi channel hee hee! i asked chapati wat the hindi one wld be and she was like HEY EE BRU HAYYY MAAAAAAAAAAAA! HEEEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE DAMN CUTE LA!

and after that i went to sifas on sunday to watch nanditas violin concert cum exam! was with sab wen ganga! stupig shafali overslept! so we were there and we got lost la...so went there a bit late...nandita was damn pretty with her thaavani! and her viiolin playing was imbaaaaaaaaaaaa! as usual super pro ad amazing and great! it was flawless! =) and the judges had excellent chemistry with her! the auduence was just like tapping their toes and hands and going with the flow she was really gd! when she gets her results she wld have finished diploma alr yay! oo and her mum is super young and pretty! =) hee hee watching nandita makes me feel so useless hee hee...after her concert she went for her second exam omg imba! i was wondering how numb her fingers and legs wld have gotten man omg...hee hee...yay it is over now woo hooooooooo! well done nanditaaaaaaaa! =)

oo then on mon i went toi dhoby gaut with my mum and bro to watch kungfu panda! it is damn cute and round and fat omggggggggggggggggg! damn cute la it is such a gujiliiii i want to hug itttttttttt! and the show is short but damn funny la! super cute kids will love it! aaa my class is going to watch it this sat aaa! =S have fun u ppl! u all will be talking abt it for 15 min at the exit of the theatre and laughing ur heads off hee hee! yes reminded me of over the hedge hee hee!

then this tue me sab and nan met at dhoby gaut again and it was imba funnnnnnnnnnnnn! we r all crazy mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! ate at pasta mania then had dessert at gelare omg the ice cream waffle is omg heavenly! after espresso mousse the food that brings me to heaven and back is this! waffles with chocolate ice cream omg super niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! then we went to this fashion and shoopped for a crazy 2 hrs! it was a really huge one and the dresses were really nice! so we tried this and that and finally bought a few! spent a lot that day... =( nandita damn power la! every dress she wears looks gd on her! she has some dress body and face hee hee! super figureu man! =P and then i wanted to buy one of the huge belts that cover like ur entire stomach kind but nandita said we will look weird in it because we r short hee hee...only miss lee xiuli looks nice in those man! damn funny so didnt buy...then went to starbucks to drink iced something something and the cashier was super handsome! hee hee =P then talk more crap and laughed and went to long john silver to eat more more! they have pop corn chicken there damn tasty! yayyy then soon after that went home! hopefully i can see nandita again befire she leaves to india next wed omg! =( everybody is leaving sigh...anyway it was damn fun and we spent so long together so it felt really gd! like how we were in sch kind of feeling =) a day not to be forgotten! =) hugsssssssss! and sab the bee is damn nice to kiss hee hee =P

and after that i havent been outing outing yet...omg mervin just sent me an sms saying hhe is rolling on the floor laughing like a mad panda because in the previous sms i gave sabby a new name... 'sab the lui' =))))))))))))) isnt that great! so sexcitin! =) hee hee...oo wells feel so sleepy nowadays...must be tired man...but i seroiously need to exercise i am super fatttttttttttt! aaaaaaaaaaaa! i cannot fit int o half my old clothes alr! no pe is so bad...aaa howwwwwwwww...somebody exercise with me! hee hee...

oo noo i suddenly feel like i am too young for this world alr...now with nno more sch whenu go out all u see r ppl older than u...and even when u go classes or other things u need to be with ppl older than u...feels so weird...i feel unprepared! and immature! how to be more mature ah...u noe 4 sales women have asked me why i never go sch...and told me that i dont look 18 when i tell them my age hee hee...maybe i should be happy hee hee... =) but oo noo...later go uni ppl say omg u r a genius go uni at such a young age! hee hee gd! can use it to trick ppl! =P

oo dasavatharam is released alr! tonite 9 pm omg! must watch must watch! hee hee ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

i am back...

2008-05-31T18:22:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...omg it has been years since i last blogged and so mcuh has happened i tink i need to segment my this post liao la...hee hee have been doing a lot of things including teaching sangamam and getting sick...so lets go one by one...hee hee...

TEACHING...

hee hee nevermind...

SANGAMAM 2008...

woo hooooooooooooooooooooooo went for sangamam with the seniors tina sruthi and dewya! hee hee it was super fun! met them at j8 and went to rjc together! hee hee they reminded me about all our koothadichufyings last time and how me sruthi and dewya used to take the bus together in the morning and just laugh! annae la annae! HEHHEHE DAMN FUNNY LA! i lowe u allllll! super funny la they! and that day i met them they were still the same old funny yindians hee hee...damn funny la...and they all how chiooooooo! hee hee anyway we laughed our way to rjc and went to the lecture theatre and just talked there for a while! i was happily sight adichufying my juniors and sachinnnnnn! realised he is sruthis brother omg! i have seen him on the bus so many times but didnt noe it was her bro! he damn handsome and hot la! hee hee ok nevermind i tink he scared of me alr...i jk la thambudu! anyway after that the seniors left and i went pac with nava and shafali who left after a while so i was alone for the whole show...went to sit the hindi girls after a while though yayyy at least had them! hee hee met tisha bhargav marzuk ramchok and the ri indian boys hee hee but didnt talk to anyone other than tisha...and made friends with very friendly girls who were sitting beside me from rgs...hee hee...so cute and friendly and funny...i was just talking to them and lauging...they were like bhargav is such a pencil! because of his head...HEHEH damn funny la...anyway...the day was happy happy becuse i likeed the show...parts of it were very good...like kannans drama...IT WAS HILARIOUS...and the hindi dance! nikita was super hottttttttttttttt! and the fashion show where nikita was EVEN HOTTERRRRRR! i lowe herrr! and the song medley was very nice with the piano and all...at the end of it i was crying alr...hee hee so emo...because they were singing mayilirage on stage! hee hee...oo wells...then i liked ino too...prahlads mannil intha kaathal indri yaarum vaalthal koodumo was really proooo! it is a very difficult and fast song but he imbad it! and omg i loved sattys beatboxinggggggg! IT WAS REALLY REALLY PROOOOOOOOOOOOO! i mean it was like very gooooooooood...and i remember i told satty to beatbox last year and he was like yes and all the kilavis who come will be like 'yaar intha paiyan stagela okanthu thupitu irukan' HEHEHEHHEHEHEHHEHEHHE DAMN FUNNY LA PRASATT! thennnnn oo jayasuthas drama was very pro and quality fied...because no one forgot their linesa nd it was perfect! hee hee liked it =) and yes it was a happy dayyyy becuase i met hot juniors and my other old juniors! yayyyyyyy! oo and after the show talked to kannans parents a bit...they r really really really really sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet! =) super sweet ppl la! and super nice and funny hehehehehehhehe...then went home with nikitas mum and vinithra on the bus! nikitas mum is very sweet also...and she got dimples! aaa super cute...gd genes run in the family! hee hee...so overall was a nice day except for the fact that the marzuk made me a bit sad...he ah damn bad never even say hey to me although i was sitting just 2 rows above him...idiot la...he care so much abt wat the other ri boys will tink sigh...who cares man...but oo wells...overall i was happy =)

SICK...

yes i am down with flu and cough...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...must be the cold weather! or maybe i lowe sick with sachin! HEHEHEHE ok i am jk...he is my thambudu la thambudu... =P

NEW NUMBER...

u noe i change my number alr...and i am cancelling my old number soon like real soon...so if u dont have my new number yet sms me on my old number...or u can send me a message on facebook! =) yay thank u! =)

OUTING TO SUNTEC CITY...

me nava and puva went to city hall adn walked to suntec city like on thurs! =) it was funnnnnnnn hee hee damn funny just sit down talk shit like last time...and i achieved my pirapin payan alr...because i ate the ESPRESSO MOUSSE donut at THE DONUT FACTORY OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG...it was deliciousssssssssss! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i was like in heaven for the 10 sec...damnnnnn nice pls go and eat it...hee hee...so we just sat down talk then go home alr la...that shafali pangsehed us...gong gong...

hee hee i realise it is nice to make friends on facebook! i mean the ones u like noe but not so well la...just talk talk...but weird ppl have been adding me on fb and i actually saw that guy twice outside alr! scaryyyy! hee hee...sigh i actually wanted to blog abt so much more things...but maybe this post is long enuf for now liao...ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAVAAAAAAAAAAA...

2008-05-21T11:52:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...TODAY IS NAVAS BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAAYYYYY TO UUUUUUUUUU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UUUUUUUUUUUU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR NAVANITAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

HAVE A GREAT BIRTHDAY MANNN! wowww feel so oldddddd 19 alrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! aaaaaaa! nevermind dey...even if u r a 89 year old paati u will still be a beauty =P HEE HEE...enna oru arputhama kavithai! aaa dey next year during ur bday u might be engaiyooo...aaa ok i shall not tink abt that...indru nee en vasam athuvey enaku santhosam =P deyyyyyy today u go and jalsa with ur hee hee then on sat we meet ok! must meet ah! then we can go and or suthran and celebrateeeee! BRING THE HOUSE DOWN TODAY DARLING! i love uuuuuuuuuuu! =)) and i shall start wishing u in a romantic way since we r all in lowe! =) aaa riteley paar leftley paar meley paar AAA KEELEY PAAAR! happy birthday in 150 languagessssssss!

ENGLIBISH- HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYY! =))

Afrikaans Veels geluk met jou verjaarsdag!
Albanian Urime ditelindjen!
Alsatian Gueter geburtsdaa!
Amharic Melkam lidet!
Arabic Eid milaad saeed! or Kul sana wa inta/i tayeb/a! (masculine/feminine)
Armenian Taredartzet shnorhavor! or Tsenund shnorhavor!
Assyrian Eida D'moladukh Hawee Brikha!
Austrian-Viennese Ois guade winsch i dia zum Gbuadsdog!
Aymara (Bolivia) Suma Urupnaya Cchuru Uromankja!
Azerbaijani Ad gununuz mubarek! -- for people older than you
Ad gunun mubarek! -- for people younger than you
Basque Zorionak!
Belauan-Micronesian Ungil el cherellem!
Bengali (Bangladesh/India) Shuvo Jonmodin!
Bicol (Philippines) Maogmang Pagkamundag!
Bislama (Vanuatu) Hapi betde! or Yumi selebretem de blong bon blong yu!
Brazil ParabŽns a voc!
ParabŽns a voc,
nesta data querida muitas felicidades e muitos anos de vida.
Breton Deiz-ha-bloaz laouen deoc'h!
Bulgarian Chestit Rojden Den!
Cambodian Som owie nek mein aryouk yrinyu!
Catalan Per molts anys! or Bon aniversari! or Moltes Felicitats!
Chamorro Biba Kumplianos!
Chinese-Cantonese Sun Yat Fai Lok!
Chinese Fuzhou San Ni Kuai Lo!
Chiness-Hakka Sang Ngit Fai Lok!
Chinese-Mandarin qu ni sheng er kuai le
Chinese-Shanghaiese San ruit kua lok!
Chinese-Tiociu Se Jit khuai lak!
Chronia Polla NA ZHSHS
Croatian Sretan Rodendan!
Czech Vsechno nejlepsi k Tvym narozeninam!!
Danish Tillykke med fodselsdagen!
Dutch-Antwerps Ne gelukkege verjoardach!
Dutch-Bilzers Ne geleukkege verjoardoag!
Dutch-Drents Fellisiteert!
Dutch-Flemish Gelukkige verjaardag! or Prettige verjaardag!
Dutch-Frisian Fan herte lokwinske!
Dutch-Limburgs Proficiat! or Perfisia!
Dutch-Spouwers Ne geleukkege verjeurdoag!
Dutch-Twents Gefeliciteard met oen'n verjoardag!
Dutch Hartelijk gefeliciteerd! or Van harte gefeliciteerd met je verjaardag!
English Happy Birthday!
Esperanto Felichan Naskightagon!
Estonian Palju onne sunnipaevaks!
Euskera Zorionak zure urtebetetze egunean!
Faroes ( Faroe island ) Tillukku vid fodingardegnum!
Farsi Tavalodet Mobarak!
Finnish Hyvaa syntymapaivaa!
French (Canada) Bonne Fete!
French Joyeux Anniversaire!
Frisian Lokkiche jierdei!
Gaelic (Irish) L‡ breithe mhaith agat!
Gaelic (Scottish) Co` latha breith sona dhuibh!
Galician (Spain) Ledicia no teu cumpreanos!
Georgian Gilotcav dabadebis dges!
German-Badisch Allis Guedi zu dim Fescht!
German-Bavarian Ois Guade zu Deim Geburdstog!
German-Berlinisch Allet Jute ooch zum Jeburtstach! or Ick wuensch da allet Jute zum Jeburtstach!
German-Bernese Es Muentschi zum Geburri!
German-Camelottisch Ewllews Gewtew zewm Gewbewrtstewg. Mew!
German-Frankonian Allmecht! Iich wuensch Dir aan guuadn Gebuardsdooch!
German-Lichtenstein Haerzliche Glueckwuensche zum Geburtstag!
German-Moselfraenkisch Haezzlische Glickwunsch zem Gebordsdach!
German-Plattdeutsch Ick wuensch Di allns Gode ton Geburtsdach!
German-Rhoihessisch Ich gratelier Dir aach zum Geburtstag!
German-Ruhr Allet Gute zum Gebuatstach!
German-Saarlaendisch Alles Gudde for dei Gebordsdaach!
German-Saechsisch Herzlischen Gliggwunsch zum Geburdsdaach!
German-Schwaebisch Aelles Guade zom Gebordzdag!
German-Wienerisch Ois Guade zum Geburdsdog!
German Alles Gute zum Geburtstag!
Greek Eytyxismena Genethlia! or Chronia Pola!
Greenlandic Inuuinni pilluarit!
Gronings (Netherlands) Fielsteerd mit joen verjoardag!
Gujarati (India) Janma Divas Mubarak!
Gujrati (Pakistan) Saal Mubarak!
Guarani (Paraguay Indian)] Vy-Apave Nde Arambotyre!
Hawaiian Hau`oli la hanau!
Hebrew Yom Huledet Same'ach!
Hiligaynon (Philippines) Masadya gid nga adlaw sa imo pagkatawo!
Hindi (India) Janam Din ki badhai! or Janam Din ki shubkamnaayein!
Hungarian Boldog szuletesnapot! or Isten eltessen!
Icelandic Til hamingju med afmaelisdaginn!
Indonesian Selamat Ulang Tahun!
Irish-gaelic La-breithe mhaith agat! or Co` latha breith sona dhut! Or Breithla Shona Dhuit!
Italian Buon Compleanno!
Italian (Piedmont) Bun Cumpleani!
Italian (Romagna) At faz tent avguri ad bon cumplean!
Japanese Otanjou-bi Omedetou Gozaimasu!
Javaans-Indonesia Slamet Ulang Taunmoe!
Jerriais Bouon Anniversaithe!
Kannada (India) Huttida Habba Subashayagalu!
Kapangpangan (Philippines) Mayap a Kebaitan
Kashmiri (India) Voharvod Mubarak Chuy!
Kazakh (Kazakstan) Tughan kuninmen!
Klingon Quchjaj qoSlIj!
Korean Saeng il chuk ha ham ni da!
Kurdish Rojbun a te piroz be!
Kyrgyz Tulgan kunum menen!
Latin Fortuna dies natalis!
Latvian Daudz laimes dzimsanas diena!
Lithuanian Sveikinu su gimtadieniu! or Geriausi linkejimaigimtadienio progal
Luganda Nkwagaliza amazalibwa go amalungi!
Luxembourgeois Vill Gleck fir daei Geburtsdaag!
Macedonian Sreken roden den!
Malayalam (India) Pirannal Aasamsakal! or Janmadinasamsakal!
Malaysian Selamat Hari Jadi!
Maltese Nifrahlek ghal gheluq sninek!
Maori Kia huritau ki a koe!
Marathi (India) Wadhdiwasachya Shubhechha!
Mauritian Kreol mo swet u en bonlaniverser!
Mbula (Umboi Island, Papua New Guinea) Leleng ambai pa mbeng ku taipet i!
Mongolian Torson odriin mend hurgee!
Navajo bil hoozho bi'dizhchi-neeji' 'aneilkaah!
Niederdeutsch (North Germany) Ick gratuleer di scheun!
Nepali Janma dhin ko Subha kamana!
Norwegian Gratulerer med dagen!
Oriya (India) Janmadina Abhinandan!
Papiamento (lower Dutch Antilles) Masha Pabien I hopi aña mas!
Pashto (Afganistan) Padayish rawaz day unbaraksha!
Persian Tavalodet Mobarak!
Pinoy (Philippines) Maligayang kaarawan sa iyo!
Polish Wszystkiego Najlepszego! or Wszystkiego najlepszego zokazji urodzin!
wszystkiego najlepszego z okazji urodzin
Portuguese (Brazil) Parabens pelo seu aniversario! or Parabenspara voce! or Parabens e muitas felicidades!
Portuguese Feliz Aniversario! or Parabens!
Punjabi (India) Janam din diyan wadhayian!
Rajasthani (India) Janam ghaanth ri badhai, khoob jeeyo!
Romanian La Multi Ani!
Rosarino Basico (Argentina) Feneligiz Cunumplegeanagonos!
Russian S dniom razhdjenia! or Pazdravliayu s dniom razhdjenia!
Sami/Lappish Lihkos Riegadanbeaivvis!
Samoan Manuia lou aso fanau!
Sanskrit (India) Ravihi janmadinam aacharati!
Sardinian (Italy) Achent'annos! Achent'annos!
Schwyzerduetsch (Swiss German) Vill Glück zum Geburri!
Serbian Srecan Rodjendan!
Slovak Vsetko najlepsie k narodeninam!
Slovene Vse najboljse za rojstni dan!
Sotho Masego motsatsing la psalo!
Spanish Feliz Cumplea–os!
Sri Lankan Suba Upan dinayak vewa!
Sundanese Wilujeng Tepang Taun!
Surinamese Mi fresteri ju!
Swahili Hongera! or Heri ya Siku kuu!
Swedish Grattis pŒ fšdelsedagen
Syriac Tahnyotho or brigo!
Tagalog (Philippines) Maligayang Bati Sa Iyong Kaarawan!
Taiwanese San leaz quiet lo!
Tamil (India) Piranda naal vaazhthukkal!
Telugu (India) Janmadina subha kankshalu!
Telugu Puttina Roju Shubakanksalu!
Thai Suk San Wan Keut!
Tibetan Droonkher Tashi Delek!
Tulu(Karnataka - India) Putudina dina saukhya!
Turkish Dogum gunun kutlu olsun!
Ukrainian Mnohiya lita! or Z dnem narodjennia!
Urdu (India) Janam Din Mubarak
Urdu (Pakistan) Saalgirah Mubarak!
Vietnamese Chuc Mung Sinh Nhat!
Visayan (Philippines) Malipayong adlaw nga natawhan!
Welsh Penblwydd Hapus i Chi!
Xhosa (South Afican) Imini emandi kuwe!
Yiddish A Freilekhn Gebortstog!
Yoruba (Nigeria) Eku Ojobi!
Zulu (South Afican) Ilanga elimndandi kuwe!

hee hee...un pugalai paada oru mozhi pothavillai kanmaniyeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! =)) hee hee i bet u understood the hindi one! and the telugu and tamil ones! and the french one! hee hee the latin one has the word DIES inside...hee hee...maybe dies means something in latin...hee hee ok u have funnnnnnnnnnnnn and take care! keep smiling no matter wat baby! =) muacksssssss muackssss muackssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss! HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! =))

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

long time no blog...

2008-05-13T15:27:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...long time no blog at allllllllllll! no time and no mood also! hee hee...well wat to say...i have been quite busy and stressed and zzz sadddd...but tinking abt how it is all going to end soon is good! =)) and oo the other things i am doing now...quite fun la! meet new ppl! make new friends! =)) it is a good feeling...hee hee but sad to noe how all my old friends r going to go overseas...nava shafali ganga nandita...sigh even sabby is tinking abt it nowww aaa...it is really a good thing to go overseas and have the exposure and all that hee hee but i am really going to miss all of uuuuuuuu! =( very sad la...like after u all go i will have no friends in singapore...then must start from scratch again... =S scary sia...i shall still not tink abt it...hee hee...aaa i very stressed nowadays man...having a cultural shock...and kind of given up hope alr...but oo wells...anyway on sat me nava weiyi limjiin puva siauxi and huiqi metttt! then we went to limjiin house and like loaded ourselves with so much of foooooooooooood! it was a mini sec 4 gatheringggggggg! hee hee it was good to see all of us together again! and we talked abt unis scholarships our future...our bf and them being non-existent...and abt our past few years...hee hee it was good to catch up! though ppl left early and all that...at least it was a start! must have more of such outings in the futureeee! and i wish the whole class could meet up soonnnn! thank u limjiin for all the food and hospitality and for walking us out all the wayyyy! u r such a cutie pie sweetie pie! =)) i love u all friends! hee hee...it was soo funny becuase we felt no barrier in hugging each other...or acting les with each other and taking pics and coming up with stupid jokes and just talking abt wat all we used to say in the past and just laughed! hee hee little trips around memory lane r gooooood =))

anyway i shall go and drink somehting now...and on a side note...i cannot stand u man... -_-

ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

sorkalam 2008...

2008-04-27T11:12:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...yday i went to watch the rafflesian battle at sorkalammmmmmmmmmm...RI WONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN! CHAMPIONS OF SORKALAM 20088888888! WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! and my heart was fully supporting RI with a few sudden guilty feelings that i should be supporting rgs...but i really thought ri was damn gd and that they had a damn powerful teammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! soooo yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! was damn happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy that RI WONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN! WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! i love the way every speaker of ri speakssss...they had gotten the content, the coherence, the caseline, the proness and imba pronounciation of tamil...and the clarity in getting their points across...they sounded damn damn convincing! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! and how could i forget...BHARGAVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV! WAS AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! as alwayssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss! omgomgomg his tamil his style his way of speakinggggggg and HE totally impress meeeeeeeeeeeee! i am so in love with him and his tamil laaaaaaaaaaa! but it was damn pissing off because i was like soooo into him when the emcee said sori due to time constraint u have to sit down and cut his script halfway! THEN I WAS LIKE NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! never have they done this and just because it was a live show they did it...damn pissed off la! wanted to hear his whole speech so badlyyyyy...but it is ok! even if he speaks for 30 sec he will be awesomeee! and his expressions r so cuteeeee! he looked like a little bunny on the table HEE HEE...damn handsome la! and i was sooooooo happy when he won best speakerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! and he won best speaker for the WHOLE DEBATE competition of 2008! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! HE IS GREAT MAN HE IS GREAT! I LOVE HIMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM! cannot stop tinking abt him mannnn! u noe he got best speaker for ALL the rounds this year...5 times! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG...and the judge was like oo the best speaker is goign to be bright not only in tamil...but also in life! WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! =)) that is how imba it was! and ram chok of course! damn handsome laaaa! he so nice complexion and got dimples and nice face! kalayana moonjiiiiiii! I LIKEEEEEEE! sigh why r they all younger than meeeeeeeeeeeeeee! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! =( super sad la! anyway i was damn happy ydayyy that ri wonn! and that i shook bhargavs handddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd! shall not bathe for a week hee hee...no la...but he was really damn handsome...and i loveeee him! yday was the first time i saw him i nreal life and it is proly going to be the last time too...because no more ri all arts no more debate...so no more ri boys... =( so sad la...yday after sorkalam ended i was damn sad that the whole debate feel thing ended...mediacorp was such a great place that me and my other debators will always remember! we were so nostalgic yday because we were like remember this place! we were standing here four years ago! then when the woman kept touching up the guys on stage we weere like HEE HEE TOUCH UP TIME! remember remember! aaaaa damn nostalgic! we were at the same place 4 years ago omggggggggggggggggg! debate is really something i terribly miss now la...like t he whole competition feel...practising for it...going there with butterflies in ur stomach...winning it...saying yayyy and hugging and waitign for our next title...and the whole process! is just amazinggg...and i miss it so much...my team last time had quite good chemistry and we enjoyed debateeee a lot! =)) and i must really thank ri for allwoing me to experience the whole debate thing again by inviting me for ri all arts and sorkalammmmm too! =)) thank u man thank u! i love u guysss! but i tink it may be the last time i am seeing this kind of things because after this year got uni and blabla all...so maybe when i am 30 somethng i can be invited again to go watch more debates! =)) i will still be having butterfliess in my stomach thennnn when i watch the debates HEE HEE! =)) BILABILA SORKALAMMMM! congratulations riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! =))))))

yday i saw a lot of ppl...my juniors...and it was surprising to see how much they have grown! seriously la all damn talllll! prasatt is taller than me now and has biceps and veins on the hand and looks damn manly and hot laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! super hot! damn cute la he! and i saw kannan sutha nandita tisha dharini sara abs and ppl i could recognise...the whole mediacorp was like rafflessss! hee hee...and it was so woo hoo when ri strted signing the ri school song holding up their challenge trophyyyyy and everyone just stood in their places and started singing! and we did UNITE cheer! spirit! everythinggggggggggggggggg! it was all damn memory memory kind aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! i miss rgs and rjc and everythingggggggggggggggg! and oo yes ramchok kissed the big trophyyyyy! aaa i wish i could have been the trophy la! justu missuuuuu! =P hee hee...oo oo and i saw bhargavs sister maanasa damn cute laaaaaa! i like her name MAANASA! and his parents look quite nice too! =) hee hee yes i sound like i went for some meet the parents session! HEE HEE but the sis damn cute la...she so small and nalla ponnu and has dimplesssssss! and she kept askign if i was bhargavs friend then i was like HEE HEE dont tell u! =P super funny la...aiyooo i am so sad that all the debate things and competitions have all ended...i want to go for moreeeeeee! i dont tink there is debates in uni...and even if there is...it would never be our team again because nava divya all might be going overseas =( sighhhh... =S sad la...2004 was our year mann! =))) we rockkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

well i am still tinking abt yday and bhargav! i tink it will take a while for me to get over this feeling that EVERYTHING HAS ENDED... =( and so i a bit angsty but inside i am damn happy for ri la! they deserved to winnnn...really! =))

so with that i shall go bathe! hee hee...ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

omg...

2008-04-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...omg recently i met a 12 year old boy named kish who is damn hot! omg seriously...havent seen a 12 year old be hotter than him! he got accent all since he just returend from new york! and he super manly and nice and heroic and shy and cute and hotttttttttttttttttttt! omgggggggggggggggggggggg...really! he is the potential cool and hot guy who all girls will like! today i realised like 10 girls like or liked him wat the hell...hee hee and i kept swanning him with the girl he likes HEE HEE SUPER FUNNY LA! aiyooo but he really very hot! and he can breakdance omg i need to see it! =)) hee hee...seriously i sound damn pedophile but no la...it is just that...he is a potential hottie...hee hee but of course too young for me rite hee hee... =P awwww pjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj...

anyway recently life has been slightly tiring but nice with the presence of certain ppl who like bring back memories of last time so i likeeeee! =)) hee hee yayy... =)

and i came up with an angsty and emo pic! HEEHHEHE super angsty la...

sighhhh feel so sad that i havent been able to meet up with nandita sabby wenhao or my classmates for a super logn period of time omg! =S feel like eevryone is alr splitting away! =( oo noooo calss gathering sooon! one which i can make it for! =)) hee hee ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift

mudhan muthalil parthen...

2008-04-13T18:52:00.001+08:00

hey everyone...omg for the past few weeksssss i have been IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! DAMN NICEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! the lyrics r damnnnnnn gddddddddddddddddddddddddddd! so romanticcccc! i love it! =)

Mudhan Mudhalil Paarthaen Kaadhal Vandhadhae
Enai Marandhu Endhan Nizhal Pogudhae
Ennil Indru Naanae Illai Kaadhal Poala Yaedhum Illai
Ennil Indru Naanae Illai Kaadhal Poala Yaedhum Illai
Engae Endhan Idhayam Anbae Vandhu Saerndhadhaa
Mudhal Mudhalil Paarthaen Kaadhal Vandhadhae

Nandhavanam Idho Ingae Dhaan
Naan Endhan Jeevanai Naerinil Paarthaen
Nallavalae Anbae Unnaal Dhaan
Naalaigal Mael Oru Nambikkai Kondaen
Nodikkoru Tharam Unnai Ninaikka Vaithaai
Adikkadi Ennudal Silirkka Vaithaai
Nodikkoru Tharam Unnai Ninaikka Vaithaai
Adikkadi Ennudal Silirkka Vaithaai
Mudhal Paarvai Nenjil Endrum Uyir Vaazhumae
Uyir Vaazhumae
Mudhan Mudhalil Paarthaen Kaadhal Vandhadhae

Yaezhu Swaram Ettaai Aagaadho
Naan Konda Kaadhalin Aazhathai Paada
Dhaegam Engum Kangal Thoanraadho
Nee Ennai Paarkaiyil Naanathai Mooda
Irudhayam Muraip Padi Thudikkavillai
Idharku Mun Enakkidhu Nigazhndhadhillai
Irudhayam Muraip Padi Thudikkavillai
Idharku Mun Enakkidhu Nigazhndhadhillai
Naan Kanda Maatram Ellaam Nee Thandhadhu
Nee Thandhadhu

Mudhan Mudhalil Paarthaen Kaadhal Vandhadhae
Enai Marandhu Endhan Nizhal Pogudhae
Ennil Indru Naanae Illai Kaadhal Poala Yaedhum Illai
Ennil Indru Naanae Illai Kaadhal Poala Yaedhum Illai
Engae Endhan Idhayam Anbae Vandhu Saerndhadhaa
Mudhan Mudhalil Paarthaen Kaadhal Vandhadhae
Enai Marandhu Endhan Nizhal Pogudhae

hee hee super nice riteeeeeee...hee hee ok then...

Take care,
-God's Gift